Just some thoughts.

How do I begin? Must keep pen to paper, mind to task. The same plot has haunted me for most of my life, twisting quietly at the edge of my awareness until I am at my lowest points and then sees its chance to strike. Leave worldly experience for now, leave the pursuits of the heart. Now it is time to observe, to analyze, to speculate; a passive observer of my own existence.

Back to the cruel mistress, the Muse, back to planning and plotting...