Hello, I'm new to the forum. I've always felt born to write, as if there was a genetic drive to do it, irrespective of talent. I say this for a reason, because I haven't written anything in well over a decade due to profound depression and other stupid things completely leaching my creativity and deforming it into the ground. But I always felt a need deep inside to write. So I dusted off my old writing and outlines and read them, and just about died. The realization that I can no longer write, not like that, the getting into the character's heads. the characterization and point of view and 'wedding' it seamlessly to action. I can no longer do it. I'm intimidated by my own writing! I read it and it reads like I could not have possibly wrote it. These days the desire to write is still there (never left), but the ability has degraded to the point I can barely string two words together, where everything was 'real' and flowed almost like something tangible before. I feel like a dried husk, with a dead talent I never even knew I had, until it was gone. I'm not sure what to do. Use it or lose it, and I lost what was as natural as breathing. Just stunned and wondering if it's even possible to get the 'fire' back. Is it possible to not have lost the ability permanently? I never had to learn anything (came by some abilities naturally). I just did it and it flowed like magic and seemed to work itself out. I'm freaked out and more than anything just want to be able to write to that ability again. Is there any hope? This is worse than writer's block. This is losing a part of myself.