I really don't know what to call them any more, they start as dreams and develop into nightmares or something else in between? At first you could be in control and little by little you lose that control. You notice it, all you have to do now is see what happens and pray you wont feel anything that's coming. You feel the fear, the pain, all the feelings. I cannot run away from it anymore, or hide. I can only take a glimpse of what is to come. Just a glimpse. Since is not the first time any more should I just let go and let it take over. I have try so hard to just not let it win yet it seems I don't do any progress. The little progress I do is nothing compared to what is going on inside. I cant explain or described it either. It just doesn't let me. Or I don't let it. Not going to lie there are dreams that I wish to get lost in and stay. But there there are those that wish to forget and not have. I try to make it better but as always I make it worse and in change I feel worse. Everything is a mess just like my mind. All over the place different things all at once popup. Atleast its not as bad as before but I feel like I am at the edge. Sitting at the edge looking at the huge storm forming with no way around. I am prepare so I think so but in reality I might just be in the middle of it. I have jump into the water and every time seems longer and longer, should I be fearful of just not fight or do any thing and stay there?
All my life, I have been told that our ancestors were powerful, close to the all mighty Demon king powerful. They were in second in command, the Kings right hand. The family was loyal to the Demon King and his family. They protected the heir, with their lives on the line without hesitation, no matter what. That is why the Demon King Marked them with a special mark that only they know about and it would be passed down to their children and their children children. Once they were of age they were told every secret but only if the mark appeared. Yes, if only the mark appeared. Not all had it, why you ask, well not all were loyal and because some were meant for something else. Just like humans and other supernatural they had their own legends. A legend about the Demon Kings mate. A mate more powerful than the King itself. There is a lake that supposed to as the legend says only the Legendary mate can go in and awaken the beast within and awaken her true self, her true power. When that happens she should mate with the king to reclaimed her empire. Many go to the lake and swim in an attempt to awaken the beast but all failed to do so. Well who knows if it is true or not, I on the other hand don't care. I am just living my life and staying out of trouble. My parents are strict, mother is a stay at home mom and father is a director at a big company. Just a couple more days and I am of age and can do whatever I want. Can't wait for the day to come, there are a lot of things happening that day, my birthday of course, the CEO's son's wedding, the opening of my family's hotel and night club......... cannot wait!!! Since I am going to be 18 and soon to be a high school graduate I kind of apply for a job at the company nothing big, just so I can start earning my own money and move out. Mother told me she will allow me for the condition I live in the new hotel and just pay for food and my own stuff, I had no other chose but to comply with the woman she doesn't leave room for any argument. She has gotten everything her way, yes she does compromise with father but mostly is just rare when you get away with something she don't approve.
Door opens... Once the door opened I saw the man jump back and there it was a huge black shadow, I couldn't see it clearly but seeing how the four tall muscular man jumped back and almost scream; I knew then we wouldn't be able to get out or be save. The good thing is that we at least have some food, not so good food but we something. For what ever reason we are here they don't want us to die, just not yet. A few day have passed already and some haven't notice that there are people missing until some woman child disappear. Scream her name and desperately looking everywhere with eyes coming down her cheeks. A few help others just lay on the ground while the woman badly saying "Where is my daughter? Where's my daughter? Have you seen her?" most people just shake their heads. When the chattering becomes loud and annoying one of the muscular man with his friends walk toward the middle and yells at everyone to stop being noisy. Most people shut up and stare, others start to whisper; the man starts talking and I feeling coming I know what he going to say. Out of no where I saw that he looked at me for a few seconds and began to talk. ************************************************* Bob I named him Bob.. Bob: "Everyone please be quiet, there are a few things that we all need to talk about. I know is hard but please bear with me." Guy 1: "Shut you mouths and listen if you want to know what is going on!" Lady: "Jessica! Jessica! where are you? Jessica?!" Guy 2: "Ma'am please be quiet and listen to what my friend is trying to say" Lady: "No! My daughter is missing I have to find her!" saying desperately. Guy 1 angrily shouting and glaring at the lady: "If you just shut up and listen, you will know where she might be." The lady let a big gasp out and nods her head. Looking shockingly back at Bob the room becomes so quietly that you can just hear the fire burning. Looking all around to make sure he has everyone attention, taking a long deep breath and loud enough for everyone to hear starts to speak. Bob: "I know you all are scare, frighten as hell of being here lock up not knowing where and why. I don't have the exact answer you want but what I can say is that some of you haven't notice some might." While saying the last part he looks over at me and continues. " There are some people missing not a lot just few enough that me and my friends notice." A voice in the crowd "What do you mean missing?'' Guy 1: "Missing as gone, not here int his room anymore." bravely looking straight at the lady eyes "Including your daughter." Taking that to heart and screaming