Uhh... so how long has it been since i posted on my blog? Quite a while i suppose? It's been quite a while since my last entry, so forgive me for that. I think i have really matured and grown as a writer since i left, feeling like a whole new person with a brand new name. I did although miss posting for awhile, it was a good thing i took my prolonging break. I can tell that my writing themes and topics are rapidly changing themselves over time, i'm reincarnating myself over and over. I never realized how much has changed since i joined this fine community, so it's quite a great thing to bestow. It's also been a huge lesson period for me, i'm not the same person i was when i joined this site, in a short span of 21 months i went from a silly 14 year old teenager to a learning, aspiring soon to be a 16 year old teenager. I'm posting this a little older and wiser. Although i have been flamboyant in the past with certain situations, i try my best not to let dark clouds block my judgement. Meaning i just want old ties to be loosened and dropped, since i'm becoming a better writer and more mature teenager by the day from the wisdom of others. I've been mainly focused on ONE story, but it's going to be a well-worthed one! I have been listening to advice and i am always open for more each day. I let nothing stop me because i feel like i can write this story more than ever, which is a very very good feeling to have. Out of this short come back post, i wanted to thank the people who put up with my actions and help me along the way. You're contributions and assistance has been greatly appreciated
Never let this Fade, me and you had it made. We could of became one, you and me. Sitting by the tree, the leaves, so fresh, so free. I could stare at the stars, between close and far, from your porch to your car. Looking at you, eyes blazing nothing could be more amazing. I get lost in you, so immersed and so real. I can't express how i feel. I want you to stay, even in the gray. Please stand by me, i become so alone. I remember the day we met, near the gray house. Yes, yours. The house that we shared our most precious memories. Me, you and your twin friends. How could this all end? Wait, before you leave, i have one last thing to say. You can always visit me in May. You could come back, to relive those great times. Now it feels like a constant chime. I can almost feel the serene moments. Why can't you stay? Just for one more day! How could you leave so soon? I guess im gazing too far to reach for the stars or shoot for the Moon. All im trying to say is, you mean the world to me... One look and the next thing i know, you are gone. I jump feet first into the snow, just thinking of you now. Wait does it mean to feel alone? This. I will relive and never forget, can you make me that promise? Before our final goodbye, the last glimpse of your auburn eyes. I just want to say how much i miss you. I want you to stay here so badly, but theres nothing i can do. That's life i guess, man this is such a mess! Life goes on, you know? I look back and think... did this really mean everything that i would of hoped it to be? Was it really the greatest gift? To me, it is. Just wait one more moment, look into my eyes. Hear me when i say never let this fade away...
Hey guys what's up with y'all? Sorry if i seem inactive i haven't really spent much time on here recently. I've missed this website very much since the last time i posted. I love this website and it changed my writing completely. So im posting this just to let you know, i haven't left this website! I plan on staying here as a very active member and pledge to keep it that way! See you on the Flipside! -Fullmetal Xeno
We all know in just a few days it will be the dawn of a new year, right? So i was just thinking about it and i came up with all my resolutions that i need to have for the upcoming year. This is what i came up for my new things to break and to improve for the next amazing year of my life. Heres my list.... 1. Practice my clarinet more (i need more practice) 2. Stop Procrastinating 3. Be a little bit more extroverted 4. Cut soda down to size, exercise daily to build muscle. 5. Getting rid of my fear of being social at times 6. clean my room more often 7. Less video games so my eyes can rest. 8. Begin to learn a new language (Japanese) 9. Write more 10. Get published 11. Getting the money to become supporter of this site 12. Get better grades after a struggling semester and work harder. (My priority!) 13. Take the best Highschool classes i can possibly can. 14. Scholarships. 15. To get out of my random depression stage. Hardest one to break. I have been in a random mood of depression lately, but im finding a cure. i just know some things would have to be changed for me to no longer feel that way. I am starting High school next year, so maybe that will break the ice. Maybe middle school is too much? Who knows! Now maybe i have boiled down one that in my life that's more severe. Possibly a gaping hole inside of me that tells me to write is another. Writing more is my key to motivation. My work is based on unfortunate events of history and themes of my life and others ive known to witness in my 14 years of life. Now i know you can't take me too seriously, im just a kid! Well sometimes that can be contradicted. I myself wonder how i responded to such powerful strings of life that makes people think so much. Maybe it's my outlook towards the world? Or possibly my demeanor and what im trying to say? I'm not wise. Just aware of my surroundings and the actions of the current world as it stands. When i listen to a certain type of music, i connect the lyrics together with the theme and create a picture in my head on how i see it, and that's how i get motivated to write. When a song has a strong meaning to it, my heart pours it's feelings out and witnesses the emotions and the pain others have