So I just realized something that's possibly very disturbing. When I was writing a fight scene between Mishu and the antagonist (the first meeting they have, she'll kick his ass in the climax), I was actually afraid to show her being injured. To let the bad guy beat the crap out of her. At first I thought it was nothing until I replaced Mishu with a male character and the male got the crap kicked out of him. The whole point is that the main character confronts the villain with little to no preparation. As such, they suffer greatly for it. Basically, I have a double-standard about my own fictional characters, specifically my female protagonists. This is not because I think they're weak, it's because I'm afraid (for some odd reason) that I'll be seen as a monster for writing out my female protagonists losing a fight they can't win (or can't win yet in the case of Mishu.) This fight scene calls for the antagonist to toy with Mishu before he grabs her by the throat, pins her to the wall and drives his knife deep into her shoulder. He's sadistic, so he's twisting the knife, laughing and mocking at the same time. And I'm afraid to do that. The antagonist is sadistic, this is definitely something he'd do. Mishu's a tough person for her age, she can put up a decent fight. Yet I'm afraid because I don't want to look like I'm glorifying violence against women. I don't want to look like a monster. I mean, the gods know George R.R. Martin's books A Song of Ice and Fire had received a lot of flak for the way women are treated in his series. I'm afraid of that happening to me. What do you guys think? How can I get over this stupid double-standard I put on myself?