a big and loud "NOOOO!!!!" she began to hysterically cry. I see panic and fear getting bigger. When I look at Bob he is staring back at me. Bob: '' Please calm down! I think they come when we all sleeping and take one at a time or two." Takes a deep breath and sighs "I have seen what is beyond that door, well just a peek out there. Some one told me and I agree with that person." Looking straight at me for a few seconds. Did he meant me? I haven't talk to him or gone near him. Or is he just worried cause one of the few kids in here. Without taking it so much I ignore all the stares. Bravely continuing talking "I think we are in hell. Some where deep in hell." The background noises and yelling "What? what do you mean hell?" "Who told you this?" "how do you know?" "Are you sure you telling us the truth?" Question after question but Bob kept calm and kept talking without any fear showing. I know we all afraid including him but he is not showing it. Bob desperately " Please stay calm and quiet. All I can say is that some how we all were taking from our home and woke up here right everyone knows that. Also about the people that have being taken away.... they, uh, I don't know exactly how to say it so I am just going to come out and say it." everyone with a frighten look in their face look around at each other when Bob said that. Continues "Yes, we are in hell and there are demons outside that door." Pointing straight at the huge cold steel door. Amazed and looking straight to the door and for those closer to it they take a few steps back away from it. "The people they have taken" pauses and breaths before continuing "They don't come back. Out of all of those people only two have made it back." .......... *******************************************************************************
The cruel reality is that some just fight to survive one more day. Specially when you in hell some do what ever it takes to survive and surpass others. Survival of the fittest some say, a struggle for life that never ends unless, well you know unless you get killed in the process. When you are young and get taken away from everything and thrown to different life that you nothing of. Yes, confusing, scary, dark and cold. You have no idea of what to do, all you see around you is same people with the same feelings. No, crying for help is no helping and you realize it quick that it would never work. For some reason you are a quick learner, but that doesn't take your pain, the cold or any other feeling you have. None of this people know what is going on and, or why they here. What is here? A cave? A Tunnel? Cold and a bit humid. A prison of some sort. Who took us here? And why? For what reason? All you can here is adults, kids, and some elderly crying, whining, screaming. Man trying to break free. The banging of the steel door echos some seem to have giving up, others praying. Is late at night or so i hope, most of the people are sleeping it sounds a bit quiet than early today; I turn my view to the door and those who still are awake stand up and retreat far from the door as soon as they hear it opening. Can I say I am glad I'm across from it. Who knows what can happen once is open. I tried to hide behind someone sleeping and see if I can sneak a peak of who opens the door. For light we have some fires around the walls and some in the middle. I can't believe what I am going to say but I do wish I could be close to see what is beyond that huge door. Door opens......
When you get to school but there is no space to park the car, that you just decide to go around and wait for the rest of the cars to move after dropping the students. It is a busy street and we decided to turn left. Music loud, non stop giggles, and a foggy car well smokey car. When all seems a perfect calmed morning the unexpected happens. At a far distance we hear the police sirens. We don't think much of it until bang a run away truck hit us on our back right side that we spin for a second or two. So I thought. I just remember all the noise and getting dark and dark and darker. I felt my body getting lighter and lighter, that for some reason I saw myself floating up and up. I open my eyes and I see myself in some type of capsule, spacecraft with my two friends and two others. We all look at one another confused, shocked, and then see it. For some reason we don't ask questions, not yet. With this feeling in the middle of my chest that rushes through all my body when we see out the window. Th planets we leaving behind and all those beautiful bright stars. The sight of the infinite stars, time and space. A sight that you can look all day long and never get tire of it. A sight that makes you feel all kinds of feels, emotions everything and anything. A precious gift to have and cherish with all your heart, mind and body. A feeling that you can never forget. I don't know how long it was but we are not in our solar system. I don't think anybody has travel this far or if it could be possible. Out of nowhere we hear and see this huge spaceship? is this really happening. We see that our tiny capsule is being pulled towards this spaceship. We hear a voice within us "Prepare yourself!" we all look at each other and then to him and questions after questions "Prepare for what exactly?" "Who can it be?" and me "Lets make sure we all stay together. Do not I repeat DO NOT get separated. You seen this thing is huge and we can not afford to loose each other." We all hold hands and the doors open! Bright lights and then we see shadows its like straight out of the movies. Well they were no aliens or anything scary. Humans, they're humans. This far and i do mean far, How in hell can it be possible. Well we kinda made it too. The leader walks in front and says who of us five is the leader. We look at each other and we all see fear and confused about the question. The guy next to me speaks up without fear and with a lot of confidence and says "Me, I am the leader." He then looks at all of us and we all nod and agree. The other guys says welcomes us and said to follow. Our Leader looks at us and says "Stay together, Ready lets go!" we nod and walk through the doors.
