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  1. I've decided to try an activity. This involves talking with my novel characters as though they're actors of a story. No one is probably interested in talking to them though, so this blog will probably attract little attention. :p Though any number of questions from the character are encouraged and appreciated. :D

    Legend
    Novel characters

    THE FAMILY
    1. Generation 1 - Saleem* and A'liyah*
      • Ali
      • Zafar
    2. Generation 2 - Ali and Aamina
      • Aman
      • Misbah
      • Romana
    3. Generation 2 - Zafar and Muizza
      • Naseem
      • Zeenat
    4. Generation 3 - A'bid and Zeenat
    INDIVIDUAL CHARACTERS
    1. Jennifer, Aman's fiance
    2. Maulvi Abdul Rahman, Jennifer's tutor and best friend
    3. Maulvi Fazal-e-Haq, Jennifer's loathe
    4. Timur, Maulvi Fazal-e-Haq's son*
    5. Jennifer's parents (unnamed)*
    6. Jalal, Misba's fiance
    7. A'num, Jalal's stepsister
    8. Mary, Jalal's cousin
    9. Abdullah, Romana's best friend
    10. Sumaira, Romana's teacher and mentor
    11. Few unnamed characters*
    *Not important characters, and will not be involved in these series, though I might change my mind

    Today's Focus: Muizza

    Specs
    • Good lassie
    • Alive
    • Physical: Brown hair and eyes, looks chubby and a fine lady
    • Muslim

    Muizza Zafar was a mother like any other. Intolerant of her son’s death, and sadistic about her family’s stance on his punishment, the lady has much of an inferno to handle…

    Me: Welcome to the interview Mrs. Muizza Zafar. May we discuss your character today?
    MZ: Not the sweetest way to put it, but go on.

    Me: Right…sorry. Moving on…what’s your role in the story?
    MZ: That’s fine, dear. I am a mother of two, and a wife to Zafar. I am most hurt at my only son’s death, and become possessive of my daughter who at first, loses her husband and then seemingly feels attraction towards her brother’s murderer. As a mother, I fight for both and as a wife, I pump my husband with similar harangues. Though unhappy with my in-laws and their verdict on Aman’s future, I try to do what I can.

    Me: Fair enough, and what kind of a mother are to all your children?
    MZ: My son Naseem was rather precious to me, and his death was a rather depressing event for me. I believe he was a chunk of my life’s joy. Zeenat, on the contrary, was like my student and had taught her all I knew. I never differentiated between my children, mind you.

    Me: Definitely. Well, what are your opinions on Zeenat’s affection for Aman? You gave the most input during the novel, but is there anything you’d like to highlight?
    MZ: I believe Zeenat had become far too engrossed in the lad, losing her mind. Good thing Aman got married to someone else, otherwise it would’ve been a pathetic storyline. Also, I guess it was pretty disturbing for me, seeing my son’s murderer was my daughter’s dream man – it’s just too awkward for a mother.

    Me: I see. Do you have any ending comments?
    MZ: Hmm…these cookies are nice. Oh, you mean the novel? Well, honey, you’re sixteen. Don’t get so overexcited and write about young adults.

    Me: Can’t say anything in defense, for a change. Good night.
    MZ: Good night.

    Next --> Aman, the star of the novel; what did the abused child turn out to be? A depressed psycho, or a man hell-bent on revenge from God? Or both? Don’t ask me – ask the hero…
  2. I've decided to try an activity. This involves talking with my novel characters as though they're actors of a story. No one is probably interested in talking to them though, so this blog will probably attract little attention. :p Though any number of questions from the character are encouraged and appreciated. :D

    Legend
    Novel characters

    THE FAMILY
    1. Generation 1 - Saleem* and A'liyah*
      • Ali
      • Zafar
    2. Generation 2 - Ali and Aamina
      • Aman
      • Misbah
      • Romana
    3. Generation 2 - Zafar and Muizza
      • Naseem
      • Zeenat
    4. Generation 3 - A'bid and Zeenat
    INDIVIDUAL CHARACTERS
    1. Jennifer, Aman's fiance
    2. Maulvi Abdul Rahman, Jennifer's tutor and best friend
    3. Maulvi Fazal-e-Haq, Jennifer's loathe
    4. Timur, Maulvi Fazal-e-Haq's son*
    5. Jennifer's parents (unnamed)*
    6. Jalal, Misba's fiance
    7. A'num, Jalal's stepsister
    8. Mary, Jalal's cousin
    9. Abdullah, Romana's best friend
    10. Sumaira, Romana's teacher and mentor
    11. Few unnamed characters*
    *Not important characters, and will not be involved in these series, though I might change my mind

    Today's Focus: Aamina

    Specs
    • Good lassie
    • Alive
    • Physical: Black hair and eyes, looks older than her age but rather beautiful
    • Muslim

    Aamina Ali is a woman of great emotional strength and steadfastness, whose love for her son overcame every mistake he made, and eventually was the pivot around which Aman returned to his true self. What is the secret of this miraculous mother?

