The Not Happy Thread

Unless they can correct my own gracelessness and inattention to where I am going then I fear no good will come of it.

 

Um. You haven't seen the ongoing roadworks outside our city, then....

 

Clearly you've never been to New Orleans. They've got road work they're still working on a decade later, but I think they just abandoned it. Also, the roads aren't smooth and flat; they feel more like you're rolling across a heavily graveled dirt road. Fun for historical roleplay, sure, but actual driving? NOT!!

 

Due to this eating disorder I have, I'm now at 193 pounds and at a height at 5'7, that puts me on the scale of very overweight/ borderline obese according to most BMI charts and BMI websites I've looked at. The simple solution is to eat more vegetables, but that's hard when you find them all nasty and repulsive, visual-wise, taste-wise, and smell-wise. Since we're going through a heatwave (93-100 degree days, it's currently 100 now) where I'm located it might be a bit too dangerous to jog outside. So I'm trying to buy a treadmill so I can at least run indoors.

 

Wow, just followed the link and it seems that I have a very low-grade version of the same thing. Thanks for educating me anyway

 

No problem. It seems to be rare. I mean, whenever I try to bring it up to my family they think I'm either lying or being melodramatic so I gave up.

 

@Miller0700 I seem to be missing that link Iain's referring to... any chance you could post it again, or message me with it?

 

According to that link, your eating disorder should make you underweight, not overweight. So I am confused.

 

That's what I figured as well, 1234... The disorder in that link would make you avoid food at all costs.
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I have a rant I want to give out:

I hate my Colonial mystery protagonist now. Why? Because here I was, had a decent theme, plot, and a decent opening chapter and what does Amos do? “Heeeeey, wouldn't it be cool if all this were in modern times instead?” and showcases all the stuff he could do in modern times -- including singing into his cane as if it were a microphone and cracking blind jokes with his friends. Stuff he wouldn't be able to do in his current Colonial America setting.

God damn it, Amos!! >:[ <strangles him> PICK. A. GOD. DAMN. SETTING. ALREADY!!!!



This is why I basically abandoned the story for years because my idiot protagonist apparently has ADHD and can't just stick to one setting. It's all, “Oh, look over there! Look here! Let's do that! Wheeeee!!!” I'm almost inclined to actually give him ADHD as well because for all intents and purposes, he does have it. A blind guy with ADHD. That's him.

Besides, I already have something of a mystery set in modern times, only the protagonist is a hearing-impaired Canadian-American college student. Wouldn't having two mystery series set in modern times with disabled protagonists be redundant? At the very least, I can say that Amos doesn't feel like my self-insert like the other guy.

GAAAH!

 

Dealing with recruiters is really stressful. They keep sending my CV without asking me so I have no idea what I've applied to and what I haven't, and they keep uploading it to public sites. I like control!!!

 

Pretty much what I eat is food containing lots of carbs, starches and junk food, foods that either make you hungry all the time or put on the pounds.


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What I thought my schedule meant I had to be at work by 4;30am all this week, my manager made a mistake and I have to be in at 3am instead.

 

It's hard to parse these sentences, especially the first one. "Pretty much what eat is food made containing a lot of carbs..."?

 

Miller pretty much only eats foods that contain lots of carbs, starches and junk food.

 

Oh, I figured out what it means, but it doesn't parse well.

 

And you think this is the thread to insult someone's post?

 

I'll report it before this thread dwindles down to a fight because of a frisky Canadian squirrel.

EDIT: It's possible he just had a lapse of writing sensibility when he wrote that post.

EDITED 2: Reported it anyway so the mods could have a looksie.

 

There should be a grouchy thread, or mantiger thread, bears and fighting,

 

Are you sure this is a disorder? Back in my day, we called this an "unhealthy lifestyle," as it is fairly common.

 

Have you sought any professional help for this disorder? It looks as if help does exist, in the form of cognitive behavioural changing exercises, etc. I'm sure you could work on this with the right kind of help.

Making a few changes would not only help your weight gain issue, but definitely get you into more healthy eating habits overall (a lack of vitamins and minerals from certain food groups will be impacting your health), increase your actual enjoyment of foods—you probably dread eating in an environment where you can't control your food at the moment?—and also improve your social life (you'll get invited to dinner parties, etc.)

This disorder is obviously a real one, but there is help out there, and it can be overcome.

 

That happens on all threads already.

 

Like an idiot, I thought today was Thursday so I set my alarm to wake me up at Thursday at 12:30am so I could be on work on time. When I woke up in the middle of the night it was 3:30am. I checked my phone and it was actually Wednesday. I had to rush down to work and was ultimately three hours late (I rely on public transportation to get to and from work.)

 

It very much is.

 

Yep, and they never heard of it. It's in the newest edition of the DSM though.

I actually do go to CBT, but primarily for my sleep and anxiety problems.

Definitely.

Hope so. I often dread going to places where they're serving food because of this.

 

Sister is busy whinging on FB about how hard it is to be a mom, and I just want to scream "You planned this! You (with the enthusiastic help of your husband) did this to yourself!"

But then, she's never understood the whole antinatalism thing any more than I get the urge to breed, and our family has more than enough conflicts within it already......

 

Just did a bit of surfing on the subject of anti-natalism. Ta @Iain Aschendale for the inadvertant shove that direction.

I landed on a page about Terror Management Therapy. Fuck! I've often thought, since my earliest years, my awareness of my own mortality has hampered my ability to live, rather than freeing me to live each day like it was my last. That wasn't helped by seeing the body of a man shot in the face, lying prone on the ground when I was little. Reading it has put a few things into perspective. No wonder during my bi polar meltdowns, I get very suicidal. It's not that I'm so sad I want to die, it's that I'm so scared, and have been since a small child, I simply want to bite the bullet and get it over with.

I'm not happy that I feel that way, but I'm glad I now at least recognise it for what it is.

And don't worry folks. I'm stable right now. I'm just weirded out the penny hasn't dropped before now.