Once a upon a time, there was a little princess and her name was Maya. A dragon named Jo went to the princess castle, and a brave knight named Matias came to the castle with a ginormous cake. The brave knight got happy his friend the dragon came to her surprised party and all of the knights friends had fun and live happily ever after.
Time does passes by fast sometimes but there are rare times when you see it pass by in slow motion. One has to really appreciate time with their loved ones or with family and friends. Time is precious. That is why I wished we had more time together, more years... Ah what a nice breeze feels like it going to get cold soon. A small storm perhaps? A small storm to start this coming soon battle. A battle where all can be lost or gain. That dazzling light will become dull in due time, I guarantee it. Just like that time of our promise. You might have not seen it but at the end of that battle the sky was as ten times brighter. I just hope I can find you and make sure this time you see it with me, together like we were meant to be. The time to find you hope it comes quick but the time we spent together can be slow as possible. We are always together even though we far apart at the moment. Things right now might still be a bit confuse and out of order but soon enough it will become all clear and together. It has been ten minutes and I still not able to get down from the car and enter the new school. Because of what happened last year I was in a tight spot of loosing the year but somehow I manage and skipped one instead. Funny is it not. For some reason I am very nervous and happy and well a lot of feelings that I don't want to explained yet ha ha. Oh man, what is wrong with me this hasn't happened to me before. Maybe is all cause the dream I had. Ethan Am I going to finally find you? Are you really going to be here in this place? Are we finally going to be happ.... Oh NO! Is that what I think it is?? I mean is he what I think he is? I can't believe I am seen you right now and here. I guess is going to be my turn to betray you or just make your life a living hell. This time I will not let you come between us.... Ian! I also see some familiar faces well apparently this is going to be more fascinating than I thought. I wonder if this school has any kind of competitions if they do count me in. *Smirks* It will be a little risky but it will be all worth it at the end. I'll just be silent and more clever. I will let you enjoy your peace and jubilant life until I make the storm appear once again. I just hope that you don't remember anything from that time long ago but if you do well I guess it will be more better. I will become more fierce then ever. This year it will be very lively to most of us. Well it is time to start walking on the path that I am making for my self. A path where I can control most of the things happening. A path that I am bigger than my demons. A path where both past and present lifes collide with one another. A path that will explain everything, and that will show you everything. Ethan here I come, more ready than I will ever be. Step by step. With every one step closer I take, I recall all those moments that we had and we could of.
As I walk to the door down this dark hallway I begin to feel lighter and lighter. Once there in front, I hesitate to grab the door knob. Why? Thinking if its lock or open? What am I going to find on the other side? Once open I can see a green field and a beautiful pink tree next to a small river. It feels so familiar, so nostalgic. While approaching it the wind swirls around with pink petals alongside my whole body. My body moving on its on I close my eyes and begin to dance around with the wind. Then I hear an unknown voice echoing, yet familiar to my heart. As I turned around, I can only catch a glimpse of his face before waking up. How many times has it been that I'm dreaming about him. I have been dreaming him ever since I woken up from that accident. I feel like he has an immense part of my life. Am I remembering my life? Is he a part of it? Then again how can I think that all those dreams I had are from my life. I do not think I have wings and powers. OR do I? What am I thinking, parts of those dreams were a bit wicked I don't think I were like that. But then again something huge must of had happened for to turn like that. Someone must of had betrayed me so atrocious or hurt the one I love. Either way I hope I don't run into him. What am I thinking again! Seems like this might be a side effect from being in a coma for seven months and waking up with amnesia. It has being two months and I feel like nothing happened. All the doctors are very impressed with my recovery and health besides not being able to remember still. Sometimes all I look forward is to go to sleep and dream. Those dreams of a strong love that no body and time can not break. A love that's immortal. A love that is fated to be and not to be at the same time all if I had just said the right thing. Its not like I can't explained it, its just complicated. Little by little I'm starting to see his face more clearly with each and every dream. What can I say, I sometimes feel insane but so does he. If we ever cross paths, this time I will say the right thing and wont lose him again. This time, I will go to you. I just hope this memories of mine come as quick as possible and not as a blur imagine. For now I will live as I'm told until the time comes my beloved. As soon as I wake up to late at night I am always with someone. I'm never alone sometimes I wonder why. What I know so far is that both of my parents died when I was young. What a sad begging right? Well it could be but there's more to that, that is what I feel. In some of my dreams I have seen three people that have sacrifice themselves, their life, their happiness, their everything. Maybe my parents did the same for some unknown reason. Maybe nobody knows the whole story and all they can do is come up with their own story of what they know. Most of the time I feel like I'm returning to my old self and not the one they used to know. Sometimes I'm terrified of the truth, or finding out those long lost memories that were way deep down buried for centuries. Like I said before something big must of had happened to me that now I am starting to remember.
