R.I.P. Tino

By soujiroseta · Apr 24, 2008 · 600 · 3
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  1. okay firstly my real name is tino and he is dead, metaphorically. anyway this past few weeks i have felt my personality change alot. i used to be this reserved guy who enjoyed life and just went about his business but now i cant see anything positive about this world. think of me as an wodden scaffold that has been weakened by the rain of lies and the rot of distrust. people keep piling up on top of me until about a week ago i snapped...and went nuclear. all of a sudden ive become this pessimistic evil grin dude. i cannot see the benefit in any situation anymore. my optimism was crushed by all the bad things that keep happening to me.

    recently a close friend of mine died of cancer and that was unbearably painful, my personal life is a shambles, my landlord has issued me an eviction notice that i should get out because i questioned the water bill and to make it worse i am not writing. i am so bemused by the situation that sometimes i just laugh at myself and really lose it. all sanity goes flying out the window and i become paranoid. i dont know maybe it's just rotten luck...a small part of me wants to believe that this is all going to be over soon but the large part of me says f**k it nothing's going change. and the worst thing is i feel like i deserve it.

    ive discovered a side of me which i have never known and it kinda feels like i died:(
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  1. Bick
    :( Oh! Poor lovely ./hugs

    I'm really really sorry, :( I do hope things get better. You're such a lovely person.

    ./sends you tons of hugs
    Bick, Apr 24, 2008
  2. Sugar N. Spice
    That must have been very painful for you. *hugs*

    I wish I could do something to actually make you feel better. I hope this helps!
    Sugar N. Spice, Apr 24, 2008
  3. Torana
    Soujiroseta. I begin by saying how sorry I am for the loss of your friend. It is never easy to deal with loss. I pray you find your way through the grief safely.

    Secondly, I too have been through this situation. Finding a side of oneself that one never knew existed. You haven't died, you have just come to a cross road in life and the path before you has become difficult and hard to tread upon.

    I know how hard it can be to hold your chin up and just keep stuggling on when it feels like every step you take, someone or something is there, smacking you down and forcing you a thousand steps backwards. But you have to keep on going. No matter what, you have to try.

    It is not going to be easy, but life never is and this is going to help shape you into a much stronger and more inspiring person.

    Well ALL get to a point in life where we just say "F**K the world, F**K you all! I give up I can't take it anymore!" But then with support from others and the strength we ALL have in our own hearts, we are able to struggle through rough patches in our lives and it does get that slight bit easier.

    I am so sorry that at the moment things are so hard for you. But it will pass and you will wear a smile upon your face again and life will become so much a better place. Just give it time and don't ever be afraid to reach out for help, or just reach out to someone to offload onto.

    Here in WF.org you have a lot of support and we are all here to help. If you ever need to talk, we are all here for you. Simply send a pm and you will have all the help you need.

    The biggest and warmest hugs are sent your way.

    Torana
    Torana, Apr 25, 2008
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