It's so far away, this...'happily ever after'.

By Un-substantial · Apr 22, 2010 · 581 · 2
  1. today i crashed. i broke down. i cried. and cried. and cried.

    i yelled at my mom. i hurt her.

    she hurt me.

    i found out my picture perfect family isn't so perfect.

    it feels like we are falling apart. there is so much tension. so much pressure.

    i'm cracking. i'm dying. i'm failing.

    i no longer can do anything right. i'm not good enough for anyone. i don't live up to people's expectations.

    i don't even live up to my own.

    i'm a pathetic person. i've fallen so far. i'm in so deep.

    i'm drowning.

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  1. becca
    *sigh* It's not as bad as it might seem. I've hit those lows where you think you are failing yourself and everyone else.

    In truth nothing is ever perfect. There is always good with the bad, and bad with the good.

    When I get discouraged with life and all it consists of, I remember that life comes in fazes or chapters. What I don't like will end eventually, and something else will start. Sometimes things are great, and sometimes they just suck.
    becca, Apr 22, 2010
  2. Writing to Escape
    I’ve definitely been there; those haunting feelings and thoughts are quite familiar.
    As hard as it is, it does get better. (Yes, that’s a cliché, and an annoying one at that. But there’s still some truth in it.)
    I highly doubt you are, “a pathetic person,” you just feel like one. Everyone breaks down sooner or later. Hell, I break down once a week. There’s nothing wrong with that.
    Now you’ve just gotta look to pick yourself back up.
    The water will recede. Until it does, use your inner strength to stay afloat.
    The best of luck, and if you ever need someone to listen, I’m around.
    Writing to Escape, Apr 22, 2010
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