Free Write

If thinking what is wrong could actually be held against someone I would be ruined.
My only hope is that everyone else is thinking the same thing.
I got so angry at him.
I was filled with rage every time I saw her name on the computer screen.
He claims that he never thinks about her.
"Not Ever!"- exasperated frustration is so evident in the sound of his voice.
Maybe I was so angry thinking how I would feel if my past crept up on me on a regular basis.
Giving my brain a daily reminder that HE still exists.
How would I feel.
Conflicted, pained, tempted, at a loss.
Maybe I was projecting.
Projecting to the point I wept until I felt ill.