Hm

A stream of conscience,
an ebbing tide.

I would rather die for nothing than live for something, I do not want to live bound by morals and ethics, by people or feelings. This is why I destroy myself, the homeostasis of my body.
Ketamine
Opium
Juice
Meth
Green
Mushrooms
Acid.

This is how I forget these things, this is how I die for nothing. This is how I will live for everything, which is nothing.

Hurt me.