I'm Such a Screw Up

By Leaka · Oct 8, 2008 · ·
  1. I have never been very careful with my words.
    It sounds so much better in Greek.
    In Greek a lot of sentences and phrases sound nicer in context then they do in English.
    I phrased some stuff really bad in English, I didn't know they sounded rude cause in Greek they don't sound as rude and jerkish. Well now saying what I did everyone is mad at me now.
    I really didn't know it was that rude.
    I'm such a screw up sometimes. Now I think I have lost a some people as friends and I have lost some respect too.
    I didn't mean to.
    I really didn't it.
    I don't want lose anyone, but I feel like this is going to effect in a very negative way. And the people that were my friends are going leave me. I know its the internet, but I found a place where I belonged or at least a place where I could talk to people, but I messed that up just as much as I messed the real world up for myself.
    I'm such a screw up.
    And they probably don't want to talk to me any more. I'm upset at myself and I don't want to lose anyone.
    Because that means that I'm going to be lonely again and hated.
    I don't want to be hated.
    Why do I always screw up the good things? Why?
    I hate myself sometimes and this is one of those times.
    I needed someone to talk or write out how I feel so I put it here.
    I want to apologize, but I don't feel I have done anything wrong.
    And to apologize would mean that I have done something wrong.
    But I didn't do anything wrong.
    At least I don't, but I know those people think I have done something wrong.

Comments

  1. Shadow Dragon
    Bick doesn't hate you and neither do the others. Please come back and talk.
  2. Torana
    Leaka, I am sorry that you have had this problem. But I am sure if you explain things, they will understand. It can be hard trying to say something in another language. I once had to converse with someone in Macadonian (I apologise if I spelt that incorrectly) and I managed to come out with what I needed to say wrongly and caused offence to the individual I was conversing with. I deeply apologised and we were able to resolve the matter, which took time as I wasn't very fluent in the language. I've not spoken the language again since. I only speak english now, as I'm too worried I will offend someone by saying the wrong thing.
    I hope you have sorted the problem out though, and don't be so hard on yourself next time.
    Hugs to you!
    Sher.
  3. Charisma
    Leaka,

    I read the thread and talked to Bick too. I know you didn't mean it that way, and I know it can be tough translating something into a language you're not so great at. I'm learning Arabic and write down sentences which have wrong meanings than what I want to say, which causes a bit of havoc sometimes. However, let me tell you that Bick is NOT angry at you, she's actually sad that you're upset. Now that's a kind of misunderstanding which you can clear easily by telling her that you were giving her an advice, not angry or offensive towards her. I'll try my best to communicate this to her, and as far as other participants are concerned, Bick will for sure explain this to them and everything will be clear.

    Now, don't be upset. You just need to trust your friends, and we'll understand what you're trying to say even if it reads as 'RUDE', we know you're not that. Urs was also trying to help you, and I don't think he's actually angry, just concerned about you and Bick. We're all writers and have our weak points. You have a way with simplicity in your sentences, and I have a problem of wordy sentences. And English is my second language too, so I know it can be difficult handling it sometimes. I may write fine, but I can't speak very fluently in English. So there's no need to feel embarrassed.

    Best wishes and take care. You can always talk to me if you need to.
  4. Iulia
    Aww, Leaka. You're not a screwup. I have no idea what this is all about, but if it's any consolation, I didn't even know English was your second language, so you do well. Also, you seem like a really cool person.
  5. lessa
    Leaka
    take it from a long time screwup.
    appoligize and move on.
    If they accept an appology from the heart they are a class act.
    If they snub it then you have done your best.
    You can talk to me at any time and I will not hate you.
    I can only speak one language and I sound rude at times in that one.
    I can only imagine what speaking 2 languages would do to my translating feelings.
    luv and hugs to a young man many will come to admire as you mature.
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