"No way!!!! This looks exactly like that first nightmare I had. What in the world is happening, are they becoming real? all of them?" that is what I was saying in a tremendous shocked state that I just froze stiff. I couldn't move until I heard them say to kill Eison. I couldn't let them, I need to do something. Move! Move, damn it move and do something. He cant die, not here, not now, not like this. I didn't realize what I had done until I saw it in his eyes. I gave him a painful smile and everything turn black. Next thing when I open my eyes I was in pain and I was being carried into a dark cold tunnel. I saw a blue light flash, after that I was hearing a lot of different noises. Are those noises people talking? I don't understand the language. I feel so weak my chest feels like its burning. Pain, all I feel is pain. What happen to me. I can hear them talk but I cannot move or do anything. I feel so sleepy that their voices starting to fade away....... With out realizing I finally opened my eyes but little did I know was that the dream I had was my astral body and it happen. After my astral body returned I had a dream about me in school and some guy too. Me and him we......umm we... I cant seem my self to say it or think it too. You could say we became one. *Blush* What in the world am I dreaming now. Okay, just breath and oh what is this heavy thing by my arm? A head? whos head is this? My body feels so heavy I cant get up. Him: oh you finally wake up! *smiles* I just looked his way and I froze. Just by looking at him, my whole body feels funny. He looks like the guy I was dreaming of. Him: You told me that there was a possibility of you not remembering what happen and you also told me to be here when you wake up. Some how he making me nervous and I can't shake off this feeling all over my body. Me: Okay, you're right I don't remember anything besides of what I just dreamt. And.... Looks at my hands and down my body. What am I wearing? what are this marks? why do I sound different and look taller and oh whats!! why is my chest bigger? My head feels heavy and with this long hair how??? Me: What is wrong with me? Why? How? Him: Calm down and let me explain everything okay Me: explain everything Him: yes, please sit down. Okay as I see at the moment he is the only one here and I don't see anyone else here to explain either. I don't feel that uncomfortable around him for some reason. Him: So, you were sleeping for a couple years 7 to be exact. Try to not panic please. Me: 7 years? I was sleeping for 7 years!! Ha ha ha...... ha! Him: Yes 7 years it is hard to believe but its true. I gotta stay calm and listen to everything he says. Somehow I believe him and besides what else can explain me waking up as an adult... wait no a teenager. Him: I know you have a lot of questions and if you just let me do one thing, you will know everything and it will save time too. Me: ok, what is that you want to ....... *gets up and gives her a long kiss* What are these flashbacks I am having right now. These are.... *looks at Him* These are our memories we had while I was asleep but how? Me: *Speechless* *falls back in chair* *blushed from the unexpected kiss* So all those dreams that I had actually happen with my astral body.
******************** It seems I have more questions then answers, but, like he said he has his reasons for not sharing. As time passes by I keep having more and more nightmares. They get to the point of me waking up scared from them and trembling . Good thing I'm not alone and have Eison with me to keep me company. It wasn't too long of a time that we spent together surviving in this place. Like the adult in charged said once to us: "In this coming year we going to spent together YOU will be going to learn some very basic but important things to be able to survived. Who to trust and work in a team to reach a goal. You will also learn about what your team mate can or cannot do. Also you have to help each other to be at the same level." ******************** In a way you can say we didn't had much of a childhood where its all fun and games. We were always learning different things. How to survived in the wild and what to do and not do. How to make camp and such things. What I liked learning most was how to fight and defense myself. Also even though we couldn't do it we try to learn magic. By the end of the year I notice that I was learning faster and could do much more than Him. Our teacher said that it was almost time to return home and if I was willing to fallow and keep learning to become one great guarding to the prince. "The prince" I thought. I quickly answer with a no and said I will only be by Eison's side and no one else. Of course little did I know that later I was going to find out that Eison is the kings son. The prince. Our teacher just laugh and he look at Him and then at me..... Are you two going to be together forever? And we replied with a yes, of course. To be fair Eison didn't know he was the kings son either. Later when they told him the story of how he was hidden away for his safety he makes an arrangement for me to stay by his side in the castle. Without realizing we were walking toward a path of no return, many hardships, and betrayal. A path where our lives will change and could destroy our bond. A Bloody path. A path where it can go either way good or bad. Tell me how can two kids could know what the future brings. How could I know that those nightmares that I was having were starting to become real. We were so happy to be with each other. Most of the time we tried to have more time to have fun and just play like any other kid. ******************* Today is our last day here in this place and we decided to go out and have fun at a nearby river. We took some food and drinks. We were having so much fun that time passed by so fast. It was starting to get dark and we tried to go back as fast as we could, but we ended getting lost. Out of no where we heard noises and saw somethings flying around us. Demons! These creatures are real demons. I heard they can change appearance as wished. I never thought that we will run into some demons so young. When they were about to attack us I saw a light and our teacher appeared and told us to go to the house immediately without stopping. He gave us a few things and told us to go the castle first thing in the morning if doesn't come back. My heart sank when I heard those words. I tried not to cry.... and we