To Stand In A Room And Not Be Seen.

Nice blog entry Augustine. It shows you are a sensitive soul and can reflect on your life with wisdom. My concern would be that vulnerability of yours. You have to learn how to protect yourself in the big bad world. You might need to rehearse a modified version of yourself, take on a role that is more confident and assertive. You don't have to take BS from others (including me )
I love that quote of yours by the way. At the moment I don't care if anyone doesn't notice me IRL. As long as my partner and dog acknowledge my existence I'll be happy.
If I were alone now, no dog or partner, I think I would be very insecure. And desperately trying to fill that gap by finding friends,. We all need at least one person to reaffirm our existence,, our presence. Validate us. I hope you find someone Augustine but be careful you don't get treated badly please.

"I just find it difficult to find someone who cares for me on the same level as I care for them."
I can totally relate to this. I've felt this with a good number of friendships in the past; those friendships are over, though, probably for this reason. In truth, it might not have actually been that I cared for them more than they cared for me. People don't always show how much they care in the same ways you do and that can make it hard to realize the extent of their feelings. It took me a while to realize this, and I think I let it get in the way of my friendships. I expected more from them or doubted that they cared for me at all and I let that eat me up inside. Then, I'd pull away or say something alienating and it would be over between us.

I can also relate to the quote you put at the start of this post. That's always been me at school, extracurricular activities, or social gatherings.

Thanks for sharing.