    Me: Welcome to the interview Ms. Aamina Ali. We're going to talk about your character.
    AA: My pleasure, really.

    Me: Heh, you’re too sweet. ^^ Now, what’s your character’s role in the story?
    AA: I am a simple woman who has lived a joyous life before her husband’s sudden violence and uncalled for divorce accompanied with an accusation concerning her sanctity. The trauma was intensified when my son, Aman, chose to go with his father instead of staying with me. This caused me to become a much sober woman, who yearned for her son’s return. It didn’t really solve the problem, but as the story goes, it shows that the power of motherly love and strength is almost impossible to overturn – rather, human will is a powerful tool.

    Me: Beautifully put. What kind of a wife are you, that is, you were?
    AA: I’m shown to be a loving and devoted wife for whom her family life was all she placed her bet on. Although not discussed, I was an ideal homey wife.

    Me: Fair enough, and what kind of a mother are to all your children?
    AA: My role in the story is mostly concentrated on this facet of a woman’s life. As I have said, my love for Aman is the most and he is shown to be my personal favorite. His departure shattered me and his return invoked hope in me, and then my love forced me to keep struggling with him. As for Misbah, she is shown to be my tagalong daughter who I trust with my life, and perhaps love her for who she is. Then comes Romana, who has been able to grab limited attention from me since she was a mere infant when the divorce happened. She was neglected most of her childhood and turned to different outlets. Even though shown as someone who is a mild form of Aman and rather stubborn, the reader should realize her intense love for me which keeps her doing as I want her to. In the end, I too appreciate her commitment towards me and the vacuum left by my negligence in childhood is filled to an extent.

    Me: Detailed, but very informative! If there was to be a standalone about your husband, how would you carry the story?
    AA: Unlike the novel where I’m an old lady with a rather large emphasis on an ageing mother, I would be a younger, peppier and frolicsome woman, as I was before the divorce. My role should add a lot of beauty in the story.

    Me: Ha, that is true. Nonetheless, your parental family has been mentioned only once in the story. Do you think that is inappropriate?
    AA: No, it is done purposefully so as to leave an impression of the distancing from my family, which can be related to social reasons.

    Me: All right, what is your reaction to Aman’s affection for Zeenat? We don’t see much of it in the novel from you!
    AA: Ha-ha, you are right. I personally always knew, as we read from the novel about Aman and Zeenat’s childhood, but it doesn’t shock me because I understand the complexities both face. I also stop thinking over it in the end, seeing Aman marries someone else after all.

    Me: Very smart! Now, any ending comments?
    AA: Depressing stories come from depressed individuals.

    Me: Depressing stories come from real life. Good night to you.
    AA: Good night to you too.

    Next --> Muizza, the shattered mother who can’t tolerate her son’s murderer being allowed to stay in her own house, and hitting on her widowed daughter...
  3. Ramadan is a lunar month in the Islamic calender. Today is the first day of Ramadan, and today many Muslims start(ed) fasting! It's an exciting experience, to be honest.

    Ramadan is the month of fasting, when Muslims are expected to, at surface value, abstain from food, drink and conjugal relations from dawn to dusk - and spiritually, are expected to refrain from all areas of bad deeds especially, that maybe (I think) it can become a habit in future. :D

    Fasting is compulsory on the adult men and women. Women who are menstruating, are pregnant or lactating are exempted from this obligation and must make up for the days missed later in the year. Minors and travelers are also exempted from the obligation. The weak and old can miss fasts too, but are then supposed to feed a certain amount to a certain number of people to help them fast.

    Where it seems like a rip off from Christianity or other religions, its quite different. I mean, the whole experience is surreal. I never feel so happy, complete and at peace, but in this month. There is no hunger, and if there is, I don't bother. Trust me, I eat like a dinosaur when I like. But this month - I just don't. It's a rather ethereal month, full of joy and mercy of God. May Allah give all obliged Muslims the spiritual stamina to fast ~ Ameen.

    Everyone who took time to read, thank you. Ramadan is a special month for me at least, and after Ramadan we celebrate Eid-ul-Fitr - Festival of Giving. So yeah. :D
  4. Kind of like a sequel to this blog, I've finally put an end to my other novel, 'Heartless'. Rewriting never stops for me, but its ready enough to say that I can share it with someone, and can consider it completely complete after one run-over, maybe.I would thank God for this first, because I've written a 23% longer novel than before in about 31% less time, meaning about double effort! :eek: I was also very busy this summer, having four tuitions going on, whereas last year I was free in summers, literally. I also participated in RPs, so consider my tiredness! Alhamdulillah, Praise be to God, it all worked out eventually, and a day before school I'm done with it.

    The novel is listed here. Its genre is plainly religion and life, I guess.

