The Egoic Mind

By paperbackwriter · Dec 14, 2018 · ·
  1. I'm writing this entry to remind myself to keep my distance from it. Because it is so easy to get sucked into the vortex. Like I did on Twitter the other day. Losing all sense of perspective, becoming preoccupied with protecting, massaging and boosting "little me" as Tolle describes it.Swallowing you up. This is poor little me under siege! Believing my ego is me. My identity is my ego. How sad. But the good news is, that if I am able to shift my consciousness away from the egoic mind and towards a non-reactive, composed, "true" self, I can be come much happier. Easier said than done.
    This why people meditate. This why Christians choose contemplative prayer. because we aim to shift consciousness away from thinking and towards stillness. Stillness is the key. The real me. Do I really believe this ? is it all a crock of baloney? Well, when you get to my stage, you gotta believe in something. And this seems mighty appealing. The cynical me might say "you gonna fall for this new age voodoo magic?" Well I been listening to that voice too long. he gets too much say. Time for him to shut up. Otherwise Im set for another stagnant year. Afraid to venture forth on to a new frontier.
    yeah but getting back to hardcore meditators. I am just trying to imagine how still their mind must be. How non-reactive they are to difficult situations. How they can keep their emotions gently in check. How free they are of others opinions and insults. that is enviable. An enviable state to be in.
    I get torn though. because the aim of Christianity is not to transcend our current suffering. The aim not to be happy now in this life. Our aim is union with Christ. take up our cross and follow Him.Whatever that might involve. And he might take us to places we'd rather not go. He doesn't want us to walk around like Zen masters. He wants us to be real down to earth and compassionate. Id better stop. Im getting carried away again.
    Anyway, reminder, keep my distance from the egoic mind. Be mindful of triggers and traps that might suck me back into the vortex. Avoid reaction to anything.

Comments

  1. Malisky
    "Wholeness is not achieved by cutting off a portion of one's being, but by integration of the contraries." - Carl Jung
  2. paperbackwriter
    Im not actually cutting it off. Im minimising it.
  3. paperbackwriter
    And I think Jung would agree with Tolle. We don't base our identity on any one part of us.
  4. Magus
    I wonder what truly happens when those darker aspects of ourselves take over. Do we continue to be conscious? How can we be so many different things all at once, believing in one and despising the other? Are we just observers witnessing a war between these identities that live inside us?

    It makes me smile thinking about all these different factions set up in different regions of the brain.
    The Visual cortex guys just like to look at pretty stuff, but they constantly get emails telling them to look here and there, eventually they mount the "Closed sign" on the door after a long day and we drift off to sleep.

    That Reptilian faction in the deep regions just want us to eat and have sex, they pester everyone in the metropolis daily with their degeneracy, they are the gangs of the city.

    I assume the pre frontal cortex is the government, Big Brother trying to wrestle control of all these factions for a common goal.

    And all the other parts are the beating heart of the city, industry and services that keep it all going. Poor bastards responsible for defecating, all they want is clean subway tunnels, but we keep messing it all up!
  5. paperbackwriter
    I have regular board meetings in my mind with various selves taking turns as Chair. Vengeful, spiteful, easily offended, grudge keeping, maniacal self has been dominating meetings of late. He has lost the chair and will never have access to it again, as voted unanimously by other members.
      flawed personality and Magus like this.
  6. Magus
    What if he buys a chair of his own.....DUN DUN DUN..... Evil Doppelganger!
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