did as we were told. We ran towards the house but there was someone expecting us there. They knew, they knew this outcome, I don't know how but they knew. ********************
When you don't know where you came from or how you got to the place you are now. When you can just fight to keep living in this world. It might not seem much, just a normal place in between kingdoms. A place with a lot of myths and legends. Angel and demons. Oh I almost forgot the biggest one of them all: The celestial being. The one and only most powerful and most afraid. Powerful because they are like an angel and demon combine with either light and dark powers. Plus they can bend all elements and have not just two but four wings. Wish I could have a pair of wings. Its all about the family and if you are born with it or not. To bad for me. I don't know where I came from or have anything from my parents that I can find out about it. I was told that one day I was found in a basket near a river. But why did I start talking about demons and angels, well we live in a world where they do exist. And if they do exist The celestial being can exist too. There is not a lot of data about the celestials of they become them. There are a couple of stories about how a celestial is just good and the other bad. But I wonder is there is one about the celestial embracing both powers not just one or the other. Not a lot of people have come across them for many different reasons as its written down. For some reason I am very, very, but very interested in the celestial I don't know why yet. Maybe because it has powers like no one has and the force they have. I need to know more and the only way is to start training on my own and go to the Blossom Academy. In the academy one can learn magic, combat experience, and a lot more. At the end on graduation day one can either earn his/her wings. One can get a job depending on their experiences and skills. I have a year to try and get in. Me and Eison gonna try our best. Now you're wondering who is he right. His my best friend and well umm his my person. (blush) Me and hi m are the same that's what I want to think but he doesn't want to say anything from his past. Sometimes I'm a bit envious because he has a past, parents, and you could say a life. For me I don't have any of that, well I might have a life right now but a past where I know where I come from and who my parents are or if I have any family. He says there's a reason he came here and why he doesn't want to remember that part of his life.
In my dreams, of what I can remember. I could say they feel like some long lost memories that were buried deep down and are now trying to surface back. Back to haunt me, well not really but all those feeling that stayed lingering after I wake up. I could go to sleep perfectly fine and whether the dream is about a fight I wake up sore or if I dream about a happy moment I wake up happy and with a feeling I cannot explain within my chest. Lately they have stop I don't know why but its not like I miss them. Or do I ? Okay I might a little! Its just that those dreams feel important, they feel right, they make me fell good and I know I shouldn't expect anything. Like Alexa said I need to get out of my cocoon and spread my wings. Mm, I wonder what she's doing right now I heard something about a club. What kind of a club? like after school? No, no I don't think so. I know she has more friends and if I remember correctly today, let me check my calendar. Whats!!! Today is her birthday!! How come I didn't remember it. Oh that explains everything. *flashback* I wasn't feel well these past days and completely ignored everything. I got to call her and make up for it. *phone ringing* Alexa: Hello there beautiful. Me: Are you drunk already? Alexa: Maybe? Me: You silly goose. Why didn't you told me about today? I feel bad about it now. I'm sorry I remember your birthday late. Alexa: Oh baby, don't be sorry. I know you haven't being feeling good and I know how your memory is right now. I didn't wanted to bother you about it that's why I came out with the girls like usual. Which you don't remember as well. *flashback* Me: Ah Of what you just said right now. Alexa: Oops! Sorry I talked to much. Me: No that's fine. Actually I kind of remember something. But we used to do that a lot right. Go out and have fun and the club.... Alexa: Do you remember?? OMG!!! do you know how happy that makes me. Me: Hope as much happy as to come get me and take me with you! Alexa: Really!!?? like for reals though? Me: yes really I'll start getting ready ok. Let me know when your downstairs. Alexa: Yay! okay whatever you say Boss. *clicks* Boss?? ha ha That girl surely has that kind of attitude but now that I think about it she has been more careful about and with everything. I really hate it that I can't remember everything ever since I woke up from that coma. But somehow I feel differently. *closes eyes and takes deep breaths* Okay so what should I wear? I don't have long before she gets here. *sigh* okay, okay what do I even have in my closet? Oh, wow! Now that I'm actually in my closet I have some pretty good things to wear and..... This is the one! shoes, shoes, which shoes? Boots?! Somehow I feel like wearing boots. *smirks* There are two things missing for a great night tonight. *phone rings* Alexa: I'm near the house hope your done. I figure you'll want a great night tonight to be. So I got some stuff and arrange everything just like before. so get your ass and come down okay. bye! There she goes again doing whatever she likes but then again she knows me so well that I don't have to say anything or do anything. That is why she is y best friend. Well I think I'm done here just to get some money and leave the rest up to the mood. *gets in the car* Alexa: I figure if you could remember a bit why not go all out and see if you can remember more. So here cheers. Me: where are the others? Alexa: I sent them first. That way we don't have to stay in line for a long time. Me: We never had to stand in line before so why now? Alexa: *smiles* Well you are right on that. But they don't know that so I just played it normal you know like them. Me: I get it and you should call and let them know we are coming. And we have a few friends too. Ah how I miss this. Somehow, slowly I'm becoming me again. If I remember correctly there might be something stash under here. Well look at that I was right. Tonight definitely the night!....
