What am I doing?

By Montego Bay · Jan 9, 2016 · ·
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  1. My head feels like it's on fire right now. I've been working on this novel since March, it's mere pages away from being finished. I am an accomplished student, I write very well, I've written since I was nine years old, I've had access to an almost unending library of wonderful books, and yet - and yet. It remains so juvenile. I write, I love it; I look back and I hate it. It's like an uncooked egg. My characters are capable of great things; they are doing great things, discovering themselves, making changes in their world, and they are fresh, they are vibrant, they are alive. I can see this world so clearly that I can nearly taste the air. But when I look back on my writing it just looks so awful and juvenile, like some twelve year old wrote it. I'm 17 right now. What am I doing? Is it really as bad as I think it is? I just want my children, my characters, to succeed. I want everyone to be enthralled in their journey. I don't want success or fame, I just want to be able to tell a good story. I don't know if I can even keep writing right now.
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  1. Lifeline
    *hug*
    Everyone needs to to rant now and then. Would it help if you started on a different project for a while and looked later with fresh eyes? That's what happened to me time and time again. Maybe it helps you too..
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  2. Montego Bay
    I'm so close to finishing, I've restricted myself from anything else until I'm done. Otherwise I fear I'll get too involved in another project and not want to go back to what I'm working on now (Banana Boat Sunday)
  3. Corbyn
    Everyone and I do mean everyone goes through this as a writer. The good news is, your ahead of the game. Why? Because you saidit, "I just want to be able to tell a good story." It may not feel like it, but that's the key. Not money, not fame... but your drive to sit down in the chair day after day and write. It may take you from the time your nine....to twenty nine, but if you sit in the chair and do the work your writing will grow. If it feels juvenile, get a few beta readers to look at it, or join a critique group. Fresh eyes do wonders for writer's doubt.... and we all doubt our skills. Or what we've written. Even James Patterson or Stephen King. It's part of the process. But you've gotta shove that doubt deep down. Finish the first draft, then use your doubt when you edit and revise. That's when your writing really grows up. Hope this helps.
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  4. Raven484
    What makes you not like what you have written? Is it your dialog or just overall story?
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