Sometimes the world just goes dark. It's lonely and scary. All I can hear is the air escaping from my lips. And I wonder why? Why if everything is dead and gone around me, Why then am I still breathing? It is cruel. The numbest engulfs my everything and all i want is to stop the breaths from escaping. Stop breathing, stop the thump thump in my chest. Just make myself disappear as I feel I am already. I am gone but stuck in a cold dark room just breathing. My lame attempts at leaving have actually shown my why I should want to breath. But when the world turns cold and dark, I just want it all the stop. Finally leave this room. Finally leave this life. The pain from breathing hurts too much. I am not loved for I cannot feel the warmth of love. I am just numb.