The Not Happy Thread

First-World Problem Ahoy!!

I'm sad that the games that I want to do Let's Plays and upload on my YouTube channel, others are doing it too and much, much better than I ever could. That's why I haven't uploaded my YouTube channel in months.

 

If I get this straight... I get to complain about my crappy life here. Correct? Correct.

Just do it. - Nike (and Shia LeBeouf). Don't postpone or be sad about how much better others do what you wanna do. Go ahead, pick up whatever hobby/self-employment job you want, and do it. You might be surprised how weird people are; maybe you are much better than your competition. But you'll never know if you don't try... right?


Now... onto my issues.

I got wrongfully fired 4 months ago but I couldn't do anything about it because there was no signed contract. It was a startup company and well, basically my first real job. I gave it my all and I was crushed when the manager fired me without thinking about it twice -- like I was a fly on the wall he was swatting away. Bothersome. Trash.

Nothing.

Now I can't find a decent job. Because 1. 5 months in a company only as a first job looks like "she couldn't keep the job" and 2. every manager that interviews me discards my Master's degree like, pfft, what is that? Kindergartens have better education, and 3. the pay? I'd be better off living off peas and nuts... and peanuts. Seriously.

I also don't have enough experience (or customers) to begin freelancing. I'm a mess of shitload of worries. And I'm not even 25.

Does anyone know how to go back to being a kid?

 

Visited this forum again after not being here for a while, but I felt a need to respond to this. If you think the short time at the job is holding you back, leave it off your resume and don't bring it up during interviews. I have two friends who started with a firm after law school, were fired within a handful of months, and decided to do this. It's pretty common advice, and (IMO) there's nothing ethically wrong about ignoring it and talking around it. Just make sure you don't explicitly lie about it--that would not be good.

 

Thanks for the advice. Yes, you're hundred-percent right. However, I'm still stuck on looking for a decent pay. Just decent...

I got a job offer... 150$ the first three months then 600$ IF they like me after the training period.

Rent is minimum 400$ here.
Electricity is around 20$ to 50$.
Monthly food/groceries for one person is about 60$ (60 in the cold when you gotta turn on the heater).
Internet is 20$ (the lowest and crappiest package).
Monthly building maintenance/electricity fees is around 50$ (minimum!) as well.

And gee, that's like the cheapest living situation.

What am I supposed to do with 150$ for three months? And 600$ until and IF I get a raise?

 

I wish I could offer some help on this matter, but all I can offer is my empathy. The good (and bad) news is that employment has a lot of luck that goes into it. Hopefully yours turns around soon.

 

The sentiment behind your words is enough to make me feel at least ten times better. Thank you very much.

It's always nice to know that not everyone is heartless and money-driven.

 

I forgot to be thankful today when I looked at social media. Gotta get that green monster under control.

 

I want to leave Macy’s soo bad. On one hand if I leave then I can focus more on school and my schoolwork, especially on my teacher's community service task he wants done. I can't do it while working and going to school because by the time I get home from school places are closing down for the day. I also won't be so tired getting to school and it’s lot less running around. On the other hand I need the money to get to school and other things. I also feel that I’ll soon have this habit of quitting jobs the first sign of trouble if I quit this one. But I don’t think I can last for three more months with our team lead around. He pisses me off almost everyday and is making my work experience more and more miserable there. Plus I can't take the cramped conditions anymore. If I have to get a job, I would really like a position at my school because they give you perks for being a student there and when I get off I can go right to class.

 

Wow. A topic about being miserable. This is actually a nice thing to see.

My family is crazy and I usually am bothered by something they do or say..... Yeah I know that sounds dumb and at my age this is a stupid problem to have.

 

I am so.. fucking itchy!!

I've had pityriasis rosea for almost three weeks now. And it's just getting worse and worse and worse. The doctor gave me steroids the first week and the rash stopped spreading. But now that I'm off the meds, it's spreading again. Part of me wants to go back and get more steroids. But I really hate taking drugs. So I'm using benadryl with the hope that it'll dampen the itching until it clears up.

God, I hope it clears up....

 

Yelling. Screaming, arguing, complaining, whining..... Just yesterday my brother said it would be nice to stay for added security, but now that he has a job that keeps him away from this house from 8 AM to 6 PM he's not here to see what a terrible environment this is. I can't stay focused. I can't write anything of worth. I wish I could live on my own but I wouldn't make it in this world that takes advantage of the poor and the disabled. I feel like I was born to fail, which sucks really hard because the world seems to have so much opportunity for other people with disabilities. I even see hardened thugs on YouTube smoking weed with their clearly mentally handicapped friend. Back in my day I had to fight with such people to protect myself knowing that I'm mister glass and if they hit me in the head too hard I could literally die. Did I care? Of course not. Was I suicidal? Hardly, but my life and safety were secondary to my peace of mind and sanity. I can't even get these people in this house to help me with my thank you letter to my doctor. That's gotta be the most important thing I've ever written and they know I'm writing it. They haven't asked about it once. I have questions for mom but I'm not asking her while she's all pissed off about stupid BS. I need it prof read by my brother because I value his opinion but he's too busy with work now. Thank god I got 6 different forums to consult for opinions. Without that?....... Screw it. I wouldn't even try. Not with these people as my "support"......

