Mental Health Support Thread (NOT for giving medical advice, or debating)

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  1. Link the Writer

    Link the Writer Flipping Out For A Good Story. Contributor

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    So my brain is kind of cracking right now. To wit:

    • My co-workers (though playfully) tease me about how no one likes me, and that they're looking for library job for me.

    • My brain is telling me how my own family doesn't love me even though I know that isn't true. It's telling me that they wish I weren't their son even know I fucking know that's not true!

    It's like my brain just became a full blown Sith Lord and is telling me the exact things that will hurt me and keeps festering on it. I need help. Urgently. I feel like I'm just a few bad events away from total mental breakdown and I'm holding it back as much as I can. I need to. I don't want to have a breakdown. Not on Christmas, not when everyone's here for the holidays.

    I fucking hate anxiety.
     
  2. Lea`Brooks

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    Take a walk. Or go for a drive and roll your windows down. My therapist told me once that nature has healing properties and can help with depression and anxiety. I don't know how true it is, but it helped me clear my head during really tough times. Worth a shot anyway.
     
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  3. Link the Writer

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    Thanks, I'll give it a try.

    I did go for a short walk with my dogs, figured they were just as nervous as I, and I'm feeling a bit better. Just need to keep telling myself that my brain is full of pure cockshit. Whatever it tells me, it isn't true. I'm stronger than my anxiety, I decide how it'll run my life; not the other way around.
     
  4. big soft moose

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    Samaritans might be an option if you just need someone to talk to.
     
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    I finally managed to tell my parents what I'm going through. Had a slight breakdown in the process, but, feeling much better for it. Neither of them have suffered from depression before though, so they don't really have a frame of reference for it, and don't quite understand.
     
  6. I.A. By the Barn

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    I'm glad you managed to tell someone, and I'm glad you feel better for it, it does help me if I can talk to someone.
     
  7. Link the Writer

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    Here's something I want to confess, and I worry you all will think me a disgusting perv when I share this disturbing intrusive thought. See, in both my sci-fi and my fantasy, the MC is either a blind child or deals with a blind child as per the plot. The disgusting, intrusive thought? The not-blind major character/MC -- if a woman -- is inexplicably naked and hugging the blind kid. And yes, she's mashing the kid's face into her boobs.

    Do note that nowhere in the plot does this happen! The female character has zero desire to basically molest the kid.

    Disturbing, disgusting, and intrusive, and I've no clue why my brain likes to give me that image. I'm a pervert aren't I? And now I'm worried that's what you all think. :(
     
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    You basically associate with the blind kid and thus are displaying your subconcious desire to have an attractive naked woman mash your face into her boobs ? Seems reasonable to me ;)
     
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    OK, I just about burst my guts laughing at that. xD When you say 'associate with the blind kid', what do you mean?
     
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    You see yourself in the blind kid.

    ETA: Uh, not physically, but in a way where you put your mind in the place of the character.
    Basically, it means part of you wishes you were a kid (we all do) and that you had large breasts in your face.

    My diagnosis? You're crazy! No one would ever want something like that...
     
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    I hate these mood swings I go through. Today as I was coming home I was pretty happy because I realized that I could just lay back and write for a few days, but then I started to get irritated for no real reason. I tried to find out what caused it and why but I was stumped. I noticed that I often get irritated for hours over minor and trivial things (tripping over something, repeating myself, bumping into something, etc.)

    I see my doctor the 10th and I can try to (for probably the fifth time in a row) get him to put me on something new for these mood swings to which he'll ignore everything I've been complaining about and try to excuse it away and keep me on my current stuff. :mad:
     
  12. Link the Writer

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    So apparently there's this viral video going around where four black kids kidnapped and tortured a mentally disabled white kid.

    So let me review...

    There was a police officer who shot and killed a mute/deaf person.
    Four people kidnapped and tortured a mentally disabled person.

    I can't believe I'm even asking this but my brain's kind of going insane over this. Are we all in agreement that shooting/torturing disabled people is sick and wrong? Most people, most people don't harbor secret urges to kill/torture disabled people?

    Well done, world. You've finally found something for my anxiety to latch onto with iron hooks...
     
  13. Lea`Brooks

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    I think most people can agree that torturing any person is wrong.

    It's sad that I have to say "most" and not "all" because you know there's people out there who think torturing criminals for information is okay...
     
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    Torturing a disabled person is even WORSE .
     
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    ^ I agree, @123456789 . At least criminals can fight back.