For some reason I just can't seem to move toward school. I think it has been ten minutes since I'm just starring at the school gate entrance. *hears voice getting closer* Oh boy! I know those voices. They the school bullies and for what I have seen them doing to others including me too. *starts walking away, around the school* I'll just try to avoid them like always, just hope they don't notice and follow me. I have let them have their way too much and from today onwards I doubt I let them. Things are changing too fast for some reason and I feel like it shouldn't be this way. I wonder if there going to be some consequences. I'll have to start preparing for anything good or bad. I have never been at the back of the school. It looks better than the front gate. It feels peaceful, really quiet. I think I have found my new get away place. I wish I could stay here instead of going to class. But I cant I made a promise I'll try to do well in school and not get in trouble. Mm... Who did I promised to? I hate this. I don't know what's worse not knowing who I truly was or trying to remember everything. I'm afraid to find out. I feel like I made myself forget everything for a reason. What could be the reason? or who? *yawn* I'm feeling really sleepy. Well look at that tree, it looks perfect to take a quick nap under it. Just hope no one comes and sees me or wakes me up. *falls asleep* In a dream: Is that me sleeping under that tall, round, beautiful pink tree? I looks like it is but how am I seeing this? OH who is he? Tall but I cannot see his face clearly. That body of his! Wow, I can see that he keeps himself in shape. Not too muscular and not skinny either. In a way just right. Goddamn! Oh wait... why is he getting closer? Is he going to lay down next to me? *blush* I can't see his face that clear but I can tell his smiling and that sweet smile. Seems if his looking at his love one. Lucky her. Lucky her?? But that is me!! Could he be my, my, *clears throat* my beloved? No, no it cannot be right I mean I'm He seems one od those guys that are really handsome and popular. I don't think a guy like that would like me that way as a friend yes but more I don't think so. Yup, that's all it is. *looks closer* What is he saying? I can't hear or tell a word. *gasps* He just KISSED me! I seriously don't know what to do but it seems it don't matter if I do something or not. It looks someone else is coming. who could it be this time? Another handsome fella? *smiles* Wow look at this one ab out the same seems a bit different though. His aura looks like... *looks at the tree* The tree seems more beautiful, with more color. And the small flowers they look amazing! I know this tree it is one of my favorites. Cherry Blossom. But it is not any ordinary Cherry Blossom. I kind of feel connected to it. Somehow. *trying to reach the tree* Voice 1: What do you think you are doing? Me: *jumps* *turns around* Voice 2: Why do you care? And its non of your business so turn around and go the way you came. Voice 1: Because I care and I'll make it my business. Voice 2: Why don't you just go back and leave her alone. She doesn't need you. Because of you a lot of bad things have happen to her. Voice 1: And you think I don't know that! I care about her the same as you do. I just can't help it okay. All I want to do is be near her. At least that's what I have been doing even if its from afar. Voice 2: You know she's falling for you. I know her all my life and she's falling for you. she doesn't want to but she is. Slowly but she is. You know you two can't be together. Voice 1: I know that. That's why I have been taken my distance. I don't want her memory of that night come to light. Voice 2: I know what you mean. I still can't shake that off of my head. I bet you are the same. But for her to remember that boy and that night, it will like living it again and to awaken that power. She couldn't control it then. All she has to do is hide her true power and try to not stand out. In a way she feels like a fugitive running, hiding but from those that seek power and from those that want it for evil. She knows what she has to do. she doesn't know why or how it happen. I just hope we can continue having a so call peaceful live. Voice 1: *looks at her/me* *Bells ringing* Voice 2: Lets go before she wakes up. They both leaving. I wonder what they were talking about. hmmm..... What did he meant by that night? *bells ring again* Voice: You have to wake up and go to class now. Soon you'll know of that night. So make sure to remember and wake up. Wake up *turns to look* Can you see me? But how? The others couldn't though! Voice: No they could not see you or hear you. But I am different. And you have to wake up and go to class you're already late. We both are. *Smiles and walks away* Wait who are you? I am you. Me! How can that be? wait *trying to reach her* Don't go yet, I have questions. Everything fading away! What is that noise and that voice. *opens eyes* *gets up quickly* Me: Shit I told you to wait!! Guy: You haven't say anything and I was just doing you a favor okay. Me: *blush* Oh no, sorry I, I wasn't talking about you I mean to you. My bad I guess that I was sleep talking. *looks at him* *Blushes more* * turns away* Do I know you? guy: No You don't know me and we are late to class. Which pretty much I don't care about it but I guess you might a little maybe. Me: Oh damn! I am late!! I got to go, Thanks for awaking me. *Runs off to class* Guy: I guess she hasn't remember everything yet. Guess I'll have to wait a bit more my beloved. *he smiles sweetly*
