Observations: Past, Current & Future

I dunno. Maybe that character is freakin' crazy. But you can understand why


I have no intention
of giving darkness
and vomit
the benefit
of the doubt.

I was hot & sticky in the sun all day yesterday. Today is my grandson's birthday party & all I want to do is stay home & clean house & drink coffee w/Kahlua.

I feel awful & guilty that I feel that way.

Generics

I use generics as much as possible because they are cheaper. But, they don't always work as well or taste as good. Paper towels are awful. Peanut butter is better. I think because Jif and Peter Pan add so much sugar to please the consumer. I don't need all that sugar. I like PB the way it is.

America is a spoiled and pampered nation!

What else should I do?

Other than what I'm doing?
Why do I feel like I have to defend myself?
Because someone's always questioning it
but there's always someone defending me.
Why is that even necessary?
I guess I could just watch old westerns all day
and listen to Bob Seger.

Clint Eastwood movies

In "High Plains Drifter"
the small guy brings Clint
a cigar after hot sex in the barn.
For the rest of the movie
Clint carries a million cigars
in the front pocket of his shirt.

How hard is it to admit you're still in love with someone who has hurt the hell out of you?

Hard as hell. Hard as hell.

But I suppose it has to be done.

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Now, what's next?

And I get drunk for this shit?

Just make it go away. That's all I ask. Make it go away.

I'm sick.

Shenanigans

I see all the shenanigans.
I say go for it, buddy.
The consequences are all yours.

The bad thing about not really caring
is when
you don't raise hell about something
the way THEY would
folks think you're stupid or blind.

I have better things to do,
other stuff to worry about.
More interesting, of greater importance, maybe.
I just don't care.
And those are the consequences.

It's just pure logic to me.
If someone cares about you
and has respect for your feelings
they won't do things to hurt you.
And if they don't -
well, how can they expect
all that in return?

Confused but Unafraid

I have to go to work now.
Just want you to know
why I'm not here.
I'm not afraid.
I'll check in!

Off work today & very happy. Now if the internet will quit making me feel like I'm at my own funeral I'll be super-happy!

Whoa! I mixed a drink. Whipped Vodka, Kahlua & Milk and it was strong. But it sure feels good. Pardon my French for awhile.

I wonder

I wonder if I had the ability
(or the desire)
to be a robot
and talk non-stop
24/7
if everyone would
love me more?

I've never been given
the chance.
Always covered up.

I think it's completely normal to avoid people and places that cause you pain. I'm not sure, and don't understand, why anyone would question that.

I don't need your pity. I've always endured, no matter what. But I can tell you this. I feel pity for those who don't understand history repeats itself ... over and over again.

If you're in trouble, dude, you just are. No ifs ands or buts about it.