felt. My heart somehow relates to the unknown truth of what most consider the unlucky. People have asked me, "Why do you care so much about politics?" Because, it seems to me the world has had enough corruption. Why feed the fire? Why fight for a war you can't definitely win? You can never win a war, because you lose lives. Since when is War a winning factor? It all depends on who's still breathing and what hasn't been taken just yet. Ive seen War Heros come back home to our very nation, faces totally distorted. Men without legs to run. Men without arms to carry. All for what, a vital message to a nation who is no better then the rest of the darkened plague that is corruption? What hurts me more is when Soldiers are disrespected, mind you they have fought for the very rights we have today, some traumitizied by mass torture, others losing bodyparts. Most losing close friends. And what do they get? They are ignored by the youth of the nation, unappreciative of what they sacrificed for us. Why do we fight for something others don't understand? Why is our nation so careless? Why is the dead interrupted by steeping on their tombstones for a dumb TV show? Soldiers go through hell and back fighting for the freedom of our nation, while some of us totally shrug it off. Everytime a gun is made, a homeless child could be clothed. Everytime you purchase millions for a nuclear bomb, a child could be fed. I understand im going off-topic, but this is how deep i get with these touchy subjects. My work is what gets me going, and hopefully i can land these messages into the story and make it a big wake up call. Or atleast how i view the world that we inhabitant. Maybe this is what's making me depressed? Partly. Now if only i could stop putting my story off, i would have much more to show. But this upcoming year, my delaying days are over! After reading plenty of Japanese manga, ive always wanted to learn the language! This year i want to plan on beginning a teaching lesson and to get a tutor to help me understand the language better. It's one of the hardest languages to learn, but im up to the challenge. One of my dreams is to visit there! Ive been thinking... Can i write my story in 1 year and get a publisher? Possibly. Depending which project gets done first! I personally can't wait to start High-school, i heard it was slightly toned down compared to Middle School. One reason is because of Marching band! Ive learned to get into band more because of how powerful music can be, and how friendships are made over the vital practice of special performance. One thing that should be improved is my social skills. Oh, i love to talk on here. But when im at school, it's another story! I barely speak a sentence in my homeroom class, mostly because im just like that. I want to get some wiggle room outside of my shell although. Some things in life i can't refrain from so i want to break the habit of being so introverted towards certain situations that i try to hide so nobody can see me. I want to be able to talk to people in a causal way, without being afraid to talk to them. I want to be able to fit in big groups and not be afraid to talk to people in front of a stage or afraid to do something silly. I want to release the unsure side of me, and just be myself in the way that never showed. I want to still be me, but in a alternate form. Hopefully i will not fringe away from that goal! What makes it so hard for me is interaction with people, such as events like asking people questions or standing up in front of the class to present. I always think, "Oh great. Im going to embarrass myself!" and it usually almost always happens. So when i actually want to interact with other people, im afraid to how they might respond. Especially if you did some weird things years ago that you aren't so proud of now. (You know.. weird kiddy stuff?) One of the most impossible things for me is to actually walk up to people and talk to them. Especially if its a girl i like. I always try to take it slow and work my way up to that, such as just being friends with them. Another goal is to spark up the courage to ask her out after so much time. It's even worse when you've liked this girl for years. And you barely talk to her... ive gotten little success on that part, but i still need to improve myself where i can actually just say hi. I forgot to mention when im around alot of girls and im the only guy, i get nervous. My knees actually shake a bit. I know, pathetic! I don't know what it is, i guess it's just me creating negativity of what will happen next? Or the possibility of me doing something stupid? Who knows! After receiving much advice i'd thought to take it to the spot ive always needed to land on. 2012 will be a fresh, new year of opportunities of wonder. I will no longer refrain, or be upset or procrastinate! 2012 is the year i tear down my fears and phobias. The day has come where i should no longer rat myself out of a situation. But instead, go along with it. I will be a man this upcoming year. I will do what i've always wanted to do. Life gets better in 2012. That's what it should be like, now my only challenge is to live up to that standard! My mind races across everything, sometimes i jump around too much. What im trying to throw out there is i like to explain my resolutions. As a much needed update for my blog, i think this is a good run-thru. If you expected a simple resolutions post, well you're in for a surprise! You should know by now that im a primitive talker on here. I like to blabb on about writing, sometimes i go against myself to actually do it. True story. Ok, so what i mean by this post is to ask you all, what is your Resolution? Is it a long, drastic, severe list like mine? Or does it contain 1 or 2 things? Comment here! Yep, very odd times for Xeno. Who knew he could jump from Warfare to Social situations so fast? What a random person he is!
