When I Was Paralyzed A Poem

So while browsing some of my written work I came across this poem... I think. Please note that I am not a poet. Not even sure if you could call this a poem. One day I just started typing and... well this came out. Oh and it hasn't been edited much so yeah. Thought I share though.

When I was younger we played down by the creek.
When I was younger you were not like the other girls
When I was younger we would splash and play the entire day
When I was younger I noticed why you weren't like the other girls.
When I was younger I couldn't truly appreciate your beauty
When I was younger I knew we would last an eternity
When I was younger you became my first lover
When I was younger the world was in our hands.

When I was paralyzed I thought the world would end.
When I was paralyzed, I knew the good days were gone.
When I was paralyzed I knew I could no longer go down to the creek with you
When I was paralyzed I knew I could no longer make love to you
When I was paralyzed I knew I would have to walk again.

When I walked again I was leaving behind a bit of myself
When I walked again I knew I could never return to this place
When I walked again I visited the creek and splashed
When I walked again the simple joys of life was lost to me
When I walked again I realized my life would move on.

When my life moved on I never found another girl like you
When my life moved on I went to college but I felt alone in the swarm of students
When my life moved on I graduated but the victory over the professors was hollow
When my life moved on back in 1956, I realized yours wouldn't

I can laugh and sing and dance, when you couldn't.
I can fall in love when you couldn't
I can cry at a sad movie, when you can't.
I can go down to the creek and splash to my hearts content, when you can't.
I can sit with my grandchildren and tell them of the good ol days, but you can't.
I can grow old with someone I love, when you will forever be 16.

I was 16 when I found and lost my soulmate
I was 16 when I was paralyzed
I was 16 when I walked again
I was 16 when I realized I can move on
I was 16 when I realized you will never have a full life.

A lot of things happened when we were 16.
For all the pain I endured,
for all the sleepless nights
For all the times I thought I could smell your hair only to remind myself I cant
for all the hours spent mourning
for all the regret I have I know one thing to be true.

I never stopped worrying about you
I never stopped mourning you
I never stopped thinking about you
I never stopped hearing your laugh
I never stopped loving you.

So now I lay on my deathbed and I wait eagerly for Death.
So now I lay on my deathbed alone with no one left to care about me
So now I lay on my deathbed and I realize something and I smile.

When a soulmate dies they are forever trapped within your heart.
Its a reminder you see, that one day you will be reunited in death.