..All A Waste..

What do you have to do to be immortalized in someones permanent record? Do you think it matters whether we have been in someones presence 6 minutes or 6 Years? Everyone seems to be looking at the same clock but we are rarely in the same time zone. It doesn't seem like people genuinely take the time to get to know people anymore. we fill the silence with empty conversation and avoid the difficult conversation because we can't control the response. That's what Life seems to be about anymore; and who seems to have the most control. But big picture.. no one has control.. we only have each and every second we choose to keep going the way we want. and we also have the choice to change our mind at any second and give up and start down a new path. It's crazy to think that you have the choice to just say at any second I am going to be a completely new person and just move somewhere new. But does that have to entail a whole new personality or just making better decisions to live that peaceful life we want for ourselves. and I don't feel we should feel guilty for wanting a peaceful life. we shouldn't have to over exert ourselves to prove worthy,, it will seem that when we finally get the time to enjoy the life we attempted to build for our self we won't actually be able to enjoy it. we are so scared to take the time when we have it. but sometimes you have to take that leap of faith and jump in to the difficult parts of life, it doesn't mean the end, Because when you least expect it you can open the door to something so amazing you probably couldn't have pictured it. But as good as we seem to be picturing the bad stuff happening. Why can't we seem to picture the good stuff happening. it doesn't always have to be worse...