Writing and Depression: An Unavoidable Matrimony of Expression

Ive just finished my first year of college and am gearing up for what i hope will be a good break and lots of writing. im hoping to get my novel started this month after nearly a year of planning and changing, im finally happy.

In the last few weeks ive been trying to get my life in order, i got a new place which is great and close to school, i keep telling myself that i finally got over the girl i liked. denial is a bad thing i hate it. i told you that story so i could tell you this one.

writing has been in my blood for a long time now and lately ive only been able to write when im depressed or not in the best of moods never when im happy or anything like that, i have no idea why. maybe its because i need to get something out or something like that, maybe. i know alot of people who aren't into writing but really leave fire on the paper when down. this connection is weird, why dont we write on a normal day, do we have to feel something to write? it's bothering me and is disconcerting because i dont think im going to be unhappy this holiday and i need to write. its twisted and might seem so silly. ive been awake for far too long and had too much coffee...