Funny things about my life...

  1. Oh, you can see me?

    Sometimes I wonder if I exist at all, or if I'm just the figment of a collective imagination. I see that all those around me are alive, but I just survive. I can't live life to the fullest, and won't be able to change that- sadly. I wonder often, if I'm missing something, that Happy Teen Gene that so many seem to flaunt, but alas- I don't possess. I try to smile, it gets me nowhere. I try to laugh, it gets me nowhere. I try to blend in, but I can't. And, it seems, I have personalites...
  2. I'm choosing denial

    I'm Choosing Denial If somebody asks: Did that really happen on saturday? I'm choosing denial. When someone says: You're family really forgot? I'm choosing denial. Should somebody say: It was that bad? I'm choosing denial. I'll choose denial like a loyal friend. I'll reject reality like the current trend. I'll run with denial, and I will never look back again.
  3. Yours

    Is it bad that I want to be held, but in arms that aren't yours? Is it bad that I want to be kissed, but by lips that aren't yours? Is it bad that I want to be gazed at lovingly, but by eyes that aren't yours? Is it horrible that I fear being loved, but only by the heart that is yours?
  4. The Odd Musings of a Z

    Love fully, live happily, and forgive unconditionally. Growing takes learning; learning takes understanding, understanding takes trying, and trying takes COMMITMENT. Wield your pen so that it may maim the confidence of the guy with the sword. Don't underestimate Forever until you are on your deathbed. Life goes on whether you're weak or strong, just try not to be dragged along. You have to get up and strut, or at least pretend not to crawl. Loves come and go; your knowledge...
  5. Jj

    It started with a glance We only met by chance I was but a young boy and she the new school toy a girl from a far state and me with none to hate she'd be my target, my focus and I the one she wished to get locusts five years this did we endure and then feelings changed from what they were before a friendship, a bond something that was time beyond orbitting round each other like planets think of one another with the odd regrets is fate playing a game most cruel or...
  6. The Verge of Tears

    That's where I stand right now. I need to rant. I need to vent. DO NOT correct me on anything, I need to say this. First, Obama. I am happpy that a black man has made it to the presidency. That said, I don't give a damn that he's biracial, that he's black, that he's white. He is a MAN. Only a man, a very lucky and prophetic man, but man none the less. People put him on a pedestal and either stare up at him in awe or aim and shoot until he falls. Leave him the hell alone. Allow him to...
  7. Method Writing

    I have often heard of actors whom "become" their current role as a way to better understand the character. I never would have thought that there was a such thing as a "Method Writer," but I think I am one. I realized this first when I started playing RPG- I felt like I was in the mind of my characters. I often had to remind myself that the members and their respective characters were not the same entities- and that I could not start fires with the mere thought of doing so, could have been...
  8. Give an inch, and a mile will grow

    show a little kid a pretty color and you've given her the rainbow show her a butterfly and she's seen a flitting fairy show her the moon she'll aim for the stars show her compassion and she'll know love show her a smile and she'll know joy show her the sun and she'll see the galaxy show her you care and she'll want for nothing
  9. Aaaahhhh, I want to run for the hills! But I can't...

    I don't know how it happened, but I'm blaming whomever it was that pestered (:p) me into joing my first RPG. Now I'm not only addicted to RPGs, but I m being stalked by Chrys. I cannot escape her for some odd reason:confused: She currently has three "embodiments": Chrystine Waters/Diane Katerina Krolita (Phoenix) Diane Chrystine Krolita (Vyle Comando) and, Chryssy Katera/ Chrystine Borden (Highlander Crwon of Thorns) I cannot get away! I want to charge up a hill and fall in a hole,...
  10. Telling ya'll not to read didn't work, so whatevs

    I was dumb enough to fall in love Slowly, silently With my lips seared tight To watch my affection grow and become something I didn't know Sure, I'm still me too damned stubborn not to be But I can see what I'm doing The subtle little things just for a hint of attention the little favors that I now see might misconstrue my intentions I'm helping someone else yet feeling pain myself But then again I've always been slighltly masochistic And never one for...
  11. Don't read this, just go past it please:):(

    Random thoughts they're like my friends the only entity on which I depend these thoughts take me everywhere free me from something yet giving me nothing maybe that's a lie they have handed me gifts like Alaska like Chrys my hopes my dreams my goals my beliefs all are the gifts of my random thoughts my secret plots things that develop for naught i know there will be those that have a problem with how I've written this well, boo and hoo it's my style not...
  12. That ususal, but not "normal" day goes on

    Okay, so the bus stops and I get off. At this point, I have missed my meeting...But...I am acrost the eight-laned street from the local library. Get where I'm going with this? I walk in and sit down, just to calm down a sec when this woma looks up at e, "You here for the computers too?" "Yes." "THeir off till one." That's what the paper taped to the PC screen behind her says as well, I just hadn't read it yet. I look at my cell phone, 1.15. Ok, it's tech stuff, not abnormal...
  13. One of these days I'll get the whole "normal day" thing down

    Okay, so my morning was unplanned, but not surprising to me. Except for the part where I was granted two hours on the computer if I spent an hour outside with the dog; I only had two hours when I learned this before i had to go somewhere. "Somewhere" meant catching the 24 bus so that I could reach the 23 bus and walk the rest of the way to school for a Sterering Committee meeting... About that...So, I'm waiting at the bus stop for the 24 (across the street from my house, and I don't...
  14. Not understanding is Like Kissing A Flame

    Okay, while the other little girls were imaging their weddings, and how they were going to meet a prince and fall in love and live in a castle with their thoudans and one ponies, I was trying to understand what the hell was wrong wth them? Was I the delusional one, or was it them? My mom says I never asked for a horse, never ever mentioned marrying a prince, and -to this day- refuse to tell how many kids I want. I don't want them, they don't care if you do, and I see no point in planning....
  15. Funny Little Thing, Life

    Okay, you know that movie with Kirsten Dunst and Orlando Bloom? Well this guy fat-finger dialed my Gram's phone, texting her this gobble-dee-gook. So she hands me the phone, and I txt him back wanting to know who he is. His name's brad. So, I ask who I am. Kelly. Nope. Verbatim: wrong name, wrong number, night brad. That was a week ago. He did it again last night, the same first message, but I actually decided to txt him back for the heck of it. i had to remind him that I'm not...
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