Sad and Lonely

I'll start with the advices that are not the best nor the most morally sound. If you decide to take them into account, I won't feel responsible for any adverse results:

- Smart girls are about as rare as smart boys. A forum such as this one can make you forget that. You can have a meaningful relationship with a less than brilliant friend. It won't probably last but you can easily make each other a bit happier for a while.

- Girls being in a relationship aren't forbidden, believe me. Some just go along with their partners because they don't know any better.

And now for the real advice:
You will eventually find a woman you'll want to spend your life with, but that doesn't mean you must be alone while you look for her. As you grow you'll find out two people can be together and make each other a bit happier while both knowing they're not the perfect couple.

And now the mantra:
If you start a relationship just for company, friendship, and a warm body to hold close while you watch romantic commedies, be very sure your partner knows about your feelings. Otherwise you'll just be a dick and deserve a lone and sad life.

I can speak from experience and say when you stop searching all the time you'll find someone. I know that makes no sense at all but I hear it all the time. I met my bf on an online cancer support forum. We had a long distance relationship for a long time but it worked out well and he lives here now.

It's not impossible to find someone. It also depends on where you live and where you're looking. I live in a very rich part of Texas so I was surrounded by guys that were idiots and totally full of themselves. They weren't going to look twice at me because I hadn't had copious amounts of plastic surgery. So it really depends on where you are too.

In a place like Dallas intellect means nothing. It's a big game of he who dies with the most toys wins. It's all about getting ahead even if that means stepping on others to do it. So it very much depends on where you live and what it's like there. Best of luck.

Also do yourself a favor and quit watching rom coms. They are a load of crap for the most part. Exactly why I pretty much never watch them. Unless they are incredibly funny. The thing is so many of those situations are totally implausible and are only used because they are funny.

As for the writer's block don't force it. It will come eventually. Use your writing as an outlet for your loneliness. I did that years ago and it did wonders for me. I quit fretting about finding someone and felt so much better.

I know from experience what you mean about being lonely blah blah blah, but I think you just need to be patient and not to think about getting a girlfriend all the time. Yeah it'd be nice to have one etc. but it's not everything. You'll find someone eventually.
Also, as much as I like romantic comedies, you seem to be involved in romantic stuff a lot. Maybe try other genres of films to watch and books to read so you're not constantly reminded. Maybe find a new interest/hobby to absorb yourself into to distract yourself too.
As for your writer's block, you'll be able to write soon and just keep writing because it will really help.

I know exactly what you mean about being lonely. For me, I've always been more mature than most of the people my age, and so I've found it hard to find someone I like that isn't way too immature for me.

If I'm being honest, I'll say that I've tried several long distance relationships, and they've never worked out for me. Maybe it's my fault, I don't know. But while it's worth a shot, it's sometimes hard to work out a long distance relationship. But it worked for Terra, so don't let me turn you off the idea.

Don't try and force it, and definately don't try and be with someone just to be with them. It won't work.

I know you say you have writer's block, but maybe this situation can help you out. You could try and write about how lonely you are to try and get it all out. That helps me most of the time.

Reading this blog I realised this could have been a page torn out of my own diary (if I had one.) I can relate to everything you've said and let me assure you, you are not alone. Somedays I wonder what I'm doing wrong or why I feel so lonely even though I can be surrounded by people. I dream of a life somewhere exotic but my problem is similar. My expectations aren't exactly realistic. I spend so much time thinking of ways to fill the void without actually trying. It's a Catch-22.

I wish I had advice but I'm sort of in the same situation. I hope that in knowing that you're not alone you can at least take comfort in that. There are a lot of people out there who feel lonely... we should all get together! lol.