The Not Happy Thread

The important thing is that you can always make your life better. You can and will be emotionally better later. People survive grief all the time. My dad died when I was fourteen and I survived. While I can't say I ever felt destroyed or suicidal, I grieved and then I moved on. I'm sure you can too with a bit longer. Once someone's been out of your life for long enough it no longer feels out of place not having them there. And romantic relationships can be replaced eventually. As the saying goes there are plenty of fish in the sea.

 

This is very intense. Damn. So sorry.

 

It sucks, and I hate it when I see people sending "hopes and thoughts", but that's all I've got right now, so if it helps, know that my hopes and thoughts are with you, for whatever they're worth on your end.

 

These words and thoughts mean more than you probably realise.

 

So, a few weeks ago I posted on the Happy Thread saying how I finally landed a few job interviews and things were looking up (at least in regards to my career prospects). Well I didn't get hired and I'm back to where I was before. Part hopeless, part dejected and fully broke.

The bright side is that I have loads of time to write, which I'm taking advantage of. I'm thick skinned and I know I can get through this period but not having any purpose or structure really has beat me up over the past several months. I haven't seen my friends in god knows how long, but I've seen their social media and they've been up to all sorts (mainly travelling). I can't help but feel envious.

Now I have had a skim read of all the previous posts here, and realised my problems pale in comparison to most. Regardless, I still needed to vent.

Hope everyone the best of their luck with whatever problems they have in their lives.

 

I started writing a short story that was driven by anger and a wanting a sense of justice, but then I slipped back into depression and lost excitement about it. At first the story felt over-the-top and satisfying in my mind--now it feels like a sad situation with a misguided and delusion character instead of a bad person. I still kind of like the story but I have no idea what to do about the tone.

Do you guys ever have anything like this happen?

 

Is there anyone you can send it to for feedback? I find my mood influences the tone I get from a piece, so when I'm feeling down my writing sounds flat and emotionless to me. When I read it in a better mood, I find it's actually vivid and interesting.

 

This happens to me too, @Jipset. She's right, and it could just be your mood that's influencing your view. It kinda sounds like slipping into depression made you see things the characters way a bit more than you did before?

 

I actually haven't even started a draft yet but I have the whole story outlined. Hmm... maybe I should just write it out and see what happens.

It definitely did. Maybe that's not as bad of a thing as I think, though.

 

@Jipset Have you ever read The Count of Monte Cristo?
That is a great example of a revenge story, and it takes
on many tones throughout the book. As well as having a
broader range of how Edmund Dantes gets vengeance on
every body who is on his shit list.

It is kinda fun to write a good revenge story, can really
let out the darker side of yourself. It is cathartic in
a way.

 

I would write it out and see what happens, and, no, it is probably not a bad thing. If I had to guess it's a very good thing (not that you're depressed). Seeing 'bad' people as more than the acts they commit is never going to be a bad thing in the medium of writing. It's how you give them depth.

 

Yes, because hurricanes aren't bad enough as it is...let's make them RADIOACTIVE!

 

Who the hell thinks nuking a storm will do something?
That is the thought of a real rocket surgeon with both
hands in the plutonium.

 

Don't forget the alien robopiranha under terran brainwashing at Area 51 to be used as military weapons. Throw those in there too. Then film the chaos and sell it to "Syfy".

 

Why do I have a feeling of dread they'll do Sharknado: Nuclear Hurricane now?

 

Well, I guess there WAS a tornado created by hurricane Irma, so I'd imagine we're not too far off from a breakthrough.

 

Breakthrough, breakdown...same difference, right?

 

You made a typo. You said "dread" instead of "excitement."

 

Fixed that for you.

 

As long as something's breaking I suppose

 

If we're lucky it'll be the hands of the people who dare to pen such an abomination.

 

I'd better pray for my hands before they're broken then, or else I won't be able to pray...