I haven't posted much lately, but don't worry i'lll be on more often. I'll still might not be as active as i usually am, but bare with me. I have alot of new games to play, such as MW3, Skyrim and more. Writing has been really slow, My NanoWrimo was a disaster, theres no way i can finish the rest of that story. So, for now on im focusing on one project. Yes. Just one! Well one im actually going to write. You'll see when i start writing it. Ive been a slow writer for awhile, so i'd thought i would keep you guys updated on my writing process. The new project is Project:Frost, a story i have been working on since i was 8. (Theme and Idea-wise) and i know what i want for it to lean towards. I have the ideas ready, just writing the story and develop everything will be the hard part. See with Terra, i had a hard time developing such a massive world, so i pushed it aside to something alot smaller, somewhere better to start. I decided that project will be my backbone story, where i can work on it for years to come. This new story ive started is based off of a story of mine called "Downfall" which was a old story i thought of when i was younger and now im developing it into a more mature and darker story. I will otherwise keep you guys updated on other things, and maybe i will stop procrastinating and get this story flowing. - Fullmetal Xeno
When i watch the sky turn gray from a midmorning fray, i take my day inside the stringent darkness that continues to surround me. When you say that you should of stopped it, but it turned out you couldn't stop the decay. Tears blisten in the sinking Sun, and you realize the times aren't fun. You hope for the best, when the leaves have fallen, and turned back to no return. You hang on by a thread, wishing you were dead. But somehow water pours down on your cheeks, in the bleak mist. You try so hard to follow Life on your own, but you soon notice you can't live alone until the life has been lost in the lurking frost. As the snow falls after the leaves, you start to believe that it should of been you but when all along it was not your fault. You then get back up, fighting for what you truly believe in, until that last Rose has fallen off the stems of grace. But now, all you can do is keep looking forward until the time has come, to face the demons amongst the hidden. You don't stop, you keep moving. Even if the pressure is beyond little. As i watch her die, i sense the last ounce of warmth in her hands. I hold on to the last part of life she still has left- inside my heart. Even if hope seems laconic, her heart will never fade. Even at the last strike, my heart is still full of vivacious memories of the one inside the marooned casket. Her life remains in my heart, until the last image fades away- i will be there with her. Always.
