Hi all ^^ It's been forever and a day since I logged on here and actually participated... unfortunately, this is not a "sorry and things will change" post...It's more of a "I miss you all but I still have to stay away." I'm living on the largest single campus in the US and I'm having quite a time exploring it and trying my new classes. That and I need sleep >< On top of the work, I need sleep O.O I've made some new freinds, and I think we have potential to be that group, you know? The one that might branch off at some point, but it will still be us originals at somebody's wedding party acting the same way we did when we met each other in our teens/early twenties. We break into random song, make some randy jokes and have each others' back. That's more than I could have asked for in high school. And, if it lasts, it's a good thing to recieve from life^^ I miss you all and hope to see you on the other end of my quarter (yes, great ole OSU is still on the quarter system -_-) Paz from Triple Z oh, P.S. Syphs is stil in limbo but Alaska's Screenplay is still slugging along >_> We won't discuss it <_< We just won't. Paz ^^
I don't know if you all know about it yet, but Disney is releasing its first animated movie with a Black princess- that's right! The eighth Disney Princess is BLACK! This holiday season, Disney will release the animated tale of The Frog Prince, a tale akin to Beauty and the Beast in that a prince is cursed (I cannot remember why in this particular tale) and made into a creature not all that attractive to the masses and the only key to his redemption is a kiss. Yes, in all fairytale, your problems can be solved with a kiss (if only). Also like BATB, you never really know what happens afterward, it's all chocked up to "happily ever after." In this new Disney version, however, there is more added to the plot. We get to see things after the kiss (with a nice, but predictable, twist) and we get to explore the worlds of the characters. The last paragraph is where I start to lose my faith in people. Here's just a few of the reactions people have to that and "why" (they think it's all valid, I think it's quite hypocritical) they have them: -the princess will be named "Tiana": the name's "too ethnic" (and if they had named her "Ashley," it would have been too "white"...or "Jessica," or "Kendra" for that fact ...) -Tiana is colored (she's a cartoon after all) somewhere between a mocha with cream and a nice dark caramel: she's not "dark enough" (but if she'd have been blue black they would have cried "you're alluding to slaves" or something else just to complain) -Tiana is a frog for part of the movie: it's racist (no, you're mad that the first black princess will be turned into a frog...I don't remember ever hearing a word about how Cinderella was treated, don't remember anything about the sexism in Mulan, the imprisonment or Aurora in Sleeping beauty- it's because Tiana is black, that's why they're mad about the frog thing) -the prince is "racially ambiguous": Why couldn't he black? Why does he look white? Why is he voiced by a Brazilian actor? Why can't Disney depict a strong black couple? (Oh, do shut up! It's two thousand effing nine for crying out loud! Yes, Black love is something strong and powerful, but so is White love, Hispanic love, and INTERRACIAL LOVE. But let's be honest, how are you really sure that all of the above aren't actually INTERRACIAL LOVE. We are no longer a society of race-defined love -I know I used race to define it earlier, that was for clarity's sake-, so why shouldn't the movie reflect that?) -it's set in New Orleans: It's too soon after Hurricane Katrina, that's callous and exploitative of an area that has taken too hard a blow (I'll give you that New Orleans still has some unhealed wounds, but do you know what this movie could do to heal them? Can you imagine all the little girls who want to see where Princess Tiana lives? It won't be like Snow White, Cinderella, or Sleeping Beauty, movies that were all set "once upon a time" and in some far off kingdom- New Orleans is tangible and it means something to people. All publicity is good publicity....) -the prince is cursed by a witch doctor and there is a distinct voodoo element to the movie: it's demeaning and stereotypical (stereotypical, yes...I'm iffy on "demeaning" because it's really just a plot point. voodoo/black magic was used for relevance within the setting. That's definitely stereotypical, but wouldn't it be just the least bit suspicious if some bulbous little spirit popped in and cursed the prince?) -it's about a princess: princesses are unrealistic (Shut the hell up. Enough said.) All and all, I want to see the movie because the trailer (which you can watch here HTML: http://www.comcast.net/news/badeaupov/939/disneysfirstblackprincessdrawsfire/?intcid=FCHPFooter_disneyprincess_0610 although it is within an article) actually seems interesting. It's a children's movie, let's please allow children the ignorance and bliss of not having to rip every little cartoon and/or movie they watch down to how insulting it is to the world. What's next? We can't sing Ring Around the Rosies in kindergarten anymore?
When the flowers wilt, and robust love wanes, I will still remain unchanged. When you move on, and I'm long gone, We will still be the same. If our lives should meander, and we are once again together, then I shall smile and simply decline. You want so much, but I will only offer so little. You care too much, and I not at all. I could say I'm sorry, but I feel no remorse. None at all.
