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    Dropping In (Again)

    Discussion in 'New Member Introductions' started by Sato Ayako, Feb 2, 2009.

    Some of you may recognize me. I've been lurking around, but haven't been posting.

    I was suicidally depressed, started abusing my prescription drugs, and got myself pretty sick. I'm getting better, but I've lost my ability to write (odd, but I've noticed a devastating drop in the quality of my work). I figured I'd hang around here and try to get my motivation and ability up again.

    See you around.
     
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    First things first:
    you haven't lost your ability to write. Unless something happened to your brain and you actually did, but I'm just assuming it's you being pessimistic. Seriously, just sit down and write the crappiest crap that comes out and do it every day and then one day you'll notice it's not quite as bad as it used to be and you'll be happy.

    But, you can just read and review if that's what you feel comfortable doing until you get your "groove" back.
     
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    Welcome back. With a major life outlook change, you may have to rediscover yourself before your writing will catch up. Give it time. The skills persist, you're just trying to use them from a new place.
     
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    Thanks. I really don't know. All I know is I've always liked to write, and I'll keep doing it, no matter how horrible I am. My memory's screwed up, along with my mood and a host of other stuff, but who knows? Maybe that'll help writing in the end!

    Ha.

    Don't I know it. I'll probably have to glue myself back together before I do anything "right" (what's "right" is so subjective in this art). The trouble is getting the motivation to do what I need to do, and then avoiding, ahem, triggers. Everything's a trigger these days.
     
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    I struggle with depression also, so I understand the problems with writing during those times.

    Take care and glad to see you here. :)
     
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    Thanks, Garmar. No matter what, I'll find a way to muddle through.
     
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    Hey Sato Ayako Welcome back to the WF!

    Keeping a creative mind will hopefully/eventually forget about those times.

    Glad to have you, and nice to meet you
    - Jack
     
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    Thank you, Jack. I'm hoping it does the same thing.
     
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    Just remember the old Latin proverb: Illegitimi non carborundum.

    (Don't let the bastards wear you down.) :)
     
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    I'd better write that down, Cog. Something goes wrong and the first thing I want is a dose.
     

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