Hey now everybody. I'm having a little dilemma here. Right now I'm almost done with college and I'll be looking for a job soon. My dream and plan for the upcoming two to three years is to live cheap, pay off my college debt and save up a whole bunch of money. After that, I want to go to the USA, buy a car and float around the country for a year and write a book about it. A road-trip book. I'm very serious about this project and I want to pull it off while I'm still young. I did some quick calculations and I know for a fact that it can be done. I want to go through a publisher and land a deal before I actually start, so that I'm sure about that part of the whole thing. That's one guarantee I want before I actually get on that plane. I very much realize that this would be pretty much impossible for someone who isn't established yet. Hell, I haven't even released one single thing yet. I started working on a novel a couple of years ago. I was in a pretty dark place personally, and I really realize that it reflects on the writing when I read it back now. There's a lot of booze, drugs and womanizing in there and the main character isn't really likable. I got well into it over the years. Every time I got pissed, I used it as a place to blow off steam. There's around 50.000 words in there and for the most part I'm genuinely proud of it. It's good stuff, but it's also dark, crazy and angry. It's also written in the first person, because I identified myself with the character. It's not something I'd share with anyone before I'd be 100% sure it'd go somewhere. People would probably think I'm nuts. I'm not like that anymore at all and my road-trip story will be a whole lot different. It wouldn't be a novel, but non-fiction, either. I sometimes have a hard time continuing the novel, because I'm having trouble getting in touch with that part of myself. That part is the alcohol-fueled, self-loathing and reflecting it on the rest of the world-zone, and I worked hard to leave it behind. But I know I can do it, if I would really set my mind to finishing this novel. Anyway, that's a whole different kind of story, I'm wandering off. The point I'm trying to make is that I would imagine this story would be offensive to a ton of people. It completely lacks political correctness and common decency in any form. Would it be a bad idea to try to put this out as a first novel, having my plans for the road-trip book in mind? I mean, I'm also writing some sort of prologue to that road-trip story, which I think is turning out pretty good as well. It's a lot less edgy and angry and it has a completely different kind of voice. Am I crazy for rationalizing things like this? Thanks for reading, I realize it's a long story. Thanks in advance for any advice.