Frustration... curse you Nemesis :(

I have never understood the idea of blogging. Until now. Well atleast a form of blogging, its a nice way to vent all your frustration. So I am just going to rant for a bit.


I have been writing this short story that involves 3 of my favorite characters. One of the many things I like about Stephen King's writing is that alot of it seems to exist in the same universe of sorts. Usually this is just in the form of Cameos. Which for some reason I love. So I figured if I was ever going to write novels, they were going to be all connected. Which is how these three characters, although have their own story(sorta) have come together. Not that any of that matters because right now i am just typing all this crap to be typing.

Anyways this story has just been complete crap. I mean I enjoy the characters, as they are some of my favorites, I enjoy the small internet meme(its a story about a group of cyber vigilantes and... yeah) I have put into the plot. I even like the plot... well ok right now it has no plot. But I like the idea of how the story is SUPPOSED to happen. Even if it doesn't even begin to follow the general idea of how computer systems and such work(thank you future technology/alternate universe... )

anyways its just... I can't even begin to explain it. I liked the first part of the story. Not my best work but as it slowly progressed it just became a big giant piece of crap.

Also as I started to describe Nemesis(one of the characters, hence the whole 'Curse you nemesis') seems to have turned out as L clone. Except he isn't asian. OK maybe he isn't an L clone. But still. He is pale and socialy awkward, and has this emotionless expression/voice. Basicly Samantha thinks of him as a monster in human form. Funny how he is supposed to be the good guy.

Another thing I seemed to have fallen in love with the idea of them in love. Sam sorta melting his heart. but the whole arrangement is so messed up. Nemesis for the most part is supposed to be a faceless entity of the internet serving Divine Punishment(yes he has a God... er Goddess complex. Though this is probably my favorite part about him. His Nickname. I mean when we think of Nemesis we think of an arch enemy. Sorta like Hiro in Heroes that or the dude from Resident Evil 3(was it three?I forget) but yeah)

wait did I just put paranthesesed something while in parentheses. I am so not editing that.

Anyways. The plot, or lack there of one, has just made this whole thing impossible to write. That and it feels so rushed/forced its unbearable.

The sad thing is... I can't just go back an edit it. Well I can... but I haven't the foggiest idea of how i would even begin to do such a task. Its... quite terrible.

Also this story has sorta messed with my Nemesis character. Samanth and John(the third character) are left unscathed. Though mostly because this story is written from Sam's PoV. John has a brief cameo. Wait I need to confess something. I completely stole the Peter's scar from Heroes. I thought of changing this, but how he explains it is amusing. Mostly because I have always wondered why a character would ditch the gun when fighting an enemy unarmed. So I have him say, "Never bring a Gun to a Sword fight." meh not the most original... well yeah my confession is over.

I have no idea how Nemesis became the cold hearted man that he is in this story. I thought of him having a little brother being sexually abused and kiddy porn of him on the internet.(how this happened while his Father is a high ranking government agent is beyond me. sad I know) This would help explain his need to become a Cyber Vigilante and destroy the Evil of the Internet/technology.

But I don't think this would completely turn him into this cold hearted bastard I created. God and the idea of Sam somehow falling in love and melting this ice away? That sounds like a craptastic romance story. Yet I feel the story appealing to me.

love stories are one of my guilty pleasures.

But back to how he turned into this person. In an earlier story I started and didn't finish(heh I am good at that!)

Why do I feel the compulsion to use parentheses? I am not even sure if I have ever used them grammatically correct. What are they for outside of math anyways? *shrugs* oh well.

Anyways back on topic(anyone remember what that was? ha i did it again!) He wasn't so heartless. I mean he was pretty cold and in general impatient about things. But no where near as the monster seen.

Oh well I guess I have time to figure this out. I did want to send him to boarding school of sorts. I always pictured Legion starting there. But... Well I don't know it sorta contradicts whats going on in this story about Sam. Maybe something happened here that finally did the trick?


OK I am done. If only because...

I have found that I have been saying 'if only because' alot lately. Oh well.

If only because I am bored and have thoroughly let out my frustration.

If you are still reading this then this means:

1) you were incredibly bored.
2) You enjoy my suffering.
3) You were dared too.
4) I am incredibly awesome ranter/writer.
5) Well I don't have a reason 5.
6) You were reading this and this mirrored some of your own furstrations. If this is the case, I am so, so sorry

As the great Cartman once said:

Screw you guys. I'm going home.


Doesn't really apply here considering I /am/ home already... but I just love it when he says that.

/rant.