I wasn't good to you, no wonder you don't want me back. Forget that we ever happened, met, or laughed. To this day though there's things I want to get off my chest, that time in my life was almost the best, If you would only talk to me, just give me the chance, but you've stayed true to your word, you said I would never hear back. Knowing what I know, you never needed anyone, you're a strong man on your own, maybe if i knew that then , i would've started to grow. We have gone our own ways, I survived those dark days, now i'm just visiting a hole, that piece that you have will hopefully find me when I get cold.
Not that anyone on here has me as a "friend" on the app just a warning, my snapchat was hacked last night by someone hacking my family member first, they asked for a favor, and the favor was if they could use my login information to see if something was wrong with their account, not so weird coming from family so i fucken gave them my info and went on facebook and to my horror i saw my family member's post about being hacked, so i quickly called her up and sure enough it was too late! They changed all my info, got into my email associated with that account... this is the definition of a MODERN DAY NIGHTMARE. I have countless memories i will never get back and God, not to mention the fkn nudes... be aware, be careful!
10:47pm Yeah okay, Today was a pretty good day I must say, on the verge of 28 I realized my right boob is smaller than the left. It's okay though because Christine the sales lady said they still look good.. Winning.
8:24 Current situation is watching 90 Day Fiance with the bong on the end table, I feel like it's too far away, like these are the times to have extra arms. Anyway, so 90 days is not enough time to be engaged to someone, like maybe from the same country because you guys are already use to the ways of your own land. I try to imagine what it would be like if I went on , haha, could you imagine? I wonder what nationality i'd be paired up with.. hopefully an English dude, I love me a British accent. That's how far I can imagine, considering my dating life here in America is ... non-existent. Recently my whole life seems to be stuck in hell, I can't even begin to explain how everything's so left, I guess the only answer is because i'm about 'level up'? Or am I reading too many Instagram quotes? I finally loaded the bong , can you tell? How are you guys doing tonight?
4:25 I missed you when I was gone, I miss you now that I'm back Between Vegas and a man. The buffet or the sex, the cards or the kiss. Those words came from your lips.
3:23 I don't know what i'm supposed to be doing or where i'm supposed to go, I've gone and lost my way , my map, my road..Thinking I may even lost my soul. Is this going down? or am I on my way up? never been so confused and lost, I feel like it's all fucked up. I don't know what happened, one day I just woke up, couldn't talk, couldn't trust couldn't feel, couldn't love.
8:57 Getting what I want is all I ask for, all i'm asking for is you. It's just so hard to communicate these thoughts and what I'm feeling for you It's almost like you don't want me to. Then why don't you say it? Just tell me you don't need it and i'll leave it. You alone, Me at home, waiting for your call. Baby we can have it all, I'll give it all to you, wanting for nothing you won't never need to call. Getting what I want is all i ask for and all i'm asking for is you. Asking for your touch attention and trust, having your heart is a must, this is love, better than lust, how do we adjust and settle the dust. At home tonight waiting for your call, it's your call. I never wanted there to be drama or to fall. But too late, it's our hearts last call.
11:55 PM I cant really blame you, I'm messed up myself, but the things you say to me make me wonder if that’s just a front or do I really make you miss me? Who else are you missing? What choice do I have if you were to end it ? After all, "no drama" I don’t even want to think about these things the way I do, I don’t want to feel powerless but you really do have some hold on me, because I've come to realize that I cant be having sex with someone without these emotions coming out , how could you not expect it? The emotions that is.. I don’t know if its wishful thinking, but on the other hand maybe you do care but I only know so much about you, to be honest im scared to find out more… like if you really have 2 wives, ha, exactly what am I doing but there's something about you,the same something I hope you find in me,, I feel like if you knew how I really felt you would be turned off or something, because its probably to soon for feelings like these so that’s why im letting it out here, the things I cannot tell you about how I feel or what I think, I forgot what it was like when you were just regular to me..