My first draft is terrible

And I'm okay with that.

Even though I'm only a little bit more than halfway finished, I think this first draft is looking rather ugly. But I know I am going to work on it. Edit, rewrite, rethink. Characters will have their personalities warped before my eyes. Settings will transition from boring and dead to alive. Things will be stripped away, and others added.

It takes time to make something good when you yourself is not as good as the product you wish to make. Or am I striving for an impossible task? I am after all writing in English, which is not my native language.

This is going to be a series, so the first book will in a way define the rest. That is why I must let it take its time. Get it right from the start.

I'm also in love with my work, it may be my greatest achievement, which might be big for me, but small for others. It does not matter, what matters is that I have a goal. Even though I said before that it is looking ugly, I can also see the beauty of it. I can envision the world, the architecture, the landscapes, the planets, the people, their clothing, all the extravagant beauty and all the ugly. For without the ugly, one may not be able to appreciate the beauty. They go hand in hand.

Anyone else in love with their work? Or do you keep a callous distance to your marketable product?