Starting a Hero`s Journey when you aren`t feeling very Heroic.

Failing might just mean you`r trying to climb instead of swim.

It`s 1:20 as I type this. These past two days off have included a lot of procrastination. I did finish my first play-through of space Skyri...err Outer Worlds. So hopefully that won`t be distracting me for a while. Mabbbye the additive part of the game is the freedom it gives you which can lead to very unexpected things.


Have been making little steps of progress. If I can get key things done today that`ll be enough.



I don`t think I need to explain what the Hero`s Journey is to a writers forum. I just love puppets.




Great advice in here. Especially in the brain dumping and starting small or end badly.

Ok so lets brain dump some goals and plans I wish to achieve at some point.


Find a better suited job, go back to college, give back to community, become more organised, counseling, start writing on Medium, start doing Goodread reviews, read more, start a podcast. do more for the people in my life, get in shape, write books, write short stories, write poetry, do spoken word, learn to fence, learn keyboard, get back to playing harmonica, meal prep, set up a server for my extra files, implant more stargies in my life, build confidence, mediate, study Buddhism, learn more, travel, adventure, be more social, get into book selling, open a bookstore, honor my fathers name, honor my great grandfathers name, learn slight of hand, do stand up comedy, stop making excuses, declutter, deep clean and change my room, move out, manage my money better, invest, do more with my photography, make videos,have more traditions, feel less numb, enjoy life more, go to dragoncon, go to steal city comic con, vist the boxing hall of fame (my father`s in a photo there, hes not the main subject but he`s there) help people, make people happy, do something with Americorps, don`t be a failure,

That`s enough for now. On the podcast thing I had a idea for one a while back called Loremaster where I talk about broad topics in the lens and scopes of history, philosophy, impacts, and etc. Realized that`s all very lofty and i`m a college drop out not really qualified. That`s when the name Under-qualified Overthinking came to me. Scale back the loftiness a tad, be me talking about various topics split into segments. Some current events, thoughts, musings, stream lined rambling on broad topics, etc. Probably never come to pass but hey, it`s got a name.

On book`s I have a list of ideas Detective Shade which while featuring a coyote shiftier detective is more taking place in the aftermath of a urban fantasy thriller. Him dealing with PTSD, and his past while working in missing persons paired with a run away punk rock native american teen forced to live with his distant father who recognizes him as the Coyote of Indigenous folk lore come to help him. A focus more on internal conflict and identity and how much of it defines you and how much of it you define. There`s also a sword and sorcery adventure story Our Heros of Heart and Stone, Agent Royaldale is a urban fantasy series with The Order of The Dragon surviving into modern day as a Illuminati type force starring a half dragon fbi agent. A scfi book kinda...ok so The Hunchback of Notre Dame was written to showcase the cathedral over the actual story. Hugo wanted to stop it from being destroyed. The story here is more of a excuse for me to take the current space treaty's and plans we have in place and constructing a setting around based on as much of a realistic progression of those as I can. The name being Galtaic Affairs.

There`s more where that came from. Not to mention shorts, none of this written I just....keep it in my head. I`ll vist them sometimes just sit there and stim going through the plot and the characters tweaking things as it moves. Seeing how things play out, what works, what works. Still need to actually put them on paper...or I could just keep them all to myself until I go to my grave...

Getting ahead of myself. A lot.


Start small or end badly.

Right now need to focus on setting routines and habits, at home and at work. With the room thing in the background. While doing the room put books you don`t need/want (this`ll be hard) into a box and figure out what to do with them from there. Take the unread books you`r keeping and orgnise them into a to be read list.



In a bigger picture sense, keep going at work building a basic routine and traditions, add new things as you feel comfortable. Why is this now in the third person? Keep an eye on the Americorps site for when applicantoins for FCC summer part opens up. If I don`t get accepted around August try for the local Americorps Vista positions. Peer support or the environmental l contravention stewardship. If I get deneyed from all of those go back to school, if I get accepted somewhere go to school after....you`ll have a nice education award to spend.


It`s allmost three though lets focus on today. I should call work soon and check my schedule, there`s no way i`m off tomorrow but hey. Keep forgetting the trash, so need to get that out, platonic life partners been getting overwhelmed bought her a gift gotta take that up after her work, try and be more open with her, start some basic sorting and laundry, do some basic planning from my computer. Figuring out the money situation...thats pressing. Could`ve should`ve started doing some of this allready today but can`t focus on that just need to get it done.

Upcoming traditions, try and get Monday after Thanksgiving off though it`s cutting it close. Tuesday doesn`t matter I can work go to the church dinner after work. Only real tradiatoin we`ve had third year. Thanksgiving if I work which I most likely will do the buffet at the hotel after work. I do not care about black Friday. i do hope I get out early enough to partake in Small Business Saturday though. Cyber Monday is of course online but having it off is because it`s the first day of hunting...I don`t hunt but schools are off and Life Partners little sisters will be off and there father hunts. So she`ll probably be left taking care of them, which I like to help out with. That`s not to mention her work schedule. Movies are a big thing over Thanksgiving right? We`ve never celebrated holidays in my house. Could take them to a movie that`d be nice. IDk whats even out.


I should get off of here and call work