The Not Happy Thread

My tooth hurts and one of the medicines I can take for the nerve pain, neurotin, makes me eat everything in my house.

 

There's a new guy in the critique group that's driving me crazy. When you give him feedback he explains everything instead of listening. When we're reading people's work he chats, a lot. When someone is giving a critique, he makes a conversation out of it. That's not how it's done. People give their feedback one at a time, it's not about conversation. And when he gave me feedback tonight it was the problematic trying to change your story rather than giving useful feedback. Even when I told him I wasn't changing the story he kept insisting I should.

Where's the emoji pulling her hair out?

 

I think you should chuck your work now and start all over.

 

I hate it when that happens

 

That would annoy the crap out of me, but just remember, it's YOUR story, the only person making the final decision to change it or not, is you ... ((hugs)))

 

Oh, I'm not about to change my story. It's just that it wastes so much good critique time.

 

Accidentally just took a swig of this thing called Remy Martin or something and just about threw up.

Most vile disgusting thing that I ever tasted, had me gagging.

Uck....

 

Depending on which Remy Martin you get, it can be good. It's a cognac, and there's a range of quality increasing in price proportionally. But a good scotch or bourbon is preferable

 

The worst booze I have ever had was a red wine called Double Dog Dare, guess the $2.99 price should have been a tip off

 

Heh

I don't actually drink it was in a cup and I just kinda took a swig XD without thinking but it then proceeded to feel like acid had been poured into my chest or stomach. But woooof man....like spicy or something.

Gotta write about that someday XD

 

The bank's computer went down today and I couldn't deposit or withdraw money for an elderly relative. Also, there's some stuff I have to take care of but I can't phone or meet the people I need to until the weekday. I've got this anxious fog in my head. I know there's nothing I can do right now, but the tension! *headache*

 

And the name wasn't?

 

Today I'm tired, frustrated, sad. Not sure why. It's usually a combo of I interpersonal stuff, whether I've exercised, how well I slept, if I'm overwhelmed with school/jobs. I haven't journaled in a while. It's really hot too. I threw out my back running yesterday after three days of no exercise. Gf has a migraine and was irritable and not very horny last night and couldn't keep conversation (I guess I took it a little personally), I'm ticked at my friend for no good reason, and anxious about a job interview on Tuesday. If I get the job I have to cut hours with my other job but it will be an outstanding entry into the mental health field that will help me make later gains.

Was going to walk to the beach to read some fiction before studying, but I just ate a great meal and now I'm lazy. Even picked some tulsi from the garden to steep for tea, so that's cooling off.

Wow I'm so making this a journal entry, what a dick. Okay, gonna put my dish in my room, put the tea and book in my bag, put on walking shoes, brush my teeth and walk to the beach. If I need to cry or just frown ugly there I will. Maybe I'll journal too.

Well that helped. Ugggh

 

You live in walking distance to the beach and you're complaining?

 

That's how depression works, yeah. !!!

 

Just feel like I am slipping away from people. Not a very great feeling!!

 

Last week at a traineeship interview the clinical director was all won over by me and thought I should take the paid coordinator position, so we had a follow up interview this morning. She didn't tell me there would be two others there and while she was trying to get me to basically repeat things I said last Thursday I couldn't remember what exactly won her over and while watching the facial expressions of the other women I got more of a sense that they weren't that into me. I've told the Tue night facilitation group people I'll go with them, for a year, and don't know if I'll get the coordination position at all. It's a tricky, frustrating thing. Might have to go with two unpaid traineeships for the next year just to get hours out of the way, cutting hours with my jobs and adding more stress to my life. Which makes me stress out. But I tend to catastrophize a lot so I just have to manage that.

And after the interview I ate lots and lots of pizza.

 

Wait a minute. Is this your first username on WF?

 

No. Changed name because there was an ex stalking me.

 

I liked you better as :S. No offense, but Hubardo is a weird name.

 

I'm so used to you now as @Hubardo, I had forgotten you used to be someone else.

 

I liked it better too but the stalking thing sucked. The point of changing the name was so I couldn't be linked to the other name, and now two of you have used the other name. Please don't do that. I shouldn't have to get into the details of what she was doing within the framework of stalking. It was very bad. Thanks.

 

Dealing with the all-suckiness of my social anxiety and depression. Need to get a job but I can't face it. Real people are too scary. Writing helps me cope in many ways, most of which I can't yet understand.

 

Goodness, sorry @Hubardo, I had no idea.

I fixed my post too.