Hearing from an old high school friend

By paperbackwriter · Sep 18, 2018 · 479 · 1
  1. Hadnt heard from him in over 20 years. Got the email.
    This time however I was more aware of how I communicated with him. Look at how I am so afraid of what he thinks of me. Afraid to have too strong an opinion. How I am intimidated by his intellect. How I modify my jokes as he likes to have the role of smart ass.
    He let me write. Little or nothing from him. Just questions. I felt like I was just an amusement to him. He wasn't taking me seriously. But did he ever? I know he never admired my opinion on things. Like a good journalist he is more interested in the facts, not my feelings. My brother has cancer. Yes that interested him. More facts please? I felt like I was taking up his precious time. In this day and age, we cant concentrate for long. The 4 second grab? The pointed tweet? We don't like elaboration.
    Look how I put this guy and others on pedestals. pedestals they didn't really deserve. I have some brains. Just I didn't think I did. Now I realise I needed to work harder, focus harder, study harder, with always the belief that I was smart enough. I needed to enter debate and learn to roll with the punches. Modify my view as I went along. Evolve into a more evolved person. Its Ok to have a strong opinion as long as you don't take yourself too seriously.
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  1. Sam 69
    I struggle with this kind of situation. While we all want to demonstrate that we have developed as people and somehow improved ourselves over the years there is still the suspicion that others see us exactly as they always did.

    I am part of a large group of college friends that have started to meet up again after thirty years of having families and careers. Sometimes it feels like we all position ourselves relative to each other exactly as we did all those years ago. It's obvious who the Alpha Male and the Alpha Female of the group are, and the years have not diminished their power. We go where they wish and our meetings are arranged around their diaries. I like to think that I am enough of a developed person to stand outside the hierarchy, but just as likely I am down there with the Omega Males and it is thoughts like this that give us our optimism and self respect.
    Sam 69, Sep 20, 2018
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