First of all, . Second of all, I do still have every intention of getting back to my WIP, critiquing things in the Workshop, and generally being a productive citizen here. I've reached a crossroads in my life. I don't make nearly enough money at my job to support myself (my dad has been helping with bills) and my boss told me there's no chance for promotion or a raise. So, fuck this job. There's literally no reason to stay here. I've been told that Java is a pretty universal coding language and I could get a reliable job pretty much anywhere with it - and my base income would almost double at entry level. I meant to start learning this code two weeks ago, but I am the worst at time management. WoW has been hella distracting, but I gotta just put the fun down for a while each day and get on this. My life right now is unsustainable, so... Yeah.
Okay, I know I've been gone for 85 years and I'm sorry. I got distracted with WoW (Legion is seriously amazing, help) and trying to date boys (none of them worked out...) and Bad Time Managementâ„¢. I'm back now though. I'll be in the Workshop soon, critiquing, and that should wake up my brain juices again for actual writing. <.< I gotta do this. I gotta write this fucking novel, damn it.
Guys! My mom randomly bought me plane tickets to visit her! I'm in NY! Holy shit! I'll be here for a week. Plan is to catch up on some desperately-needed relaxation, hang out with my mom (duh), and write / critique cos I'm sorely out of the habit right now. Oi. Anybody want a critique? If no volunteers, I'm just gonna go to the Workshop and pick at random. <.<
Read every night before bed. I know, June is halfway over, but it's never too late to start building a good habit. I NEED to start reading regularly - my sleep and more importantly, my writing, depend on it. I read tonight for about 20-30 minutes. I figure that's all I probably need. Anyone know any good vampire books?
Okay okay okay okay. I moved. I'm settled in, mostly. I was waiting for things to settle down more, but, I don't see any change in my schedule anytime soon. This is what it's going to be. So I have to force myself to start writing again. I puked out the first bits of Chapter 3, but it feels like I'm writing blind now. I have an outline, but I'm not sure where to go. Doesn't feel like enough, I guess. Blegh. Anyone want to be my accountability officer? You get to beat me up if I don't write.
Okay so, it's been about forever since I had a chance to do much on this site. I got a job a month ago in a warehouse. For the first week I was a box-pushing slave, then my boss side-moted me to the desk. I'm supposed to learn their computery tasks, but the woman training me would rather get upset when I ask questions than actually teach me the nuances of the system. On top of that, she does most of the work herself, and then gets all condescending at me when I don't know how to do a thing she asks me to do. How the fuck am I supposed to learn if you don't let me practice, eh lady? Fuck off and fuck you. *ahem* The hours are for shit. Shift starts at 6 am, which means I need to get up at 4:15 to have any hope of being there on time. I've been exhausted since I started that job, but I'm adjusting. My ability to write is only just now starting to recover from the abrupt changes in my schedule. I'm also moving. There was a lot of runaround with trying to secure an apartment closer to work, but I did manage to snag one (with a fireplace! ) just a few blocks from the warehouse. My commute will go from 30 minutes to five. So, I'll be packing little by little for the rest of the month and then hopefully I'll have more time and energy in May after I'm all moved. Also, I went to horse around the other day after work — my mare got fat while I was busy adulting. o.o;
I liiiived! That drive home was the scariest fucking thing ever. There were underwater levels. I thought we were going to die. *ahem* So the cat and I are settled back in at home, and now it's back to our comfy routines. Vacations suck because I don't like changes in my schedule. *grumble* *puts feet up*
I did rant here. Then I deleted it, because it sounded so petty. Thank you, society, for shaming introverts to the point where we feel fucking petty for trying to stand up for our needs. I'll be home late tomorrow.