*SUDDENLY AWAKING* when you suddenly wake up from a loud noise, but you are not sure if you were waking up at the same time as the loud noise happened and scared you wide awake. what are the odds of that right. not a lot. I can't be thinking that there is something there, like a sign or whatever. Aaah I'm doing it again almost overthinking of every little thing that happens around me. Its just that I cannot help doing that, it became a habit. But the thing that I just can't let go is that dream I just had. Mmmmm.... Remember? Remember. Remember! *sigh* Am I supposed to remember something? what is it? Maybe the dream? I think I should start writing down everything I dream or what I can remember from them. Maybe there's a clue in them. what could it be? ugh! I have more questions now. I think I should stop thinking about it and do this homework that I didn't finish last night. *siting down* I hate homework. I wonder who invented it? Well I have ten minutes to d this before I get to school. Oh no! its raining and today I have to go walking. *gets up* I don't remember if I have an umbrella?! I have to cover my tattoos and I don't want the make up to get all sloppy? bad? disappear? I don't even know what word it is. I am totally lost today. *stops to realize what she said* WAIT WHAT!!!!! I AHVE TATTOOS?? BUT HOW?? THEY CANT JUST APPEAR OUT OF NOWHERE! CAN THEY?? *Shakes head* I have to calm down, maybe this is one of those weird dreams I have been having lately. right. RIGHT!! OHMYGOD! Who am I talking to anyways. mo ones here so WTF!! Okay, okay. Breath in. Breath out. *hears a voice* "Remember" *looks around* I think I'm finally losing it!! *walks around back and forward nervously* Me: WHAT A I SUPPOSED TO REMEMBER!! AND WHATS WITH THESE TATTOOS!!!! *On the verge to cry* Alexa: What did you just said?! To her surprise or mine I didn't wanted to turn around but I knew that she will eventually find out. But its not like I was keeping it a secret right? Okay, here it goes. *turns around* Alexa: *gasps* what happened? when this occurred? Do you know? Do you remember anything? Me: No, I just woke up not too long. I was gonna do my homework but started to overthink about my dreams and the word "Remember" and I saw that it was raining and started to think that I didn't know where was my umbrella and I said something about covering the tattoos and it clicked and I started to freak out just like right now. * takes a deep breath* Alexa: ok okay just calm down and keep taking deep breaths. Sit down and I can explained it for you. well part of it. Me: you know? but how? what!! what's going on! Alexa: Please try to stay calm and sit down okay. For you to star to see and remembering pieces of your past so sudden. Its a bit alarming. Something must be going on. Wait right there ok I'm just getting something from the room. *walks away to a room* Me: to see and to remember pieces of my past? My past what? *thinking deep* MY PAST LIVE!!! Could it be? Voice: yes your past live or important OUR past live. *gets up quickly* I think I AM going crazy. always talking to myself well who doesn't talk to themselves right? But to the point of listening a voice. I surely wont say anything or people will think I am actually crazy. Alexa: what are you doing there? come here and sit down. I have to show you something. Me: what's that? Alexa: you could say it is a magic book. This book will open up and reveal everything you hid away and everything you sealed. *grabs book and opens it* Me: Its blank! Alexa: At the moment but for every little memory you gained the book will only show it to you and just you. no one else. You can keep the book with you and when you think you might remember something open the book and it will show you. well more or less is like it will return that memory of that time and how it happen or how it got to that. You know the before, during, and after of that memory. Me: Something is telling me that maybe by the end of this week I might have fully remember everything. Alexa: *shocked* Me: Alright then it is time to get this cover up and go to school. We already gonna be late so let try to hurry up. Okay I think everything is all set and now its time to go to school. * hears the thunder* Oh yes! that's my weather alright. The cold rain and wind with the beautiful lightning and music to my ears the thunder. I haven't seen a storm or the weather like this. After a storm the sun always shines brighter. And yes after all this I will shine brighter and finally put all the missing pieces together. I don't know why I never have question the life that I was living in before knowing this. Its like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Wait I remember a long semi-dark hallway. A grand door at the end with light trying to get out. Blood, more blood and a promise. Love and betrayal. friends and enemies. Peace and war. Oh my head! I think a side effect to remembering most things so soon are headaches and a lot of emotions boiling up. Don't worry Zakura you're strong and you can handle anything. You have in the past, you are in the present and you will in the future. No one and nothing can stop you anymore. *stop at the entrance of school*
