I want to feel your lips against mine. I want to feel the softness of your touch on my skin. I want to sigh into your ear every time I feel your hands wander just a little too far down. I want you to pick me up and spin me around and call me your favorite girl and tell me you love me. I want you to want me as bad as I want you. I want to hear you call my name from down the street and race to catch up to me. I want you to be out of breath and panting but still kiss me as passionately and as fiercely as you can as if you suspected it was the last time we were ever going to see each other. I want you know how much I need you in my life and I want you to know that you control every part of me. I know that you won’t ever take advantage of me or use me, instead make me a better me and help me grow as a person. I want you know that everything I do, every breath I take, every time my heart beats, every smile and laugh, every tear, everything… it’s all for you. You never leave my mind and you never will. I think I love you and that scares me. I get hurt a lot sure, but love is my only weakness; you’re my only weakness. When it comes to you, you make me feel like I’m soaring high above everything else in the clouds and I won’t ever fall. But you can also make me feel like I’m crashing into a burning pit a lava with giant spikes protruding from the bottom but not being able to die. Just forced to suffer for eternity. You evoke all the emotions from the content side of the spectrum to the suicidal side in me. You make me feel everything I don’t want to and everything I do want to and even emotions I didn’t know I had. If this is what being in love is like then I don’t ever want it to stop because to feel is to be human. And to be human is to be alive. And to be alive is to breathe air. And to breathe air is to want you next to me and tell me you love me like I love you. But I know you can’t. Not yet. You’re still in love with her, but that’s okay. I will always wait for you. Because to be alive is to be with you and to be with you is to be alive.