I decided to post the whole story on my blog so it's easier to navigate around and read it. and to remind you, this is the OLD version. The new one is much better, with having better character development, darker moods and a lot more characters , the new one is totally different. The plot is much more sophisticated, and some of the characters such as Hollowfox and Ironfang are no longer characters...This was also done for school and that's why it's kinda corny. I also had to speed up the ending a bit. So if it sucks, it's cause of me rushing XD. But please read on, don't let me spoil your expectations. Im very judgmental of my own writings, i just want too see if everybody else thought so. Enjoy! Blue Phoenix (Old version) (2,682 Words) The Gods had sent Phoenix and Golden Fire to planet Nebula , where Phoenix used to live: to go search for a secret evil ruling amongst the stars. Golden fire had guided Phoenix along the Journey, providing support. She could remember the days when they were in School. On Planet Earth. The Gods were no longer believed, but they still reined Olympia. Phoenix was granted the powers of the Blue Phoenix. New generations of gods have emerged, even after thousands of years of hiatus. There were other planets were they were sent to, so they could not be discovered. Nebula was one of them. But Zeus sent Phoenix to look for any lurking shadow that had hidden on the planet’s atmosphere. Hades wanted to capture this enemy, so he could send them to the Underworld. Phoenix had some traits from Hades, consisting of Blue Powers. But he wasn’t a dark ruler. Originally, he was just a normal person. At least so do his friends on Earth. All the Leading Gods knew someday, someone would discover them once again as real. But one thing was certain; Gods could not start Thunder without unleashing the power, or send tornadoes. But sometimes, they could. As the future Generations ascend, the Gods learn more and more about how to keep their Powers under control. Goldenfire was the best at keeping her powers under control. She knew that if she wasn’t, she could risk many lives. Phoenix had taught her many things about her abilities, because of his past experiences with Hades. Hades had given him a blended power, along with certain gifts from Zeus. Both of them concurred to this power blending. Phoenix had been done with School, now going off alone in his Normal life. He planned on being A Movie Director after he got out of college. He loved Movies ever since the days he watched his first movies when he was young. Goldenfire had planned on being a Professional Soldier for the Marine Corps. But soon after the end of School, she realized it would be too much for her. She then instead switched to be an Actor. Once Phoenix was told about this, he knew they would be friends in their young adult lives. High school was difficult for both of them, since the fact they had to hide their powers. Even the smallest slip, they could get into a heap of trouble. Phoenix had almost revealed his powers twice, but luckily he controlled it. Zeus had warned him afterwards, but understood his struggle. Zeus was like a father to Phoenix. Zeus had more experience since the Greek times when everything began. He knew so much, almost every time he could predict and ask what happened, and still get it right. But occasionally, it was something new. He trusted Phoenix the most, granting him more powers after many of his brave duties. Goldenfire wasn’t even close to Phoenix’s tasks. She was less powerful, containing of only a Medium Wildfire. She got paranoid around forests, cause she was afraid she would start a fire and destroy them. She loved Nature. Phoenix had been through a lot since high school. He matured a lot. And by that, meaning he was stronger, calmer, quieter and had better manners. He could handle many things that the other kids couldn’t. He was outstanding, according to Zeus. To Hades, he was very sarcastic. He always had complimented him about his quiet and sarcastic nature to his enemies. Hades adored it. Phoenix knew Hades very well, and trusted him. Hades may have seemed like an enemy, but he really wasn’t. Hades just ruled the Underworld, which had peaceful people, Heroes and Bad people there. It was a mixture of different things. Hades eventually offered Phoenix to assist him in the Underworld when he dies, so he could always be a legacy. He also wanted the extra help. Goldenfire had received a message from Hades also, to be his Co-Assistant. Phoenix had no idea why, but he was still somewhat excited to hear that. He thought that maybe Hades predicted that they would be married someday, but Phoenix did not find that possible. At least, not right now. Not yet. He was always thinking about it, and sometimes he would imagine her and him being Assistants of Hades, while still being in love. He couldn’t imagine it. It was too much, and he didn’t want to rush time. It wasn’t the main subject at this point. Ares, the God of War had told Phoenix that if he ever showed any type of emotion towards Goldenfire, it would be a world of worries. Ares had been through enough to know. Phoenix was also best friends with Ares. He helped him as a young child, and ever since they would hang out and talk. Ares had good feelings that Phoenix would one day rule the New Generations of The Gods, when Zeus and the others go to Olympia to rule the rest. The construction of the New Olympia was starting to be made. While the New Generations formed, they would build the New kingdom till the day they rule the New Olympia. And Zeus and the rest would control