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There are times when I do everything right, and there times when I don't. And it's funny, I never know if I am good Chim or not so good Chim. It really depends upon your point of view.

Recently I have been MIA. Those of you who know me, know that I have had a lot of big life stuff going on. Trying to balance it all has proven arduous. I keep thinking that I can please myself and everybody else, even though I know it's just not possible, and yet I continue to believe the lie.

I traded my identity for that of a greater expectation. Stayed home, left the computer for only bill paying and such, stopped cursing, quit smoking, didn't go out for drinks, and dressed more "mature". I was MISERABLE.

In doing everything that I thought was "responsible" I lost myself. Upon returning home from some alone time, I realized that I haven't written anything in over six months. Nothing, not even a private thought.

So, I truly believe I am at my worst when I am not true to myself. A mistake I am sure not to be making anytime soon.

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Chimmy that's great that you aren't going to try to please everyone from now on. Most people say that life is short, but in actuality it's long, particularly so if you're unhappy. Chimmy, be yourself and have fun.

Shadow Dragon, Jul 26, 2009
It's good to have you back. Good Chim? Bad Chim? I think we are all just glad the forums once again is populated by the Chim.

Rumpole40k, Jul 26, 2009
You give up too many pieces of yourself, you look back in shock to find that nothing is left. Been there.

In the end, there is only one person you need to please.

Cogito, Jul 26, 2009

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