I did it, I was miserable in high school, so I punched an early ticket out. I can count on one hand how many people actually seemed happy for me- not on the positive side of indifference, not faking it for my ego, actually happy for me. I can count on about thirty-two hands how many people were ready to snap my neck for having the gall. Well, I stuck my foot in it. By doing what I did and having worked hard enough for the last twelve years (I went to school before formal kindergarten), I worked myself right into the number two spot of my "new" class. Hooooweee were they pissed. Imagine how they'd feel if they knew that I had the worst grade of my entire school career in this past academic year and still beat the one who had my spot previously. I give the person credit though, slacking off doesn't get you number two. Oh, how I stuck my foot in it? I'm clausophobic. Why is this a problem? Apparently the salutatorian has to make a salutatory speech. YAY ME! She says with a sarcastic grin. I've written my speech and have it mostly memorized...but I did it And I have to give said speech in less than forty-eight hours in front of one-hundred and sixty-one peers and their assembled guests. Oh yeah! A week from tomorrow I get to lose my tonsils...life is going swimmingly, just effing swimmingly...
It started the day I took a personality test, "Which Twilight Character Are You?" Well I was Bella Swan...I bet everybody gets to be Bella if they identify as female. So I took a different one, "What do you smell like to Edward Cullen?" I smell like strawberries...whatever the hell that means. I was kinda getting sick of that, so I took a different one, "Are You Team Edward or Team Jacob?" I like the underdog, so I was predisposed to be on Jacob's Team and the test only confirmed such...so I TOOK ANOTHER ONE!!! Big surprise, right? I promise it's the last one. "Which Twilight Guy's the Right One For You?" I wanted Emmet. EMMET, I TELLS YA! But I got, "Hello, Mrs. Jacob Black." But then I got to thinking...what would Twilight have been like if their was a female character who had imprinted on Jacob? Do you think Bella would have made it to Eclipse? I would think not...Think about it, a shape-shifting, love sick teenaged girl watching the love of her life fawning over some weirdo vamp lover. But what's worse is when you know the truth Spoiler he's not even in love with BELLA, he's in love with one of her eggs and one of Edward's little swimmers . I would have been waiting in the wings to eliminate the little hussy, her blood-sucking stalker be damned! But alas, there was no such character... Oh well, at least these tests weren't like the other celeb personality tests I took, "Who Is Your Celebrity Prom Date?" and "Which Jonas Brother is Right for You?" I got the youngest Jonas Brother (Nick is it?) both fricken' times Blarg a farg!
I'm Choosing Denial If somebody asks: Did that really happen on saturday? I'm choosing denial. When someone says: You're family really forgot? I'm choosing denial. Should somebody say: It was that bad? I'm choosing denial. I'll choose denial like a loyal friend. I'll reject reality like the current trend. I'll run with denial, and I will never look back again.
Is it bad that I want to be held, but in arms that aren't yours? Is it bad that I want to be kissed, but by lips that aren't yours? Is it bad that I want to be gazed at lovingly, but by eyes that aren't yours? Is it horrible that I fear being loved, but only by the heart that is yours?
Coz I'm a BUCKEYE (rhymes with witches)! Sorry, just wanted to say it I'm going to college! I'm going to college!!!!
So, I have beeen off for awhile, and I sincerely apologize to any that care that I was gone. To be honest, this is the forst time in seven days that I had access to a computer and didn't have homework to do Yay me Anywho... In the last seven days I have: >earned the fourth highest rank on my tennis team (of fifteen girls) >confessed to my guy friend that I liked him, and my girl friend >set these two up because they liked each other >broke the two up because they were confused to begin with >ventured twice into literary territory previously unimagined (to me) >began another novela, and written nearly twenty full pages of it >found my first ever fully written novel >discovered I used to be crap writer >discovered that I can take a pretty picture on purpose >pulled my first all nighter >decided that my former number one was not the tru college for me >learned said college felt the same way about me >picked up my old hobbies >and won my first tennis match of the season!!! I told you I was addicted to not sitting still
bouncin bouncin bouncin off the walls hit one and then another and they all will fall no more sugar splenda sweet in low give me more carbs and my head should surely blow right off my shoulder smash against some boulders cause i'm cwazy in a daze in a craze I'll be hyped for days
Dear reader, Today, your name is "girl in mirror," and I am so happy that you are finally smiling when you look back...but now I am disappointed. You know very well where this sudden spark of confidence is coming from, and that it is only a mask. I know that you know that there is fear lurking under that mask, and it is more than a Papercut(Linkin Park). Why are you so afraid of that damned debilitating voice, the one wriggling 'round under your skin? Is it really that scary? Coz, little ole me, the more powerful voice stuck in your head, is going to deal with the Voice downstairs pretty fugging soon if it doesn't shut its mouth immediately. I don't like htis, I don't like it at all. No, I don't want you to be the Super Studious Girl you once were, she was an uptight bitch, and we hated each other. What I want, what you need, is to be YOU. Yeah, Y-O-U, the girl that's going to win over her life and be damned if it'll be ripped from her. What we need is for you to walk like you believe in yourself, write like you know you have potential, play like the game pumps your blood through your veins, and deal with school like it's your good ole friend and not your estranged lover. Your better than this girl you've been of late. But, her happiness can be yours too. Grab that happiness by the hand and rip it away from that moodiness and then sit