Shots till we Drop!!!

I would like to take this time and apologize in advance for the drunkish rambling you are about to read!



What In The Absolute Hell Have I Been Doing!?!
What do I need to do?
What can I do to make everyone happy?
When can I been self-centered and work on my own damn problems
When will I get my big chance?
When will the whiskey stop going down like water?


yeah I know, I sound like a cry baby right now. its cool. I just need to feel like I let off steam. work has been slammed with the "hurry up and wait" scheme going on. just nothing is really turning the way it should. and you know what really gets to me? the fact that you can do everything right and it still does not help with shit!!!! it means nothing!!! why are we all trying to save and have our lives set??? and by lives I mean when we are 65 years old!!!! I want to have fun now! I want to dream now!! I have watched my life go from glam to bland in over the last year. im not dumb, I know what happened. but shit bucket!!!!! I tried planning ahead has much as possible, and I truly thought I was going to be the one to do it.... turns out, aint nothing but chump!!

its been real, but im signing off here. im done dream chasing, im done believing ill have a chance. im done being anything other than a 40 hour MF!!!!!!

peace and love, to anyone else.