Feel like I have been given a life death sentence

By lessa · May 15, 2008 · 592 · 5
  1. My doctor has told me the only thing he can suggest is back surgery.
    He is sending me to a surgeon in the hopefully near future to discuss my options.
    I can hardly move some days and that is bad enough, But surgery could make it so I can't move permanently.
    I have heard so many horror stories, that I am actually terrified at the thought.
    The computer is great but I still want to have a life outside of here.
    Nothing large just able to sit in the van long enough to see my grandchildren and their parents. Be able to give them hugs without hurting too much and also be able to feel the hugs.
    Don and the boys have put up with my problems for as long as I have known them and they still love me
    But will that continue when I can't do the things I can now?
    Probably shouldn't bring this here but I always find that you cheer me up and give me a different perspective.
    I guess that is what I need right now.
    Everytime I am alone I cry and that is not a good thing.

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  1. Hulk
    Aww.....I'm very sorry to hear this, lessa :)()....hope everything turns out fine soon though :)
    Hulk, May 15, 2008
  2. Torana
    lessa this blog brought a tears to my eyes. You are such a truly amazing woman and have done so much for many of us here already in your time here, and done so much for your beautiful and amazing family. I wish you didn't have to go through something as hard as this.

    But so you know, my dear friend, no matter what, your family will always be there for you and so will we, all of your friends will. Your family WON'T turn their backs on you EVER! They love you with an undying passion lessa and I know for certain that they always will.

    You can still give them love, support, amazing memories, time, devotion, and most of all, a good friend, lover, mother and a grandmother. Don't sell yourself short lessa. You are one of the toughest and most amazingly friendly and supportive people I have ever met. You will always have your family right there beside you all the way, and your friends as well, so long as you don't shut them all out. And your family will still stand there even when you do shut them out and so will your good friends as well.

    I really am sorry and hope that everything turns out for the better.

    All my love and warmest thoughts are sent your way lessa.

    Torana
    Torana, May 16, 2008
  3. Domoviye
    Mom you felt the same way when you had surgery on your arms. Its scary. I'm worried about you to. But it will be ok. And no matter what happens, Dad, Ray, and I will always be there for you.
    If I have to drag Lisa to Canada so I can look after you I will. You will never be hated, left alone, or hurt by any of us.
    Believe that.
    Domoviye, May 16, 2008
  4. Rumpole40k
    I'll be praying for you Lessa.
    Rumpole40k, May 16, 2008
  5. Charisma
    Have no fear, lessa. With a family like yours, and a loving heart which resides in you, I wouldn't find worry an emotion to occur.
    Charisma, May 17, 2008
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