I feel like I'm constantly watching my life from outside my body instead of being caught up in the present moment like I'm probably supposed to be. Two examples: My emotions. I don't get mad or angry when things don't go my way, and I only get happy because I allow myself to be. I often mimic emotions other people are feeling to make them feel more comfortable. I've gotten very good at it, but I'm still not tricking myself. Don't get me wrong - I'm definitely not depressed. It is very easy to inspire and enthuse me. I'm happy at this very moment. Also, I try to make everything I do more efficient. This wouldn't be weird if it wasn't everything. The way I open the door changes a little every day, until eventually I'll hit a point where it works perfectly. Then I focus on keeping it perfected. I do this with, literally, everything. The place I set my soap when I take a shower.. the way I think about ideas. Anything concrete or abstract. Again, don't get me wrong - I'm not OCD. If something screws up, I just work on making it efficient again. Because of all this, it makes me feel like quite a robot. Does anyone else ever feel this way?