    I think I can explain my sudden bout into paranoia-land. I was convinced somehow that this video was clear evidence that society deems it OK to torture disabled people. The reason behind it is because the disabled are often looked at as people to be shunned or walking embodiments of 'feel-good-inspiration'. And let's be honest, if they were all either white or black, would we have even known this was a thing? No, likely not. The only reason this is even viral is because of the popular 'white vs. black' notion. Here we have four black kids torturing a white kid. That's why it's viral. The fact the white kid is also mentally disabled is secondary.

    Since society puts disability and disabled people secondary on the 'popular things to cry about on social media', I somehow twisted this to 'society likes torturing disabled people.' Ironically, this can be blamed on my own mental issues (i.e., anxiety.) Mental issues, of course, is something society at large doesn't want to talk about.

    ....Yeah.....
     
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    Today was the first time in a long time that the word "suicide" popped into my head....
     
  17. Link the Writer

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    (Sits you down and opens a cup of hot tea)

    Tell me your woes, dear. We can help.
     
  18. Lea`Brooks

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    Why? To you, I'd just be another one of those 'spehshul snowflakes,' right?
     
  19. Link the Writer

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    Noooo! Absolutely not! D: Look, I hate Trump as much as everyone else here. I was just trying to understand the other side's perspective on things.
     
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    So, I had this idea that computer monitors should be positioned as flat as possible against the wall in front of me. Like a TV. This is wrong, but I didn't see anything wrong with it at the time until I noticed that I was getting some very painful cramps in my shoulders and neck. It wasn't until at work when I was in a mandatory ergonomics class that I learned how the monitor is supposed to be positioned. That was a big AHA! Before I figured all of that out, I thought it was just stress or poor sleep or something else. I didn't know. All I knew was that I was in a lot of pain. It was horrible.

    I wanted a massage. Something. Anything. I went into a drug store and found some battery-powered massagers and bought an assortment. Bought some batteries. Sat in my car and put them on my neck and upper back and watched people watching me while I suffered. I'm sure I had some interesting looks on my face.

    And then later at home, a female acquaintance noticed the massagers and asked me about them. So I told her about it and she had a look on her face. And then she told me that they weren't those kinds of massagers. I had no idea. And then I thought back to the people in the parking lot giving me looks and... Yeah.

    Just a little story for anyone feeling down.
     
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    The good news today is that the doc confirms I can take paracetemol while on anti depressants (just not ibroprofen or aspirin or codeine ) while this is excellent news in general it would have been useful to know that on Monday when I was suffering a slight cold dying of man flu
     
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    Hey , talk to someone. if you don't want to talk to link you can talk to me ( I'm British and have no dog in the trump/clinton fight), or you know someone else - but you feel like that talk to someone, we are all here for each other (or if you don't want to do it open thread pm, or at least talk to samaritans or somesuch)
     
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    I'm sorry for offending you, @Lea`Brooks . :( It wasn't my intent.

    Look at it this way, you're strong. Mentally strong. You're one of the toughest people I know. No way are you gonna let Trump and his supporters (possibly me included, if you did) take you down. We are weak, you are strong. Now I want you to go out there and I want you to show the world that not even a nuclear apocalypse can take you down. You laugh at danger, you're a fucking badass.

    You are not weak, you hear me? You are stronger than ten million Americans combined. No one can stop you.

    I'm sorry for offending you. Now you go out there and whip my tiny, plump, pink Southern ass and remind me just who you are and why we should not fuck with you.
     
  24. I.A. By the Barn

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    Just as things seems to be going well, my mind ruins everything. I've spent the last week in the house, FUCKING AFRAID AND UNABLE TO DO A GODDAMN THING. I couldn't draw, I couldn't write, I couldn't listen to music, I didn't go for my walks, I didn't do a sodding thing.
    Why? Because what's the point? Or so my mind likes to say. I know there's plenty of reasons, but it exhausts me just trying to convince myself of it. Why am I afraid? I don't know that one. Just a feeling of dread seems to be following me.
    But hey look, good news: Five months after being put on a waiting list and diagnosed I've got an appointment come through. It's about bloody time.
     
  25. Link the Writer

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    Hearing about the effects of Trump's ban on Muslim immigrants among the other things he's done has really shaken my faith in my country. Thought we were better than this, but guess we sold our soul to the Devil and now look at what we're doing. A part of me thinks we should silence all Republicans, Republic-led news and anyone who aligns themselves to Republicans. Their voices had been heard, and their voices are what's destroying this country. What's destroying who we are, what we're supposed to stand for.

    To think that at one point, I actually loved this country. Now I can't even look at the American flag and not feel shame and disgust. Our Constitution is pointless, our national anthem is just loud noise. Were we ever that great? If we were, that time has long passed.

    I feel disgusted with my own country. We used to be better than this.
     
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