First Story

By aadeyan · Oct 6, 2022 · 669 · 3
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  1. what do you do when you realize you may actually be in love with your best friend? It's almost something that you have known for a while and you aren't really planning on ever telling them, but it’s just something that impedes you on the day to day. Like when you ask them questions about their passions, and they are almost all too willing to divulge you about their world. Their arms push up around their head and their body language mirrors yours, and all you can notice is how green their eyes look in the darkness of the room, lit up by only a desk lamp. You lean on the wall, a bit high because you took an edible right before you spoke to them, so you are hyper focused on the beautiful individual in front of you. Its not that its a strong sexual attraction that clouds your way of thinking. No, it is simply your appreciation of them, and the way they are able to hold your eye contact. The way they care for you so strongly, the way you two fall into a routine that only us lovers can relate to. Maybe it’s love love or maybe it is just love. Maybe I see them and what I am feeling is as simple and as real as 123. Who knows? I don’t. These are feelings that I do not feel pressured to act on, I would rather marvel at the being in front of me. I am not scared of ruining, I am simply just ok with being in love with my best friend.

    i wrote this while sitting next to them in the library btw lol
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  1. aadeyan
    i remember when I got nervius speaking to them a few days ago. I think they had just come out the shower and they looked so cute. I didn;t know quite what to think right then and there and I almost got flustered when I began telling them my thoughts about some pointless banter we had at that time. In fact, today I was talking to them and I could only take extreme notice of my body language, I would laugh and my hips would extend towards theirs, and maybe to an outisder, they would recognize it as a calling of attraction, but maybe to us, it was simply me showing my joy of them. I jump around a lot when recalling these stories of them, like when I came in today and they joked abut some of the jobs I applied for. or when they tenderly asked if I wanted to study with them. YES! Yes i did, although I was hoping to do it insode the apartment, rather than the library but being near you is the best aphrodisiac I could ever ask for. UGHHHH so concentrated looking at the computer. I will not bother you but I will write about you.

    And when you told me you felt like you could grow old with me! it made me almost wish for death that instant, just to imagine spending a whole lifetime with you. if marriage is between lifelong friends, let us just tie the knot now.

    but I do not want to burden you with my desires and i have already clarified that I am content with the deep longing in my chest that awaits for our next touch. I love you .

    ah, to be in love with your best friend.

    :)
    aadeyan, Oct 6, 2022
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  2. aadeyan
    these musings of mine do sound quite romantic and hardly platonic. but I wish to call our friendship a "romantic friendship". friends can romance one another, as I have towards them.
    aadeyan, Oct 6, 2022
  3. Seven Crowns
    Your casual voice is very good. It makes your writing pretty authentic. Not everyone can get that on paper (okay, computer screen) so easily. Good job!
    Seven Crowns, Oct 6, 2022
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