I'm writing this entry to remind myself to keep my distance from it. Because it is so easy to get sucked into the vortex. Like I did on Twitter the other day. Losing all sense of perspective, becoming preoccupied with protecting, massaging and boosting "little me" as Tolle describes it.Swallowing you up. This is poor little me under siege! Believing my ego is me. My identity is my ego. How sad. But the good news is, that if I am able to shift my consciousness away from the egoic mind and towards a non-reactive, composed, "true" self, I can be come much happier. Easier said than done.
This why people meditate. This why Christians choose contemplative prayer. because we aim to shift consciousness away from thinking and towards stillness. Stillness is the key. The real me. Do I really believe this ? is it all a crock of baloney? Well, when you get to my stage, you gotta believe in something. And this seems mighty appealing. The cynical me might say "you gonna fall for this new age voodoo magic?" Well I been listening to that voice too long. he gets too much say. Time for him to shut up. Otherwise Im set for another stagnant year. Afraid to venture forth on to a new frontier.
yeah but getting back to hardcore meditators. I am just trying to imagine how still their mind must be. How non-reactive they are to difficult situations. How they can keep their emotions gently in check. How free they are of others opinions and insults. that is enviable. An enviable state to be in.
I get torn though. because the aim of Christianity is not to transcend our current suffering. The aim not to be happy now in this life. Our aim is union with Christ. take up our cross and follow Him.Whatever that might involve. And he might take us to places we'd rather not go. He doesn't want us to walk around like Zen masters. He wants us to be real down to earth and compassionate. Id better stop. Im getting carried away again.
Anyway, reminder, keep my distance from the egoic mind. Be mindful of triggers and traps that might suck me back into the vortex. Avoid reaction to anything.
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