the original kingdom. Poseidon was also a friend of Phoenix. Since Phoenix had Goldenfire with him, he steeped in to help her gain control on her wildfires. Poseidon would always say, “If you make a Wildfire, I’ll be there to stop it!” Goldenfire was deeply appreciated by his help. Even Poseidon said they would be nice together. Goldenfire usually blushed when he said that, but she wouldn’t show it in front of him. Zeus was worried that Nebula was under attack, so once Phoenix was ordered to solve the problem, he went straightforward to the atmosphere. Without a doubt, Phoenix could tell that the citizens of Nebula were in massive danger. Once they landed through to orbit, they both quickly began their long journey scanning the planet. Phoenix was very young when his parents had migrated over here. After he was 5, they moved to planet Earth. There, he met Goldenfire. They have known each other ever since. It’s been 13 years since the day they met. It seemed like a century ago. But it wasn’t. Phoenix had remembered the first glance Goldenfire made at him when he stepped into his Kindergarten class. Mrs. Limestone, the teacher was sitting right in front of the whole class when he came in. Everyone had a strange look on their faces. It seemed like he was from Mars. But the only drastic difference was that he was a God. But for Kindergartners, they had no clue what that meant. Goldenfire was the only person who would treat him right. She was his only friend at the time, so for some reason the Relationship thing that Poseidon said was actually somewhat possible. Phoenix tried to deny it, but he had a sense that he was wrong. It would eventually happen. The Gods never lied. Not even the slightest lie. Phoenix had been under a lot of stress, throughout Elementary School. When he was 4th Grade, the Teacher Mrs. Raven had been the strictest on him. She gave him the hardest time, and to him that was the worst Grade ever. But he had thought she knew he was a God, so maybe she was told to be that way to him. But somehow, Mrs. Raven would sometimes say nothing. Maybe she was connected with the Gods. But how in the heck would a 4th grade Teacher from North Carolina be connected to the rulers of the Worlds? It made no sense. Phoenix had told Goldenfire about her, and she thought the same thing. Could it be true? After 4th grade ended, Phoenix had dropped the idea about Mrs. Raven. His new Teacher, Mrs. Cora had treated him with great respect. Now in 5th grade, his luck began to turn. She knew he was under a lot of pressure, so she went easy on him. When someone pushed him in the hallway, and he fought back she defended him from a Detention. Phoenix then told her that he was sorry, but she knew he would be. Then, that same thought came thru his mind. Could it possibly be? All he knew, was she was nicer then ever before. Could Mrs. Raven and Mrs. Cora be connected to Zeus and Poseidon and all the others? The same thought from last time had triggered. He then soon, figured it out. But he didn’t ask. It was the Teacher… That Day had astonished Phoenix. Mrs. Cora had happened to be a helper of Poseidon due to her family name. He was shocked, then telling her everything. Then from that day on, he had someone else he could count on. Mrs. Cora told her that Mrs. Raven was also a helper, and they both happened to be friends from their time at school. And that same exact school was the one they were teaching in. Phoenix had been so excited. Now, his School life had totally changed but in the good way. He could remember all those years. From his first minute he walked in Mrs. Limestone’s class, to his last day in high school. He had his diploma, and his parents had a small celebration for it. Now, Phoenix was on top of the world. He was now alone. His parents let him start his career as an adult. Someday, he would be a legend. He would be the New Zeus. But Phoenix-styled. His journey on Nebula was a long one. Goldenfire wasn’t used to it. But he was. The search was so far unsuccessful, but he didn’t give up. They stopped in a middle of a forest. The forest was covered with many different animals, and the trees waved around like they were dancing. Some leaves came off the branches. It was peaceful. Goldenfire sat down,...
Hello everybody, just dropping by to say i released my really old, short, and crappy version of Blue Phoenix. I wrote it for school, so it's kinda corny. The one im working on is much different in almost every way. I explain in the post. So if you have time to read it, go ahead and check it out. Oh and i had to rush it a bit so it might suck a bit XD. Anyway, later!
For those of you who might be confused, the 9 book novel series is Blue Phoenix. And the Fantasy trilogy is Terra. Im going to work on Terra and finish before i start on Blue Phoenix. Im also work on a spin-off to Blue Phoenix as well.
Well im at work on a Fantasy novel called Terra. I plan on making it a trilogy or a saga... im still working on the plot and im developing characters and writing short stories. It's not my only novel project, but ive had been working on this one for awhile. Im also working on languages but im still deciding if it's a full language or just a few paragraphs. Im still mapping out my world, ive finished 4 maps so far of countries. Ive have yet to write the histories of each country, and their inhabitants. The world im creating was from a dream, and i plan on making it pretty big but not too big.
Well this is my first blog post, so it's not much right now... If you want to know what im working on, i am at work on a 9 book novel series...