Engraving a pain of misiry...

[Here I sit, alone wondering, thinking, analyzing my life to a part where I don't even have words to explain the pain and suffering my soul, body and mind is undergoing... I have no hope what so ever left, for anything in life nothing can compel the fear of nothingness as it completely darkened my vision of impure belief;

Time continue on, I see the dead as if I roamed with it, way before it even came to light, It soothes the mind knowing that leaving will be the up-most painful effect one can under go, its time now for the rest to feel the suffering pain I had for so long.]

" I can see and feel the things around me, I smell the ocean, I feel the sand on my feet, wind blowing, waves breaking, birds in the sky and people mingling. " What a relaxing place to be found upon, although for me I never really got to a part where I found it to be an escape from this void we live in. Now here on the edge I feel relaxed as if it were meant to be, wind slowly blowing in my hair, I can still taste the salt but here there is nothing els but me the wind, a far blue horizon and one crow circling just above my head, " He knows, he can smell dead and will be first on the scene. " makes my wonder how many would came if they knew...

29 December 2004 the world of one soul got ripped to pieces, not knowing what to think or say, be sad not even to think happy, what now? What NOW!?, confused by an overwhelming pain making all emotions and feelings seem numb and away for the peace inside, has been over turned and given to the unholy for questions none could answer, the poor soul's mind no sympathy, still only human this was by far the most horrifying experience. (to be continued)