Merry Christmas, Christians. The drive to my brother's house went by rather quickly; we left around 10am and got here around 7:30pm. The car was cramped and uncomfortable, but I had music and cruise control, and my dad and I have found some common nerd-ground discussing the similarities and differences between DnD and WoW. For all the angst he generates in me, it's nice to finally be able to nerd out with him on a topic we both enjoy. It took almost 28 years, but better late than never. I can't sleep. Not because it's Christmas, but because my circadian rhythm is jacked. I have been neglecting it at home and now, trying to sleep 3 hours sooner than normal on an uncomfortable couch is simply not possible. I brought my HP Lovecraft anthology book for exactly this reason, but then I remembered I promised to be present here again so I figured a blog post was in order. I've got a couple baby ideas for my WIP, I need to explore them in more detail. I wish Google Docs wasn't so laggy on my phone. Perhaps I could run through them the old fashioned way, with pen and paper. I was going to say "If I have time," but clearly I have the time. What I lack is the discipline. Do it, self! Jack is too awesome to leave unattended like this! Don't you miss playing with him? Yeah, I do. You're right, self. *kicks rock* <.< Welp. I guess I should slog through this wordy eldritch stuff and enjoy my crimmas tomorrow. Then I'll see if I can find a notebook...
I did not mean to disappear so thoroughly after Thanksgiving. My vacation was an angst-filled nightmare, and I guess I never quite righted myself after. So, my bad. :/ Moving forward, I plan to be a daily contributor once again. I'll be out of town for the holiday weekend, but I should still be able to at least check notifications via my phone and post to some things here and there. My sister-in-law has a big family, and I really don't know how many people I'm going to have to dodge throughout the weekend. If it's zillions, I'll probably not be able to post. If it's like, two, I could totally get away with zombiephoneface. Anyway. Happy Whatever. *glues self to WF*
So, this last month I was in a pretty dark place and I had been avoiding my amazing mare... I didn't have the patience to deal with her, so I figured it would be best to just let her have a vacation, hang out in her pasture with her herd and get fat. It's easy to lose your temper with a horse if you're not in the right mindset, and I didn't want to foul up our relationship. It's not fair to punish an animal for acting the way it's programmed to. I wanna give a huge hug to @Tenderiser for our brainstorming sessions. Helping her write a character who's into horses made me appreciate my own mare again. I was all nostalgic and so I forced myself to go to the barn this afternoon, and lo and behold my mare is enjoying the good life. Green pasture, bunch of friends to hang out with, and no work! When she saw me coming with her halter, she looked very interested, but turned away when I got close. This was our conversation (not spoken aloud, that would have been weird...) : "That looks like work, I'm good." So I made her run. "You wanna stay out here, you gotta run around." "But running around is hard work and I don't wannaaa! Look how fat I am!" "Well, come here then. You can be lazy with me." "Oh okay." So I take her into the barn and brush her off -- it takes forever because she's been rolling around in the mud for a month... I hope all that grooming felt good. Sheesh. Also thank you, miss mare, for not smacking me in the face with your tail. I hate it when you do that. -.- I get as much mud as I can off her and take her to the round pen. I'm expecting a frisky exercise session, since she's been a couch potato for so long, but she really didn't do anything spectacular. She zoomed around for a minute, gave me a "Yeah? Make me!" once, but that was all. So I put her through the paces, nothing too high-energy (she's out of shape after all), and we call it a day. She's such a sweet thing, all adorable and getting nice and fuzzy for the winter. She's like a giant stuffed animal right now. So cute. View attachment 22944
I'm just excited. A full set of tapers and plugs from 14g-00g WOOOO View attachment 22942 Wearing the 14g plugs now. On the 1st of the month, it'll be 12-time. When will I stop? Who knows!
Sequence of events: Repeated dismal failures at attempting to RP anywhere since the closing of the one and only site worth being on. (I didn't even get much attention there, who am I kidding?) Brilliant idea to seek out a writing forum, not just a roleplaying forum. good feelings anxiousness good feelings nervousness Post my ideas on said forum nervousness good feelings motivation to pursue the things plan to pursue the things pursue one of the things! Sudden unexplainable desire to give up forever. Nobody wants to read this shit. It's all in my head anyway, who cares? What? What the hell is that about, brain? Stop it, I'm trying to have good feelings and you're ruining it.