your ass down and do some work. Also, please (oh GAWD PLEASE!) remember that just because a university said, "We'd love it if you attended, we accept you," it does not mean that it is an unconditional relationship, you're entering into a deal. In case you have miraculously forgotten, the deal is as follows: In exchange for you keeping up your grades at your current institution of learning, there will be a spot waiting for you at their institute of higher learning. Once there, in exchange for you keeping up your grades and, hopefully, particicpating in campus and student life activiteis and events, there will continue to be a spot with your name on it at the institution. See? It's all conditional. Don't be a dumbass and forget that!!! I mean it! I control your feet, I will kick your arse! Anywho, I love you, you love you, and at the moment...there's an odd line of guys who seem to really like you...and yeah, you're not sure that a certain person is in that line, but loves come and go, your knowledge follows you to the grave. You have a lot of time and potential, but that doesn't mean you should be squandering either. And, until you realize this, I'll be thrashing my head against our little glass closet. Please, I need asprin, Triple Z
Got my coca-cola glass and I'm spinnin' it around, pondering and wondrin' why my world's upside down. Got messed up in things I couldn't avoid, and now I am confused, also annoyed. Spin little glass, you're my centerfuge. Can't take anymore, reality deludes. Good gawd dang! I thought I had escaped; but here I am again, in my emotions draped. Darned skippy, my emotions are worn on my sleeves. And when I finally embrace sanity, it gets up and leaves. Can't take it any longer, it ain't makin' me no stronger. I would love to give up now, but I'm wrapped around yer finger. Wrapped, spaghetti round a fork, crime round New York, orbits around planets, a satelite of your sun. Is it the masochist in me, or is this plain fun? No, but wait! I ain't done! Look at this string of emotion you've begun. I blame you, I do, I do, I do-ooh! Spin little glass, spin, coz my word is unravelin'.
You nosy people you I'll share... Weak, meek, bored, you crave the battle, want to learn more, that is why you have come. We welcome you. My name is Gaia Sol and I am the owner of this establishment. Those who enter my arena do not come so that they may sit in the shadows, they come to battle. We have many arenas and locals. If you are a mage, or well versed in the magical arts, Schy aven is for you. Do you enjoy the melee, the adrenaline of feeling your opponent as you punch him to the floor? Tiger Palace is yours. Have you swords, knives, weapons of close range? The Dragon's Village. Or is the thrill of the trigger which excites you? Assassin's Alley is your arena. We have many more, we cater to all. Please enjoy the facility. Also note, death is of no worry, you are granted the Essence of Phoenix when you enter through our threshold. But first: Who are you? (BIO) Whay skills have you. (Self-Explanatory) This arena is yours for working out many types of combat from fists to guns and everything in between. Or just work out sequences for fun! How to use this arena: 1. Once two or more combatants agree that they wish to use the Arena, they should recruit a Mediator for their fight (any member of the site who agrees to do it is fine). The Mediator's job is to ensure that each character is taking their hits realistically and to rule on the amount of damage taken if need be. 2. The Mediator is like a Referee in sports. The combatants will abide by the Mediator's rulings. 3. Remember to separate the character from the player. Characters may fight with each other and even be angry with each other, Players are expected to remain cool-headed and on good terms with each other. 4. The Essence of the Phoenix is invoked when death would otherwise occur. We don't want to waste characters in the arena.
Love fully, live happily, and forgive unconditionally. Growing takes learning; learning takes understanding, understanding takes trying, and trying takes COMMITMENT. Wield your pen so that it may maim the confidence of the guy with the sword. Don't underestimate Forever until you are on your deathbed. Life goes on whether you're weak or strong, just try not to be dragged along. You have to get up and strut, or at least pretend not to crawl. Loves come and go; your knowledge will follow you to the grave. Beauty on the outside does not outweigh your ugly insides. Never ask "What are you laughing at," if you don't already know, then it's you. Green money makes others green with envy; but your stupid pride makes them laugh. Life is all about living, loving, and giving. We grow lighter when we snip our leaves, more fulfilled when we nourish our branches, and stronger when we strengthen our roots. Smiling at the idiot will get you farther than smacking him. To lie in matters of love is to smack the heart acrost its mouth. One of the biggest lessons you’ll ever learn is that the world revolves around the sun, YOU ARE NOT THE SUN. Only those who extend their hands in help should ever extend their hands in want. Do not confuse Love with science or math, Love cannot be taught in the classroom. As humans, we do not read minds; so, if you’ve something to say, please use the organs located at the bottom of your face. Real friendships last beyond convenience.
sometimes I wonder if I've any friends at all they say ne'ry a word to me in summer attached to my hip come fall or even worse "I'm there for oyu" yet no actions prove said words true I admit that I'm not always nice but I don't lie about how I feel I tell you true "I just don't want to be 'rpound you" Can these words not be spoken to me or are there none that wish to say them I don't want a bff but I want to know I've freinds left people don't like when I'm always calming me down when I'm mad but no one seems to care, I'm at the bottom of the list I hear people talkin all the time bout their friends and their crazy times but where am I all alone trying to figure out where I went wrong or is this just how it is to be me alone yet always friendly there are those I wonder what you say when I can't hear and those that I fear have a different face from what I've seem