    Heartless
    One thing is having a heart of stone.
    Another thing is having no heart at all.​
  5. (Continued from my previous blog)

    POETRY

    1. Ode to fire
      • Age: 12
      • Published: No
      • Progress: Completed
      • Favorite verses:
        Shining like the sun, stands a flame of fire,
        I look at it indulged, oh, how I am inspired.
      • Verse count: 8
      • Other: Actually wrote for a friend, she needed her homework done.
    2. A memoir of an angel on Earth: my sister
      • Age: 14
      • Published: No
      • Progress: Completed
      • Favorite verses:
        So when you think of me
        Make me sound like I'm God's princess
      • Verse count: 91
      • Other: It's posted in the Review Room, and I'll be rewriting it soon Insha Allah.
    3. Satan's letter to mankind dated 2100
      • Age: 14
      • Published: No
      • Progress: Completed
      • Favorite verses:
        Broken dreams
        Untouched hope
        Eluded couples
        Desiccated streams
      • Verse count: 53
      • Other: I need to rewrite it.
    4. Death shan't do the thing
      • Age: 14
      • Published: No
      • Progress: Completed
      • Favorite verses:
        When love is forbidden
        Why did my soul go on?
      • Verse count: 38
      • Other: Posted in PC No. 15 on this site.
    5. Lost and Forgotten
      • Age: 14
      • Published: No
      • Progress: Completed
      • Favorite verses:
        Lost and forgotten
        Are those eyes full of pain
        Blood streaming down
        The face of disdain
      • Verse count: 34
      • Other: Posted in the Review Room.
    • Death by raven
      • Age: 15
      • Published: No
      • Progress: Completed
      • Favorite verses:
        We died on the same hill in different summers
        My cherry red blood soaking the trees in vendetta
        One century later when you saw the stars in clusters
        I came back and served you demise like a pancetta
      • Verse count: 24
      • Other: Posted in PC No. 23 on this site.
    • Colour of my country
      • Age: 15
      • Published: No
      • Progress: Completed
      • Favorite verses:
        A crescent of hope
        Green of harmony
        Spilled upon my heart
        Is the colour of my country
      • Verse count: 38
      • Other: Posted in PC No. 35 on this site.
    • Thoughts of you
      • Age: 15
      • Published: No
      • Progress: Completed
      • Favorite verses:
        Strawberry juice squirts
        And the horizon dyes itself red
        The sun melts down and surrenders
        As the sunset is now dead.
      • Verse count: 28
      • Other: Posted in PC No. 36 on this site.

    I had other poetry, but lost it in a computer crash. I don't remember them much :(. Oh well, better luck next time?

    NOVELS

    1. You Are Loved
      • Age: Started at the age of 14, ended at the age of 15 (writing period: 6.5 months approx.)
      • Published: No
      • Progress: Completed
      • Favorite quote: I could gaze endlessly at the phenomenal portrait of nature. The skies were soaked with black massacre, but within its realm were sponged heavy-handed colors of navy and indigo. Stars twinkled momentarily, popping out like little beads of sweat and pulling out as if they never existed. Slowly, streams of black crawled throughout the sky, guiding it as time flew by. From above here, it seemed that vehicles ran to and fro like illuminated ants and scattered moths. My eyes shared the exuberance, but only limited to the fervor of the eyes. Deeper into the ocean of my thoughts, were bitter venoms and rotten dreams.
      • Word Count: 96,851 words
      • Chapters: 71
      • Other: none.
    2. Heartless
      • Age: Started at the age of 14, completed at the age of 15 (writing period: approx. 4.5 months)
      • Published: No
      • Progress: Completed
      • Favorite quote: The ennui of love is an adornment in me which shall reign my soul for years to come. [and many others]
      • Word Count: 121,442 words
      • Chapters: 88
      • Other: Prologue posted in the Review Room. Also, my second novel which has been completed in record time.
    3. It's Rainin' Youth
      • Age: Started at the age of 12
      • Published: No
      • Progress: Incomplete
      • Reason for incompletion: I lost a few chapters to accidental deletion. I gave up writing it and have decided to resume writing it after writing a few other novels.
      • Favorite quote: "I know I'm just another girl in just another city in just another country in just another planet, but what makes me special is that I'm Raven Harmolium."
      • Word Count: 19,188 words
      • Other: none.
    4. Cherished
      • Age: Started at the age of 14
      • Published: No
      • Progress: Incomplete
      • Reason for incompletion: I think it's not a very great idea.
      • Favorite quote: He had left for me a candlelight which never dimmed, even if you pressed hard against the flame; it would only burn you to ashes. It was a delicate but satisfying form of truth.
      • Word Count: 1,330 words
      • Chapters: 1 [up till now]
      • Other: none.
    5. Colors
      • Age: Started at the age of 14
      • Published: No
      • Progress: Incomplete
      • Reason for incompletion: Now that Heartless is done with, next summer comes this novel.
      • Favorite quote: [none as of yet]
      • Word Count: 387 words
      • Chapters: not even 1 [up till now]
      • Other: Random extract posted in the Review Room.

    I had two other novels, 'Heart-rupt' and 'The four friends eternal', both of which were lost to a computer crash. I had reached the climax in the first novel - it really upset me but I couldn't do much.

    (Continued in P3)