 

Beware the Ides of October. Hell, I don't know if October even has Ides, but it's been two years minus a couple days since I broke my arm, three years since one friend died of an overdose that I don't want to know any more about, and five years and a day since another friend blew his brains out.

 

Had a creative urge to write a story set in a post-nuclear war setting from the POV of common survivors. The sad part? It's set in the same universe as my Kevin McKinley mysteries. Which means...

Spoiler: The ending of the Kevin McKinley mysteries

In order for this story to occur, a nuclear war happens and most everyone dies...

Including Kevin McKinley, who sacrifices his life to save Adrian and Kimberly from the worst of it.

I feel like a monster. I'm so sorry, Kevin!

 

I'm sad because I haven't had the desire to do much of anything lately but lay in bed. I should be working ahead on my homework and research papers, or playing the Halloween event on Overwatch, or playing more Gears of War 4 that I spent good money on... or I should pick up my reserved copy of Batman return to Arkham today. Instead I'm picking up the $3,400 antibiotic medicine for my colon infection, AND having to see the doctor about an infected tooth.

 

Why do people lie so much?
Why do they think we'll all believe them?

 

In class after we could leave a girl at my table got mad because I left out without saying goodbye to all of them. There were a total of six of us there and I said goodbye to the girl next to me, the only one besides me who is quiet and listen to the teacher. Any other class we all left without saying anything with no problem at all.

The girl in the front of the table demands that I say hello and goodbye to the group every time we meet up because that's "disrespectful." What's disrespectful is that the four of you constantly talk and laugh throughout the whole class so the rest of us can't hear the teacher, getting on your phones and then coming to us for notes and asking what the teacher said because you couldn't be bothered to listen.

 

The two people vying for POTUS are expert liars :\

 

Not to get into the debate room or anything, but I'd argue that neither of them are experts at it. Frequent, habitual even, but expert? That seems a little too kind for me.

 

I've been feeling kinda lonely lately. I wish people were easy to talk to

 

When's this life thing getting easier? I feel like I'm struggling to keep up with the trials of adulthood.

 

Yeah if only we had the same economy you had back then :/

 

A friend of mine, whom I've supported through him getting cancer, the death of one of his friends from cancer, and a myriad of other troubles, is no longer my friend.

In the past couple of months he is getting more and more involved with drugs, and was slowly morphing into more and more of a toxic person (I only realised this in retrospect). It has culminated in the last few days, when I told him I couldn't come and hang out with him one morning because, frankly, I despised the person he was with (I'll call him Y). This Y, was human trash. He didn't believe in depression, drove a mustang, and grew furious with me that morning when I didn't mention him by name. Eventually I get called and Y begins cursing, insulting, while I do my best to remain calm.

But that's not what hurt. What hurt was hearing my friend, my oldest, dearest friend, laugh. Also, in this entire exchange I tried to tell him how he had managed to make me feel like shit several times in the weeks before. He told me what they said (mocking, once describing how they would beat me up) as jokes, and told me to "stop being a bitch".

I blocked his number, and reached out to several people. As one, they all called my friend toxic, and all advised me to cut him out of my life once I told them of the situation. So I did, until tonight, when I had another phone call with them, except this time I let it loose, I told them why I was angry, why everything was the way it was. Y told me, among other petty, pathetic insults, not to raise my voice against him. In the midst of this, my friend laughed again. The same chuckle, the same cruel, uncaring expression of mirth.

I'm devastated, depressed, and I feel hollow. This friend was the only friend on this Earth that I would call my brother. And now, he is a memory.

 

After lass yesterday I went to my creative writing group. There were usually seven of us there, but it had at least doubled. When I came inside I was greeted by a heated debate on the premise of: “If you don’t know of something that is ingrained in pop culture or at least is highly popular right now, should you be ridiculed for it?” Everyone tried to talk over each other, it was a mess. The other half of the group kept screaming and talking over each other while the other half remained silent. There was this one new girl I haven’t seen in group before that was way too loud and dramatic. She talked and screaming over everyone when they tried to talk. I like the group when there's only six or seven of us there.

 

I feel you.

$3,400 on medicine? Wow... I hope you feel better soon. Don't you have insurance?

Because the world is a corrupted place. Not only that, but there is ignorance in abundance and people think they are never wrong. If they lie, it is because they think they are doing what is correct and within their rights.

Don't focus on them. You will only find a few people you can actually trust. The rest? Just be smarter than them. Let them think they have fooled you and end up fooling them, doing whatever makes you a better person and improves your life.

Hi. How are you? I'm easy to talk to.

 

I've missed you on the forum lately. I should have known all wasn't sunny in the orchard. It's hard feeling motivated when you're so unwell, and maybe worried about financing medication? I hope the antibiotic clears up the infection. For that price, it should. If it does, you should start feeling a wee bit more like doing something either useful or for fun. And if you can get the tooth seen to as well, that will certainly help. An infected colon and a toothache? Not a recipe for a good time. All the best.