Secrets (Don't read if easily offended)

Hi Guys - Skylar here,

I don't know if anyone is reading these posts - if you are, great and thanks. If no-one is reading this at least it is giving me something to do while i'm bed-ridden.

As i'm typing this, I'm watching a movie called 'Why did I get married?'. In a nutshell, it's about four sets of married couples who each year go on a vacation together. It's about relationships falling apart, being in love etc etc. Good movie. This is the reason I named this post 'Secrets'. There's this scene in the movie where everyone is around the dining table and individual secrets come out. An affair, a woman who got her tubes tied without telling her husband, a man wanting a divorce, a couple where each party is sleeping with other people. It got me thinking, does every couple have secrets? And if so, are these secrets so terrible, that the relationship is damaged beyond repair? Do we all mess up? I mean, c'mon, no relationship is perfect.

I'm 24 years old. I met my fiance Mr.D when I was 18. Mr.D was the guy I lost my virginity to. Sure, I had fooled around with guys (I even slept with a woman) but he was my 'first'. We've been together ever since.

We have our ups and downs. Six years on, more downs than up, but he is my best friend. My secret? I don't know if this is the guy I wanna spend the rest of my life with. A part of me wants to go and sleep with the first guy I see just to get a different experience. Wrong maybe, but at least I'm honest. Don't get me wrong, I love Mr.D, I adore him even, but samey crap gets old sometimes.

My other secret? I enjoy watching porn sometimes - but that's for another time.

Everyone has a secret - what's yours?

Peace and love - Skylar xx