*falls alseep face first into the keyboard*

  1. Won't demonstrate here. :p

    I've had probably 8 hours sleep... over the last 3 days. Today's my birthday, and I'm just miserable and grouchy, and I've cried twice, felt like the world was ridiculously over my head, and just useless. Been trying to look after a very vulnerable friend, and it's so hard to do that... I've never had to help someone in as worse situation as they were in before in my life. No idea what I was doing, but I did my best... Which just left me feeling guilty that I came home for my birthday, because I could only offer my protection while I was in that city, since I couldn't leave my friend with my key (and my housemate is the landlord's daughter so would know and be able to do something about it if I'd let my friend stay anyway) so I had to make her go to another house... When she'd told me I was truly the only person she could stay with for the sole reason that I am not a friend of her ex-boyfriend while everyone else she knows in the city are. She's staying with people she didn't feel safe with for that circumstatial evidence, and I'm home celebrating my birthday (I'm a twin and there's so many reasons I couldn't NOT go home) and... ARGH. Just argh. I still feel like I might cry.

    And I can't write because I'm so tired. I've been putting down a few lines here and there, but I just don't have the brainpower to see a whole scene at once like normal... I'm failing to visualise things in the contect of my story so there's going to be so much editing... Blargh!

Comments

  1. Eunoia
    Nothing wrong with crying, it's good to let things out. But don't feel so guilty about leaving your friend, at least you were there for her and there's nothing wrong with wanting to celebrate your birthday at home. And get some sleep! :)

    And.. happy birthday! :D
  2. w176
    Oh. Keep in going, stay strong and look after yourself.

    My advice helping out someone who is in really bad shape is that small things matter a lot. Just sending an SMS, about just anything "Thinking of you, if you wanna relax i just noted that scrubs was on tv" for example every hour or so can mean the world to some people. Even if the might not have the energy to answer. Or calling them when you are at the supermarket asking them if she whats you to pick up some comfort food or anything else. Or lending someone your Wii for emotional distraction.

    Just small gestures you think might work and show you care, but don't oblige the receiver to do anything especial
  3. Joanna the Mad
    What happened to your friend? Don't be so hard on yourself! You're being a really good friend to your friend already, you can't do more than you're already doing (8 hours sleep in 3 days??) so don't feel guilty!
  4. Joanna the Mad
    Oh yes, happy birthday :)!
  5. Taylee91
    Oh, cheer up Melzaar :D Tomorrow will be better :D Hope you have a great birthday. And your twin too :D
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