In February there is everything to hope for and nothing to regret.

Look, guys, I can use random internet quotes.

This is gonna more reflective rambling and goal setting. Nothing special, just something I`m writing down in my little space here. So some might recall my post from the first of January, and yeah January wasn`t as productive as I had been thinking but that may have been unrealistic thinking. My mind tends to gloss over baby steps. However, it did involve time spent on reflection and basic goal setting. Coming out of school (both high school and my short-lived college run) i`m stepping into a new phase of my life here and hope to slowly work towards some goals of that in February. I`m planning something for the summer, and I have decided to do something I had been really thinking about for a long time. I had considered skipping college or doing this before college but I felt kinda steered into the college right out of high school route which kinda crashed and burned. I`m going back to my original plan and gonna start the process of applying for Americorps which is a government set up volunteering program. It`s described as a domestic peace corps. It`s something i`ve always looked really hard at, and I feel like it`s a chance to get out there have new experiences all that early 20`s stuff but also actually doing something. In college I felt like I wasn`t actually doing anything like it wasn`t amounting to anything especially with me not having a plan, if winds blow right and I have resources in the future I might go back if I find a plan but for now I feel like this something where I`m working towards helping people helping a community is better for me atm. There`s also an education award at the end, and obviously, it`s not the only reason i`m doing it as I see this as more then that but as i`m not sure yet what my situatoin is with (even the small amount) of student loans I had that could help as well. I`ll post more in detail on all of that later possibly, of course, this isn`t guaranteed. Applying doesn`t mean I`ll be selected, and there`s also waiting lists so I`m looking at other things as well but that`s my main priority goal.

Of course applying for Americorps is a process and it`ll be a bit, and my other plans are the summer so, in addition to working towards those goals, I`ve been trying to figure out what I want to do in this stretch of my life where I`m kinda waiting for things to be in motion. I want to get back into stuff in the community and things I used to be a part before I fell away due to various reasons. I`ll still be applying for jobs as in normal jobs, but in the meantime, i`ve been considering see what I could get with freelancing on the side. Of course, freelancing writing is a part of that and probably what I`ll talk about most on this blog past this post as its a writing forum. However, that`s also referring to my photography and videography in various ways. My photography teacher of sorts and someone whos been my mentor in many ways for a good few years and has a lot of connections different places got me the opportunity to do some work with the local symphony. Taking some video of speakers at a fundraising event to put on their website, some people playing to put on youtube, and a quick little video ad of sorts which I think is meant for social media. All in one day and it was nice, a days work, good experience, and working with some really great and talented people. Put some cash in my pocket, not much but the experience alone is good enough and it`s good for a resume or to show past work. It`s exciting thinking of doing that also intamediting figuring out where to start climbing but I do have resources. On the writing front theres siste has a few good ones.

As for my fictoin, I feel bad that got knocked to the way by stress, depressoin, and other thigs. Try to get that back, probabbly brush dust off a few old things I have in my docs,just to get back in the saddle. First how many words are practice, so better get those words down.

I`ll try and update this even if I do cut it back to just writing stuff. Here I go one step at a time.