Emotions

By cydney · Aug 28, 2016 · ·
  1. Just posting thoughts here & hope there's no imposition.

    Don't you hate it when someone thinks you're thinking what they're thinking? :)

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  1. cydney
    Afternoon Caffeine

    I am way too sensitive sometimes.
    I don't know why.
    I know who cares about me.
    And I know that one little word,
    one misunderstood thought,
    one night or one day
    won't change that.

    The magician mixes his chemistry
    at a price. I should be sympathetic
    but what I am is empathetic.
    I pay a price too.
  2. cydney
    Destiny In the Air

    I'd like to hear
    loud and clear
    sometimes
    but there's so much interference -
    static on the screen, noise
    in the ear.
    I guess that's the wrap
    around this gift -
    mental fingertips
    touch
    infrequently.
  3. cydney
    I always figured
    as long as I didn't do anything wrong,
    really really tried not to mess up,
    I wouldn't be blamed
    for stuff I didn't do.
    In the last few years
    I've discovered that's not true.

    Don't know why
    it took me so long.

    I remember a really good sermon
    about integrity -
    acting the same way all the time
    as if God were watching.

    I'm not perfect by any means
    but I've always remembered that message.
  4. cydney
    Discussion:

    Participation
    Cautious
    Afraid
    Baggage
    I know.
    I'm sorry.

    Determination: No one heals overnight.

    Longing: I want to have fun again.
  5. cydney
    Some memories are so bad & still hurt. Then you have memories of something that someone said or did that point the way to better understanding yourself.

    I'll never forget a discussion I had with a lady at church. I was telling her how I'd had a terrible experience on a favorite website (where I had once been well liked & accepted) & that the logical thing to do was just leave & never go back. But instead I seemed even more obsessed with it. She told me 'you keep going back because you were rejected & you keep hoping the same people who hurt you will accept you once again.'

    I think she was right. In my moments of anger I wanted to say 'I'm just here to piss you off' but deep down inside I wanted them to love me again.
  6. cydney
    Am I experiencing a reoccurring nightmare or is it just my imagination?

    Anyway I gotta go to work.

    Later!!
  7. cydney
    Have you ever tried to ignore something or pretend it isn't there hoping it will go away & it never does?

  8. cydney
    Labor Day Weekend

    I'm kinda afraid to move
    afraid to speak
    but I don't wanna sit here
    all weekend
    and do nothin'
    and I don't wanna
    sleep my life away.

    Love this song "Cause Baby, We're Fragile"

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  10. cydney
    He thinks I should be warmer & softer & I've been drinking wine & crying all night because it's not me who needs to reach out. It's him. He needs to stop being so shy, step out of his comfort zone and share his feelings honestly. If he can't do that I have to conclude he is not sincere, :( :unsure:
  11. cydney
    I wonder if he thinks I might be too hot to handle!! Lol. He can't handle me! haha
  12. cydney
    Whoa that wore me out saying all that.
  13. cydney
    I wrote a lot right here!
  14. cydney
    The Real Disturbance

    I'm disturbed
    because I've lost friends
    (who apparently weren't real friends)
    and lovers who cheated
    and want to come back
    as though nothing ever happened/s.
    But what disturbs me the most
    is that my spirit has lost its freedom.

    You would say, that's your problem, your fault.
    And you would be right.

    But it's also ok for me to write about it
    and to look at you with a suspicious eye
    because you don't, or won't, stop
    doing what you do.
  15. cydney
    Flashbacks & Patience

    I get so terrified I can't move
    and then when I do -
    - it's the wrong thing!

    :)
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