The Not Happy Thread

We're in the middle of a big windstorm. I just went out to my car and there are branches down everywhere. It's amazing that they end up falling in a way that covers every square foot of ground rather evenly spaced.

There's one nearly 100 foot fir that threatens to fall on my house. It's in the park and the park forester says it's healthy so he assumes it won't fall. I do so hope he is right but it's scary to be in my back yard in a wind storm.

 

@GingerCoffee It's blowing a gale here too and, judging by the clouds, there's rain on the way. Still, I've been looking for stock and props for my photography, and the wind will shake lots of interesting things loose. Now I just just need to muster the energy to drag my ass out of bed (easier said than done until I've necked three cups of java) before the inevitable downpour leaves it all a soggy mess.

 

I have to work 7:00 - 3:30 today. 7pm - 3:30 am.... Stupid holiday set.

 

I miss those days. No, not really.

 

Not sure if this goes in the happy I'm done, or unhappy I spent my whole morning cleaning up the windstorm debris. One huge branch came down smashing a rhody but thankfully didn't smash my car or take a chunk of eave out. Every square inch of the roof, the lawns, the driveway, the sidewalks and my car were covered in branches, leaves and pine needles.

Global warming: when you re-purpose your snow shovel to scoop up pine needles.


Cable TV went out but not my power or the Internet. It's back on now. Transformers blew all over town including the one that connects my neighbor's power. Their generator has been running all day. No sign of the power company, I'm sure they have a long line up of work. It's weird when you see flash after flash in the night sky and there is no lightning.

 

After six months, I still can't stop crying about my ex girl, and still can't write. I feel lost.

 

Most of us have been there, but six months is too long. Get over her and start writing. You'll thank me later. You're letting someone who dumped you (?) control your life. Stop that.

 

Well, change your name to Phil and start singing about it!

 

Unless one's partner died, 6 months is too long. Unless you are still seeing each other for sex. (It happens ) But then you should be over the person emotionally, and just enjoying yourself.

It does suck to be dumped, but there is usually another person out there for you.

 

My Internet's been out all day. I'm sitting here at Starbucks to get my daily Net fix. The chair isn't comfortable in this one. They really need to improve their seating.

 

I have been awake for the last 30 hours. I did overnight last night, a rare thing in my profession, thankfully, but it has blown my sleep schedule. I'm dead on my feet, but I never sleep during the day unless I'm battling bug.

 

Damn that's a long time. I'd just pass out without serious caffeine supplements!

 

Sigh.... blood exposure on the night shift. I either go in at 10:30pm tonight or fight atrocious traffic to get there before 7am. So I'm going in tonight.


... At least I'm well paid.

 

My first day off in 10 days, good thing, yes, but the laundry, not so much...

 

Can you write about how you feel?

 

That's a good idea. @Michael Collins I was still pretty melted about my ex three months later, so I wrote a thousand words about the good times we had and... bleragh, my feelings. It helped a lot.

I also found that it really helps to remember someone from my past as how they were at that time, not how things are now. Kinda like how it's explained in Leave the Memories Alone by Fuel.

 

Speaking of ex-girlfriends: I just went to my bakery to pick up a sandwich loaf for my roomies (free bread perk) and ran into an older one.

You might be thinking: "Oh, that's not so bad. You're bound to run into people and it should be long in past now." Oh, really? Well, how about this little detail? SHE WAS BEHIND THE COUNTER! Gah! That's like having a man-sized tarantula that's sensitive about its amount of legs as a co-worker, except MORE awkward. Why would she even want to work there? Bleah whatever.

I know I shouldn't be that rattled.... so, uh I'm not?

 

After losing both of my grandparents to cancer in the past two years, I now heard a good family friend (someone who is basically a grandmother to me) has cancer and will probably not live very long anymore. I guess it's a part of growing older, saying goodbye to people you know, but it sucks anyway.

 

I'm very sorry to hear that. I know how much it sucks.

 

Not at all happy about the first snow of the season coming down hard now.

 

Chest is tight and bothersome...I'm in for a long night. This is pain not even nitro can assuage.

 

Dang girl, I do hope you're OK.

 

I failed my driving test badly. Two months of work and so much money spent on lessons to no avail. So many things went wrong including being unable to adjust the car's mirrors, hitting the curb when parking (when I had done all my parallel parking perfectly on the last class) and having my sister bail out on me on practicing a few days before the test.

I can't get another test scheduled until December. And I don't know if it's worth more lessons. I wish it was possible to just drive a rental car to an empty parking lot and practice by myself. It was easier to learn to ride a bike as an adult then it is to learn to drive.

 

It's Sunday, it's 6:00 am, it's my day off, and I'm awake. There is nothing about this sentence that is good in any sense of the word...

 

I haven't read anything in the construct of a book in three days. This never happens, I always read, always.