Lrose1984

This is most likely a vacuous question since we are all human and bleed the same blood- but have you ever gone through periods in your life where everything seems to be in black and white? It's like a light switch goes off in your brain, and everything and everyone looks dull and depressing; everyone walking around looking like robots. You know longer revel in earth's natural beauty. You know it's not the people, earths natural beauty, and no matter how hard life gets, you still remember the repetitious alluring beauty in it. Then suddenly, that switch turns back on, and it all just clicks again. You accept everyone's flaws, including your own. You take pride in whatever talent you have, whether or not it "wows" society, or is socially acceptable to bloat about. You start to cherish every moment regardless if you're involved or not. For example: watching a video on YouTube with your friends of someone singing a beautiful song, watching a toddlers first steps... or simply just being happy for someone who just graduated, maintained sobriety, or shit, just bought a dog. You remember it's not about money or material possessions; it's about having fun, and acceptance. It's about cherishing the colors of the world, the smell of spring morning, etc. I went through a very dark period in my life, one that many of us have gone through but are too afraid of being considered too honest. I was honestly at a point in my life where I truly disliked who I was and who I become. I confused happiness with trying to, "keep up with the Joneses." However, like i said before, something had clicked, and I accepted my current situation. I may drive a Buick, make shit for money, have no kids nor a husband, was an addict, completed a semester every two years, but dammit I AM HAPPY. I am done listening to people or the media telling me how life is short and hard. Life is what you make of it. So although I started this off as a question because I was confused and thought I was starting a thread haha. I feel like I should keep it here. I would like to add that I am aspiring writer. I have been clean for five years now, and suffer daily with Bi-polar/depression. Mental illness is plaguing our society and needs to be talked about. Unfortunately many suffer and keep quiet due to the stigma behind it. Anyways, I hope you stay tuned to read what I have to say since I plan on writing a lot about addiction and mental illness. Yes, I will add my opinions, but mainly facts for parents or friends seeking to help a loved one.