Hi my name is Paul and I have just joined this website and am hoping to make some friends and to develop myself as a writer. You know ( and I don't know how common this feeling is, maybe I am just weird) I have always wanted to be a writer. Ever since I was about 5 or 6 I just had the craving in my heart. When I was a kid I used to write short little stories and I used to get bits of encouragement off family etc. However ( and here is the crappy bit), when I was 14 everyone turned around and said " You really should get a proper job." Or words along those lines. And I guess for a little while I fought against this and rebelled but after a while I listened. I have spend the last 16 years or so working as an R.G.N and I have still had this " calling " in my heart to write. And it won't go away no matter what I try. So now I find myself at a crossroads in my life. My nursing doesn't bring in a lot of money and part of me wants to spend all my spare time writing and another part says that I need to concentrate on doing something new to bring in some more money. Should I take the plunge and go full throttle on my writing and just carry on trying to make ends meet with my job or a new career ? Is anyone else in this position ? If I didn't have a wife and two sons, there wouldn't be as much of a conflict. You know if would have been easier if I had been born with a desire to be a plummer or a car salesman, but I wasn't. I was born to write, for some reason. I just know it in my heart but I'm also conscious I that want to be able to afford Christmas and holidays etc.