Today was cardio day at the gym. I like one particular treadmill over the others because of the view it has from the gym windows even though it is neither the newest nor the nicest of the treadmills at my disposal. I like to listen to kirtan music when I run on the treadmill because there is a certain kind of joy in this music. I especially love one song by Jai Uttal called Hara Hara Mahadev/Om Namah Shivaya. I have no idea what the song is about other than it concerns the god Shiva, but I cannot help but hear in the song that it is a song of thanks. The song is really long, 17 minutes, and it starts slowly and builds up, adding layer upon layer of more music until the song is like the richest, most savory, most generous curry you ever made served over delicate white rice smelling of jasmine flowers. (I have a profound fondness for Indian and Thai cuisine.)
Today I was running and as the song was building and building I started to imagine that I was running up through the woods and forest I could see along the flanks of the mountains in the distance outside of the window of the gym. I was running and running through the deep green foliage and the leaves which were wet and cool and succulent. None of the branches or the leaves hurt me, it was more like being caressed. I ran and ran until I got to the top of the mountain and I could hear Shiva singing in the clouds above.
Shiva came down from the clouds and was dancing and laughing and took my hand and we danced together and we laughed and laughed. My god, did we laugh! And as we danced our feet left the ground and we were in the clouds still dancing and laughing and then into the indigo of space and stars were burning and laughing with us and still we danced. Shiva hugged me close and we became a star and then a galaxy and then the universe and then my real eyes were crying. I was sweating bullets at that point, and so I don’t think that anyone noticed, but honestly, I don’t really care if they did.
I don’t care if it was just endorphins or if something a little more spiritual happened. It was a pretty awesome moment.
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