who would of have thought that a small storm would come this evening. Specially with the hot nice weather we had this day. I couldn't help myself but to be happy yet sad. It felt as this storm was speaking to me letting me know something that I should know, or is it just my imagination going wild once again. I felt like the storm was a part of me. A piece of so many unknown pieces of me. I don't even know what I'm saying or thinking. I think I'm reading too much of this beautiful, calm lightning storm. Wait what?? A lightning storm??? Just seen how the lightning spreads in the sky with its beautiful color, it just gives me this feeling in my chest. Is it a warm, happy, sad, empty, exited feeling. I can't tell which one is it. But I love it, I just love this feeling and this storm. Oh the feeling of the cold rain coming down, the flashes of the lightning, the noise of the thunder, and the feeling of the wind passing by. Al these elements make me feel whole or that there are still a lot of pieces missing. I have the time of the world to find them or should I say to find my self. Oh no!!! the storm!!! its clearing... I feel sad that its gone yet I feel recharged, it gave me energy somehow.... is it strange or normal?.... I could say something but I rather not. Alexa should be home soon and I should get ready to sleep. I feel like tomorrow is going to be a special kind of day. *smiles* Dreaming: Is this my old childhood school? mmmmm..... It is!! But why do I always dream of this place. Dream of the same stuff yet kind of different. But today I can tell is way different then the others. Oh a teacher! me: "Hello, I used to come here when I was a little girl. Today I just decided to come and see it again." Teacher- "yes I remember you, you came 5 years ago here to visit too." I remember that I came to visit around here but I'm certain that I DID NOT came here. But then again this is a dream. So I'll just go along with it I guess. me: "do you mind if I just look around?" Teacher- "Oh no I don't, go ahead you are free to look around and do as you pleased." me: "Thank you." Seems like not a lot has changed yet its different. Oh I remember this classroom. After this everything changed. This feeling what can I called it. I feel like a lot of battles, heart breaks, lives, a lot of things happened here. *tears coming down* oh great now why am I crying. But what did I just said right now?? what does that mean. I feel like I have travel here for a reason. What is that reason!! I think I should go with the flow of this dream. All these feelings that I feel is amazing. Like I can........... OMG!!!! *blush* wait why am I blushing??? I feel like I should know him, that he, that he is, that uuumm..... shoot what is wrong with me. Just turn around and keep walking away from him and keep looking around reminiscing long lost memories of my past lives. Past LIVES!!!!! *looking around nervously* Him: "hey, you finally came." me: *staring blankly* *shakes head* Him: "You don't remember do you?" Me: "No, but I have this feeling in my chest that says yes." Him: '' I have being coming here to see if I could meet with you." Me: "to meet me? Him: "Yes, I have travel through out time and space. To come help you regain what was yours or taken from you. I know you don't understand it yet. But soon you will. You came into a dream of mine and asked me to help your former self to regain a part of yourself. A part of yourself that you left with me long time ago." Me: " A part of myself? Came to you in a dream?" *looking confused* Him: " I know its confusing at the moment but soon enough it will make sense. The time that the world needs you will come when you at least expected. And you need to be prepared for it." Me: " ok, ok. How can I prepared myself. How can I gain and unlock my powers. After that fierce battle we had to protect the kingdom and to make sure nothing happened to the prince. We had to break all rules and use that forbidding spell to not die. Who would of have known that our enemy was that powerful and deceived me like that. I hate myself for hesitating like that. I shouldn't have let my feeling come to live. I should of have listened to you." Him: " You starting to remember. I wish I could of have known too. who would of have thought that he was the enemy. But I'm sure something happened to him to end up like that." Me: " I think I know what happened. That day that he was kidnap and about to be killed. I was there, I couldn't just watch and do nothing. I tried all I could and when I saw that he was about to die I jumped in and the blade went through me and him. I just had one look at him and felt a connection. I felt something and from there on we all changed. I unlocked all the powers at once and became what people described as a celestial being." Him: *hearing some type of bells* " Its time for me to go. I'll see you next dream to start the preparations." *kisses me gently* Me: *heart thumping* *smiles sadly* Him:*whispers* I closed my eyes and tries to hear what he says. But as always I cannot hear it. I feel like she's waking up or should I say that I'm waking up. Hope I can remember this dream and continued to dream about it. It is time I remember and unsealed all of my memories and powers. Remember its time! ITS TIME!!